The Shah of First Love

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“Do not want to ask why I am not married?” He smiled and Kani preferred to look the other way. “You are also unmarried, obviously only I can stop by occupying your heart and mind.”

Kani rounded her eyes and glanced in annoyance. “Who am I saying I'm not married? If yes, what is a single woman the reason should be because of men?”

Amarendra glanced around and pulled Kani's hand until the girl was forced to lean her body and the faces of the two almost clashed.

“I'm like I used to be, love you so much. I'm honest because I don't want any more misunderstandings between us, unlike you who are busy lying to your own feelings. Maybe true, I came back useless.” He was so lackluster and Kani couldn't bear to see him.

“I love you a lot too, Amarendra. Never for a second turned away even in all the years you left me, I was still single because I could not accept the touch of another man. I always dreamed you were back but I'm afraid it's just a wishful thinking. So, I decided to never expect you to come back to me. I'm very self-conscious, always hurting you.” Kani kept her head down. He sobbed softly and Amarendra grabbed his hand again.

“I'm here, Kani. Why do you think I'm not coming back?”

“I even thought you were married to Kirana, had handsome and beautiful children, inheriting it from you two. I'm just a lowly country girl who always makes it difficult for you, blocking your success path, I'm really just a troublesome woman.” His crying grew even more intense and Amarendra looked at him so deeply.

“Kirana who even canceled our matchmaking after she came to her senses and married another man because she knew, I would never be able to reciprocate her feelings. Being with me would even make him miserable.”

“Iya! And you never said that you were betrothed to him. I'm like the third person among you.” Kani's upset.

“But I never thought of it.” Amarendra tried to convince.

“But what's hard to tell from the beginning?” Kani stared weakly with her wet eyes. “Even now I don't deserve to be with you. Find another woman who is your equal, not me, meeting you is enough for me, Maren. Happy Mother, marry.” His grasp loosened but Amarendra kept it.

“You're not in your right mind talking so?” He stared in annoyance.

“I just said a reality. I love you so much but I never expected you back even to the point of marrying me, no, Maren. After all I have accepted another man even though he is younger than me. Forced because I want to make my family relieved, especially my father and mother.” Kani meant it and Amarendra tightened his grip. Don't expect him to let go.

“Cancel! I'm already here, don't expect me to let you go for another man. You're just mine.” His eyes squinted and another hand lifted. He reaches into his wallet and Kani fears Amarendra is reckless.

“Maren..” Trying to persuade but the man interrupted his words.

“Shut! I don't want to hear your obscure rant!” He cheated and paid for everything and took Kani away. He wants to see Kani's family now, not to delay.

In the car, heading to Kani's house, Amarendra noticed the woman playing with her fingers, the ring there and her lips turned a happy smile.

“Where are the earrings I once gave you?” amarendra asked when he saw that Kani's earlobes were so innocent.

“Lost next door, sorry. Maren, don't do this, undo your intention to go to my house, stop.” Kani tried to hold back because she was coming soon.

Amarendra's eyes squealed with anger.

“True you, yes!!” Amarendra got angry and pulled his car over. “You always want me to meet your family, I'm ready for everything and you don't want to?” His tone was full of emotion.

“You can see me and yourself? Distinguishing difference between us. We can only love each other but not be together. Please, Maren, understand a little.” Kani stared withered and Amarendra glared.

“OK, choose a woman for me to marry but the condition is that you stay with me.” He grins.

“You're crazy! Wanted to make me an affair, Maren. You really have the heart!” His eyes were watery and he hit the man's shoulder strongly but had no effect whatsoever.

“That's also what you asked for when you were getting married to Kalingga.” One of his eyebrows shot up and his eyes glanced at Kani.

“Truly willing to see me in the guarantee with another woman?” He tried to hold back his smile.

“Terden! I won't come.” His chest suddenly tightened, just heard especially if he saw.

“Yes, since you won't be able to even if you are, I will kiss her in front of you, is that what you want, want to see that? Really? Huh!”

Kani pushes Amarendra's shoulder, about to get out but the door is still locked.

“Maren, open!”

“Don't act, lest I do something crazy to keep you quiet. Let's talk about it.” Her voice softened and Kani sat back down quietly. “Serious, already received another man?” His eyes looked sad, he was late.

Kani shook her head, replying to one message from Bara did not make everything special. There is no passion to serve the young man who continues to send a message smelling love, Kani felt saw Shamsir was kasmaran and decided not to serve Bara further, he said, he was no longer worthy and would not be flattered by such a thing, it even made him grimace amused.  Amarendra was relieved. The opportunity for him was wide open.

“Sorry because I didn't say anything, that matchmaking, I didn't feel the need to say it. I never thought it was special. I'm much more busy planning our lives. But everything breaks down after you change, you lie a lot, you don't accept being lied to for one thing. Then how about you who lie, many times, but I try to hold back when I know you are so because discussing it will actually make our troubled relationship more complicated. Just imagine what a wound in my heart hurts like, Kani.  It hurts, one lie you hit again with another lie, you do it again to be safe from me, but everything I know easily because what we planned will not forever run smoothly. I'm really devastated let alone seeing you piggybacked on another man but when I asked you to solve the problem, you were a lot of excuses, you lied again and again.”

He sighed after saying everything he had withstood for so many years. She always covered up and Kani slowly looked at her. Looking at Amarendra who was busy looking down.

“I'm sorry, Maren.”

“You chose Kalingga, it hurts the most. It made me self-conscious about my status and you said you were being betrothed but in fact you volunteered to accept it, you were attracted to it, you ignored me. Don't want to wait until I can come to propose to you.”

Kani is closing in. Narrowed Amarendra's hand and leaned against the man's shoulder.

“I've never been interested in him. I swear, I was forced to move away slowly little by little so you wouldn't suspect that, when our meeting I changed, I was forced to do that. I met Mr. Sutan at an event, I was all-outhe realized that my position was definitely not worth you, with all of you.”

A few years ago, Kani who was always invited to attend many events by her employer was also invited by Shahnaz and Satya. The lavish wedding of an artist in one of the buildings in Bandung that year. Shahnaz asks Kani not to wear a Baby Siter uniform. Shahnaz bought him a beautiful new dress, thinking of Kani as a younger brother because Shahnaz was only the only child in his family but Kani was self-conscious about her position. She looked after her employer's smallest child as she should, until meeting other nannies in official uniforms.

“I am also a maid, babysitter.” Kani smiled widely and they couldn't believe her appearance from top to bottom.

“Masa, anyway, Mbak?”

“Iya, but indeed I work with my employer here not through the foundation. They are good, I was asked to wear this nice shirt.” Kani smiled again and touched a little long ash-colored dres.

“Well they are, Ma'am Kani is very lucky.” One was so astonished and the other held their praise to the heart for not believing it completely.

Kani sits among them, occasionally seeing her foster children. A man who had just come to the corner watched Kani closely. He Sutan who immediately scratched his head saw the girl of his nephew's adoration.

Kani who was consciously noticed gasped to see who was there. Staring at him low and a mocking smile.

“That's It's Maren.” Kani lowered her head again after confirming, the man is really Om her lover whom she saw while in Malang.

Kani says goodbye and brings her foster children. But, Sutan blocked his path.

“Kaniraras?” His hands pointed and Kani nodded. “Whatever clothes you wear, your position is there.” His eyes pointed at the Baby Siter.