The Soulmate Must Meet

Episode 35 - Symphony

Joseph still looked at my face. I have no power to declare it, though this heart did choose him to be my priest. There is a feeling of guilt for Masriyah and Iwan if I choose Joseph. They are two people who always help me in joy and sorrow, should I forget the goodwill?

But, choosing Amir would certainly let myself regret it for a lifetime. Yusuf was more independent, he could survive on his own feet, while Amir, everything already available to his family, not thinking too much about the future, he only needed marriage to complete his life.

“I'm not pushy, if indeed we are not a match, we can be friends. It might be better...” Yusuf said.

“I..”

My voice was stifled again.

“It is difficult to decide something that concerns the heart. Maybe I was too quick to make a decision to make you my next door, I'm sorry.”.

“No Joseph, I am confused. Actually... someone else was betrothed to me.”

Joseph was silent for a moment, his facial expression was shocked. However, he smiled, his face turning bright again.

“If he is your soul mate, I am happy..” he said.

Really, this heart wants to scream. Yusuf was so sincere, so sincere about giving me freedom, but I liked him, why did he not defend me? O Allah, give the servant the strength to face this crisis of the heart, lest I be tempted by the whisper of the damned devil, so as to obtain the error of making a choice.

“But..”.

Again my voice choked in my throat.

“Anggun, I'm a boy. A man must choose a sincere woman to be his minister, because the journey of marriage is very long. If one of them is not sincere to face the trip, then everything will fall apart. After all.. I am just a teacher, a mediocre salary and.”.

“No. That's not the problem, Joseph. I am too afraid to choose, for I am but a kara, and they have brought me out of the darkness. I don't want to be called someone who doesn't know to return the favor.”

Yusuf's forehead is wrinkled. However, he seems to be trying to control himself, however, people who have love, will definitely not be willing to let go of loved ones to leave.

“Everything I leave to you..”.

There is a sense of sin in me, why am I so worried. Why should I sacrifice this feeling?

“But... ak.. i.. I want to choose you to become the priest of the world and the hereafter.”.

I directly lowered. I could not see his face, although I finally could say it, this chest was relieved.

“Are you not in pressure?”

I raised my head, then shook my head, indicating that I was ready for everything.

“I'd love to be accompanied by you.”

His eyes twinkled, and indeed Joseph wanted me to be his companion. Sincere love, I felt it from the sight of his eyes, from the glare that harbors happiness.

Meanwhile, people began to arrive in the park of this area. Starting in the afternoon, the park is in the middle of regional offices, Sumber area is shady and cool. This heart is still pounding, is what I am doing this will not cause misfortune?

“So when can I see your parents?” ask Yusuf.

Deg. My heart seems to be stopping, what should I say? My father's in prison, if I say so, does Joseph still want to ask me?

“My father is in jail.”

I boldly said that, Joseph was surprised, there was a look of disbelief in my words, but he tried to remain calm.

“Are you not lying?”

I shook my head.

Joseph took a breath, then laid his back on the garden chair. Before he thought much, I immediately told him my whole life from beginning to end. If Joseph did not want to ask me because of my past, I was sincere, and would never regret it, the most important thing is that I have dared to say it.

Tears flowed, the pain opened again. I remembered my mother, remembering the suffering of her days. I remembered my father's sins, and I remembered the pain of my life.

“That's my past. And I'm aware of my shortcomings, if you don't want to accept them, I accept.”. I tried to remove the tears that flowed on the cheeks, sobs were still heard hunting.

“Everybody has a past. You have dared to reveal it to me, you are truly a Muslim. Not everyone who is willing to undergo this test from God.”

Joseph looked up at the sky, the swiftlets flying, beautifying the horizon this afternoon.

“I never changed my decision. Find me with your father in jail, I'll propose to you.”

I was shocked. Is that really what Joseph said? Did I not hear wrong? Could it be that I was dreaming so much that I misheard it?

“I'm serious!” joseph said convincing me.

The situation began to light up, I wanted to embrace Joseph, venting my happiness that was burning. Like the waves of the ocean that hit the reef, this pleasure scattered into the air. My waiting is coming to an end, my bachelor's days are coming to an end, I am going to face the days of marriage, which is full of love flowers. Joseph, you are my angel of life.

“When will you meet him?”

I looked into Joseph's eyes, looking to see if this wasn't just an uproar. But his eyes were very bright, leaving me no longer able to speak. For a moment I relieved the turmoil in my chest, letting the uneasiness disappear, buffeted by the wind this afternoon. After I calmed down, I smiled at Joseph, then prepared to get up from my seat.

