The Shah of First Love

A FRAGILE attitude that does not feel

The day Kani awaited arrived, she willingly stayed until twelve pm, waiting in the chair while her mother slept on the mat while hugged Shamsir. His mother woke up when he patted her on the arm. She immediately shook her husband's hand and looked at the confused and tired face of her husband.

“Pak, Where do I go?” kani said after putting a glass of water. He charged with a cheerful face.

His father had not even sat down, and Kani also got a sharp look from his mother, but it was not enough to make him silent.

“Hp is like me, right, sir?” Kani said again with great enthusiasm.

His father had just finished drinking and looked at him.

“Bapak can not buy Hp, do’ course hopefully soon there are rrezeki Mr. has said just wait, you can not promise to buy Hp in the near future,” His Father replied meekly while wiping sweat with his own shirt.

Kani's face suddenly clouded, her hands clenched.

“I want it as soon as possible, Sir. I thought you came home with that HP,” he said roughly and his mother approached, pinching her elbow.

“You didn't see your Father just arrived?” her mother and Kani were scowling.

“But, Mom. I need Hp, I promised my friends to take Hp to school, if you do not bring Hp, why go home?” Kani's eyes water, she's disappointed, and her mother almost hits her if Mr. Muji doesn't hold back. Kani passed stomping feet on the floor of his house made of wooden boards, very noisy, making the sound of the cupboards rattling was heard, his sisters woke up thinking there was an earthquake. Arriving in the room, Kani pulls her small table full of books, pen containers, table lamps, and then she sweeps everything to the floor.

His anxious mother wanted to rebuke him but Mr. Muji held him back.

“What kind of attitude do we need to let, sir?” Ms. Ismi didn't take it. She was sick to see her husband's tired face, disappointed. “This is due to the Father agreeing to everything he wants.”

“It is fitting that we make the child happy, Mom.” said Mr. Muji was cut off when Shamsir came out of the room and looked confused.

Ms. Ismi kept quiet by holding back the anger while her husband was busy talking to her youngest child to distract her.

Tomorrow, Kani goes to school without waiting for her sisters, she leaves without breakfast, avoiding her father who greets her and she puts on an unfriendly face. His mother could not bear the annoyance and ended up crying while stirring the fried rice.

All of Kani's sisters were just busy looking at each other questioningly. Twice their brother missed breakfast even though he had a stomach disease for a long time.

Four days Mr. Muji at home, Kani's attitude continues to be bland and away from him. His daughter protested and considered him to break the promise, but he had made sure to buy a cell phone just took time until Mr. Muji went to work again, Kani still avoids him and Miss Ismi who can not stand it and hurt to reprimand her son who is now studying in front of his small table.

Ms. Ismi stood on the lip of the door which was only covered with red curtains with a swan character. Dahlia and Kenanga who were studying also on the bed looked tense.

The sound of plastic cups was thrown loud and the contents spilled onto the book Kani.

“If you really know how to buy a HP in a short time, just buy it yourself there! The eldest son of his father's pride now hurts him. You never understand how tired your father is there, when making a living, your life is just busy dreaming and trivializing everything!” Ms. Ismi could not help the high tone the neighbors could hear.

“What does one child ask his parents for?” kani whispered but it was heard by Bu Ismi who was now approaching and shaking her head.

“But your request is too expensive for your poor parents. Why don't you get it too, huh!” Ms. Ismi jerks and Kani tears up. Ms. Ismi passed by as she left the narrow room. The longer there, it would even make her more emotional. Kani dared to answer his words, Ms. Ismi felt increasingly hurt.

Kani was still in her place, her two younger siblings behind her were staring at each other.

“We are not like him, always dreaming, not aware also with the reality of life,” said Dahlia to Kenanga who now directly lowered her head. The insinuation made Kani look over quickly.

“Why are you being so mature, Dahlia! You also have dreams, maybe even more than me!” toilet Kani with red and wet eyes while glaring. He threw his wet book right on Dahlia's face. Dahlia held back the tears and Kenanga broke the two, if they did not stop, their mother would come back and this time might scold the three of them.

Dahlia throws Kani's book on the floor and curls up, forcing her eyes to shut even when wet.  

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KANI wiped her tears, she was aloof behind the school and continued to happen last night when her mother was furious. Every now and then Kani has a whim, she really wants a new cell phone especially after this morning Citra showed off her phone that had obtained permission for her to take to school. She then? The more intensively questioned his three friends about his number and mobile phone. Somehow he had to answer especially if his three friends knew he was lying.

“Hit him!” The yelling sound that Kani was familiar with made her turn her head and it was Aldi, asking Heri to hit Amarendra who both dragged violently. Amarendra looked calm, or whether he resigned even though his clothes were tangled and the buttons were also released.

“Don't approach Kani! He's mine, you understand? You're just a new student, don't be so powerful because the girls adore you, it won't be long!” Heri kept yelling with a face very close to Amarendra's face, he continued to tighten his grip because he never saw fear in Amarendra's face.

“Don't you think I didn't know that Kani was forced to accept you. He doesn't like you, not necessarily we have a relationship, you're wrong. We were only close because of a brief meeting without intentionality. My problem was with her at that time because you made her cry,”, Amarendra explained, shaking Heri's hand, he fought back and Heri got more upset and then raised her hand but she stopped as Kani brushed aside and pushed her chest away from Amarendra.

“Quite, Heri! You're nothing, anyway!” Kani stiffened, she who was upset added emotion. “You have no right to behave like this, we have nothing, and I have no sense of anything with you.” Kani continued to stand on her back to Amarendra. He was afraid that the man was injured because Heri then he would get into trouble.

“You like him? Admit it, everyone can see that. We are not blind!!” Aldi provokes and Kani shakes her head, fed up.

Kani stared at her shoulder that Amarendra touched.

“You lied back then said you were with him no relationship, just to avoid me?” Heri pointed at herself and Kani kept quiet. “He's no better than me, Kani.”

“At least he never forced me to like you,” Kani and Amarendra replied to look at him, he saw a tired and puffy face of the girl. Crying, why? The question came up and made him want to quickly end this unimportant debate.

“If I'm with Kani there really is a relationship you can what?” amarendra exclaimed making all eyes point at him. “We are indeed close, kok.” Amarendra is now lying, do not have the heart to see Kani constantly pursued Heri.

Heri and Aldi's eyes were rounded while Amarendra stared at Kani.