The Soulmate Must Meet

Episode 30 - Anxiety of the Soul

Mr. Iwan greeted me like never before. His face was so radiant, had Mr Teguh told him that the presentation went very well? It can't be that big, because public speaking isn't the same as a birthday, it's mediocre.

“There is waiting for you in the waiting room,” he said.

Huh huh? Is anyone waiting for me? Wh who? I don't have any brothers here, anywhere. Maybe my two best friends?

“Who Sir?” I tried to treat my curiosity.

“See for yourself..”

He even rolled his eyes while giving a thumbs up. This must be a shrimp behind the stone, something hidden by Mr. Iwan. I stepped towards the waiting room, with my heart pounding.

Arriving in the waiting room, there was a man sitting while reading the newspaper. His figure is no stranger to me, it's appropriate that Mr. Iwan is excited.

“Ang Amir?”

“Assalamu’alaikum,” greet Amir then put down the Newspaper.

“Wa’alaikumussalam. Is something important, huh? Until coming to the office everything..”.

“No, just stopped by while nengokin Om Iwan. Yeah.meet also meet you. How are you?”

“Good Ang..”

I sat facing him. The look in her eyes that meant that she wanted me. A woman like me can certainly see the great desire of a man.

“I'm not good at small talk.” he said.

“Means?”

“Mmm... Actually I want to inquire about that answer.”

I'm down. Amir has indeed matured from an age, and he is not an unattractive man. Only I have no desire to be with him, my feelings do not say. I don't know if I should refuse or accept it.

If I refuse, I'm still alone, I don't have a partner. Why don't I try first, but if I accept, I'm still worried, not yet fully know Amir.

“What should now?” my many.

“If you already have an answer, of course I am very happy to hear it now.”

Back this heart is stirred. Amir is his nephew, sir Iwan, should I reject him? Then how is my relationship with Mr Iwan? I'm afraid I'll fall into the job if I reject Amir.

“I can't decide yet,” I said.

Amir took a deep breath. The face of disappointment began to look, he was trying to control himself. Perhaps, his journey here was in vain, but for me it was not in vain, just that Amir had shown his seriousness to propose me, only that I was not ready to begin, to end his single life with Amir.

“Do I not look like a serious man?” tanyakanya.

“Not that, no.. Please give it a little time. It's not easy to decide about the wedding, I..”

“I understand. Must be someone else?”

“No. Right now, I don't have anyone.”

Amir looks happy to hear it, his eyes dim, looks shiny, he really hopes to ask me, could the flowers of love grow in his heart? If so, does a man love a woman so quickly? While it takes a long time for women to get love to grow in the heart.

“It takes how long to get an answer?”

“I can't be sure yet.”

“But I need certainty.”

We looked at each other.

“Give me a month,” I said.

“What is it not too long?”

Amir sighed, it seemed like he had given up on making me answer what he wanted. He was in such a hurry, making me even more doubtful whether he was serious or just playing. Sometimes good intentions if done in a hurry, especially accompanied by lust, will not be good.

“Alright if it makes you comfortable, I will wait.”

“Thank you.”

The room is silent, only the clock ticks. Me and Amir just fell silent, I don't know what else to say, and Amir also seems to have run out of questions, he doesn't like to interrogate women, usually men are more selective in choosing, he said, must know seedlings, bebet and weights.

“I say goodbye first, maybe you will continue the work.”

I raised my head.

“Thank you for stopping by.”

Amir smiled, then said his greetings. I answered his greetings, he got up from his seat out of the room. I also came out along with him, we passed by Mr. Iwan. Amir talked while I asked for permission to eat lunch, because from then on this stomach was rumbling.

I ordered meatballs, then sat down, looked at the street. The buskers were resting under the tree, they were joking, laughter was cheerful to see from them, as if life was indeed to be laughed at. There is no burden that they carry, as if life for them is a pleasure.

Can I enjoy happiness like them? Is my future full of jokes and laughter? I'm tired of feeling the pain and failure in life, and I'm sure God can't always give me that pain constantly.

The meatball surprised my daydream. A bowl of hot meatballs was already in front of me, without a second thought I devoured them. Life must be focused, forget the past, enjoy the present and plan for the future, not remember and blame the past.

Hunger makes me more greedy eating meatballs, everything feels good if eating when hungry.

“By Father join?”

Mr. Iwan stood in front of me, he smiled, then sat down and ordered a meatball. I stopped eating, trying not to look hungry.

“Please, Sir..”

As the sky dims, the sun's light is blocked by clouds, nature is glorifying to God for mankind, in this heart of remembrance, giving up this life only for worship. Because in worship does not have to be in a state of prayer, under any circumstances and wherever worship remains the most important.

“Amir has told everything to Mr.”

Deg.

Why Amir should involve Mr. Iwan. Is this not a private affair between Amir and me. There's a bad taste, what do I have to answer? It is better to be silent, that peer is the noblest thing if in anxiety.

“Indeed, Amir still does not fit your ideal priest type?”

The question that makes me even more unpleasant, there is a satirical meaning in the question. I didn't choose the perfect priest candidate, but I wanted someone I knew, and he recognized me.

“Not that Sir... I..”.

“You're still not sure about Amir's seriousness?”

I took a drink, then drank it, there was a dry taste in my esophagus. Then, I nodded, a sign that I was not sure of Amir's seriousness.

“Bapak sure Amir is not kidding, he's your nephew. So... You don't have to worry,” he said.

“Because he's your nephew, so you don't worry and know all about Amir. However, I am someone else, who has never known him at all, so.. I just need time Sir.”.

Mr. Iwan looked at me, there was a sense of regret in that view, maybe he regretted that I took too long to make a decision.

I know, Mr. Iwan and Amir want it all done quickly, they don't want to wait any longer. And actually I do too in marriage, it is not good to know men for years without any marriage ties.

However, it is not that easy to make a decision in determining the Imam in this life.

Women depend on men, and so do men. They need each other, I want a priest who can understand my needs, and I also understand his needs.

Mr. Iwan took a long breath.

“Alright... I understand,” he said.

Not long ago meatballs ordered by Mr. Iwan came, and I continued eating with Mr. Iwan, let the mystery of my soul mate revealed by itself, because the soul mate is a secret that becomes a divine mystery, people are just trying to get the best of the best.