“Alright, I'll drop you off now,” I said.

Joseph also stood up, and we went to his motorbike parked under a tree, and we drove to the prison, to see my father. On the way, my nose was fluttering, I still couldn't believe if this was true or not, everything was like a dream, everything happened so fast, it felt like only yesterday I knew Joseph, and now he's going to propose to me.

The breeze of the afternoon fluttered the tip of my veil, the sun began to lean west, and I realized.

“Yusuf? Today isn't it afternoon?” my many.

Slowly Joseph pulled the bike over, then turned to look at me sitting behind him.

“Yes yes?” he's a dumbass.

We looked at each other, then laughed. Maybe it was because we got carried away with pleasure that we forgot that tomorrow's hour in prison can't be done in the afternoon. And we shook our heads, feeling ashamed of each other.

“It is better tomorrow we go there,” Yusuf said.

I nodded, Yusuf started the engine, then prepared for the road. Suddenly a car stopped in front of us. I wonder, it seems like the car I recognize, is it possible…???

A man came down. And approaching us, his eyes were sharp, as if he wanted to stab us with anger.

“Can we talk for a while Anggun,” said Amir.

He must have been burned by the jealous fire, I got off the bike. Joseph and I looked at Amir, and went a few meters away from Joseph.

“I want to collect your promise about my question,” Amir said without further ado.

I catch my breath, so I don't get it wrong. It must be resolved soon, I do not know if Amir spied on me, or perhaps he accidentally saw me while chatting with Joseph. I don't know, for sure I don't want any misunderstandings, let alone blind jealousy, even though I don't give any hope of accepting the proposal.

“Sorry if what Ang Amir saw made Ang Amir's feelings hurt. But, Yusuf is my choice, forgive me Ang.., I can't choose you,” I said.

“You should be honest from the beginning.”

“I've tried to be honest, but..”

“It turns out you are no different from other women! Your hijab is just a mask, covering all your ugliness.”

O God, why did Amir say that? There was no heart to hurt him, nothing, I really wanted to do for my future.

“I'm sorry Ang. but I don't mean to cover everything, I told Ms. Masriyah everything, at that time I was still worried. But now I have decided that Joseph is my future priest, my future father for my children.”

Suddenly Amir approached Joseph. What will he do? Do not get into fights, especially on the edge of the highway like this. I followed him just in case something unwanted happened.

“Your name is Yusuf?” ask Amir.

“Assalamu’alaikum..,” saya Yusuf.

“Wa’alaikumussalam!” ketus answer.

“Really my name is Yusuf, is there something wrong with me?” joseph asked, he was calm.

“I Amir, future husband Graceful! You better stay away from her, because it is illegal if you are close to a woman who will be someone else's wife!”

Why did Amir say that? But, Joseph took it easy, did he know from my story?

“Better we hear directly from Anggun,” Yusuf said as he glanced at me.

Oh my God, what should I say? Lift up my bosom, ease my business, remove the mismanagement of my tongue so that people may understand my words, O Lord. Do this heart to strengthen it.

Joseph's gaze pierced my eyes, then fell into the heart, feeling this warm chest, there was a spirit and confidence from his gaze, as if he said he would always protect what was happening.

“Ang Amir.. Yusuf is my future husband, may Ang Amir sincerely accept my decision,”.

Amir turned his head towards me, maybe he was surprised I dared to say that. He thought I would lose if he dared to attack Joseph, but I was even more resolute than him. Amir was silent for a moment, his face was full of confusion and disappointment, I felt sorry for him, but everything was said, there was no way I could bother.

Without saying anything, Amir walked away from us. A step that carries a wound, so painful, that the sound of his shoes slashes my heart. His car immediately sped up, an unusual speed. This heart is anxious, I am afraid that something bad happened to Amir, he must be very disappointed.

“Did I sin Joseph, wound a man who turned out he loved me too?” my many.

“Do not punish yourself with that thought, only God can determine sin or not. The main thing now is to give a prayer to Amir for his heart to be opened, explained from anxiety, deep disappointment.”

I looked at Joseph. He smiled, offering a sense of anxiety in my heart. A man who deserves to be a model. The noble character. Maybe this is the result of the life shock he experienced in a difficult time first, which he made the wisdom to continue to improve himself. He has been able to change the way he looks, his behavior with the knowledge he has. I became more and more convinced that Joseph was the soul mate God had given me. Insha'allah.

The sun is sinking, leaving an orange in the sky.