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36. Never Be Afraid Before You Step

Are you still so afraid of stepping that you end up in one place??

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Which two choices will I make?. Bian came when my heart wound had just recovered. Doni brings up memories of the past.

After a long time of thinking about this alone I finally asked Natasha for advice. I can't wrestle with myself. Ask and answer everything yourself in mind.

This morning when there was leisure time in the boutique, I told Natasha everything from the beginning of Bian and Doni's approach. It ended at the same time as they expressed feelings.

"You love Bian, Orchid, and Doni is just your past". Natasha patted my shoulder that was leaning on the chair.

"Yes, I like the way Bian shows attention. When she drove me home from your party, the way she approached Dewo and the other little attention."

"Why don't you just say it. Wait for the orchid." Natasha asked gauntly.

"Danar and Diandra? You forgot my main point of rejection, Nat." I complained about Natasha not seeming to listen to my story.

"What would they do if you were in touch. Want your getokin? Haha."

"That's not funny Natasha."

"I think it's funny, you're afraid of their words. Remember words are not actions. They haven't even acted!"

I exhaled. Review every word Natasha.

"Trust me, Bian is an adult if he dares to refuse the arranged marriage made by his parents and move to this city by starting a business independently. It's very likely that he'll fight for your relationship."

"I was scared when our relationship was serious but the Bian family still refused my presence, Nat. I can't be hurt a second time."

"You haven't even met Bian's parents. All the words that Danar and Diandra spoke did not necessarily represent the voice of their parents."

"You were never in my position Natasha! You're beautiful, rich, attractive, everyone wants to be your best friend, your lover. You were born with luck and privilege. You're never rejected in the environment." I stared at Natasha. Makes Natasha's smooth white face flushed.

"I don't see a tough Orchid, good at fighting for desire here. You are still traumatized by Adicolor. You haven't been in this relationship. Imagined and imagined that this relationship would fail."

"I.. I'm just scared of Nat. I'm afraid I'm disappointed again."

"If you are still afraid of continuing a relationship with a good man then you will be single forever or you can marry a man you don't love."

"Switched.. I don't know how to."

"You know what to do. Take Bian, start a new love life. Don't just make smart money."

"Find money using the mind instead of using the heart. I can control my mind but it's hard when it comes to the heart" I pointed at the forehead and pointed towards the chest.

"Prepare your mentality. Forget about your past. Bian does not see a person's physique as different from his twin brother's. I wonder today there are still people who have views like twin sister Bian. They're looking for a sister-in-law or top model for her sister. Just make it up."

I laughed and heard Natasha's words. I looked out the window watching the traffic in front of the boutique. Imagine someone with an antique car and a camera in his hand.

"Anggrek, I'm saying this because my aunt was single until her old age because she had been hurt by her lover. His life choices may be that he is happy with his choices but his former lover lives happily with his wife, children and grandchildren. That's not fair in my opinion."

"Yes he's single for fear of opening his heart to other men like me right now." I said shrewdly.

"You can Orchid, Rest assured."

Natasha was right that I was playing with my mind. Imagining failure that is not necessarily happening and then choose not to step.

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I had a busy day at the boutique with Natasha and Tania. A few examples of clothes coming from the services of tailors have arrived at boutiques. We sorted and decided to use two tailors.

Sales were not what we expected but still brought in a bit of profit. I was with an employee on the second floor, controlling the packing of online customer orders when Natasha approached me.

"See me wait for a moment. I want to dance first, I still want to cook." I combed my hair with my hands.

"Slowly I've told him to go upstairs."

"Why didn't you say that."

"Because he's behind you! Hi Bian this Orchid. Just come in, Sorry, the room is a mess. You sit anywhere whatever. Not sitting down is okay either. I'll say yes."

With confidence left I looked. My eyes collided with Bian's pair of clear eyes.

"Sorry to bother Orchids, you seem to be busy. I just stopped by for a second now to leave Natasha the same but she forced her way here."

"It's okay." I glanced at the clerk who was still packing things, They pretended to be indifferent but I'm not sure so because of how many times Mina and Tania's eyes glanced at Bian.

"I want to give this vitamin to you, Nggrek. You are always busy working but do not forget to take care of your health. Please read my message. I'm saying yes, you don't have to take me to continue your work."

"Thank you, Bian."

Bian handed me a small packet of plastic labeled dispensary. A simple thought that moved me.

When Bian disappeared from the entrance. The cheers of the clerk boomed and Natasha's face appeared from behind the door.

"Ciee.. Vitamin C, right? Love vitamins."

"We were just considered masking dust for package packaging. The world belongs to them." Tania added to the rowdy atmosphere. My face was hot with them.

I pinched Natasha's arm with her initiative because she was the one who forced Bian to meet me.

"I'm not going to stop being a Bian supporter. He's a good guy, handsome again. All I'll do until you're united." Natasha patted his chest. I just sneered.

I immediately pulled over to the other room opening a green message from Bian.

"I was swab. How many days ahead there are plans to Jakarta. You have time to get out?"

"May Bian, what time is it?"

"You usually what time it is because lately you've been busy said Dewo."

"Hour seven nights, Bian. Oh yes thanks for the vitamins."

"Together, Nggrek. I'm sorry I broke what I said. I can't wait for your answer for an uncertain time."

"You're asking for his certainty, Bian?"

"Yes Orchid but not in the form of a message. I want to hear from you."

"Yes Bian."

"See you tonight, Orchid. Whatever decision you make, I'll accept."

"Good Bian, Goodbye."

"The Orchid."

I closed the device. Natasha is right, It is not better to fail but to try rather than retreat and lose before trying..

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