The Love of Young Master

Chapter 7 MY OWN

The atmosphere at the dinner table suddenly became very quiet after my mother-in-law finished the words. The grandfather, Mr. Surya Wirajaya and papa-in-law were just silent and busy observing our conversation from now on. Maybe he doesn't want any commotion in this house. He chose to be quiet and observe. Or it was their rule that I should have been the one to blame the most.

Yes, because of Miss Sarah, my mother-in-law is the first child of this family. Therefore, she is considered as the queen mother of the highest throne after her father, the owner of this kingdom of Wirajaya. And in the meantime, I'm just a seductress to their little prince, considered a cheesy girl looking for an opening to enter and become Cinderella. How sad!

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I try to chew and swallow my food well. I tried hard and hard to deal with the lessons of home life that I just started.

I'm actually confused. What should I do next. I'm also confused what this family really wants. Ah, I feel more miserable. I've never felt this bad in my life. No one has ever given this kind of humiliation in my life.

' Come on, Puspa! You can do it !' my mind is encouraging itself.

For a moment I remembered the words Reno said in the garden the other day, and her treatment just now towards me seemed more than enough to keep me strong and firm.

'Thank you, brother Reno!'. I looked at Brother Reno fixedly, wanting to feel like I ran crying on his shoulder. Although only a few days to know you, you are able to make me strong and stay strong with all the words and treatment of my mother-in-law earlier. As for Satria, the man I had always loved and hoped for, and now legally my husband, who should have been the first man to defend his wife, there was no defense of him. Notwithstanding !

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Still in the dining room

Dinner time is over. All the oldest family members had left the dining chair and they were already in their rooms.

Me, Satria and Reno's brother are still not moving, sitting quietly in our seats each . I was in the middle of both. Empty views. I don't know what's going on in my mind right now. Everything feels mixed into one. That was so confusing and confused I felt.

While bi Inah and bi Atin are busy cleaning the dining table. We just sat in our seats staring at the empty plates. A blank of the current atmosphere, gripping and feeling bland.

After a few minutes in a quiet mood,

" Dear, you like me being treated like that by your parents?". I asked slowly, trying to keep the atmosphere calm. There's actually a lot of things I want to ask him right now. In fact, I was eager to pull her up and cry sobbing on her shoulders, just like back then when we were dating. Every time I got into trouble and he swiftly grabbed me while rubbing my hair slowly. Ah, it seems that at this time it is impossible for it to happen again. It's impossible that he'll treat me romantically.

Satria did not budge.

" Why are you being? You answered dong! Where were you yesterday too? You said that. I left without news. I tried to call you many times. You just read it! Are you sorry you married me? Why did you drag me to your house after that you stayed. I never should have married you! In the end, you can't be the first person to protect me. You forgot your promise to mom's dad to take care of me and my womb?"

I began to look glassy, shaking the arm of Satria who was just sitting on my left side.

Falling my tears unstoppable, Satria remained silent. He took a long breath.

" That's it. You don't have to demand that much. I've been quiet enough to accept everything. My parents' treatment of you is enough that you just accept it with a big heart. The truth is that you are pregnant out of wedlock. That's not a good thing. Not what we expected. You knew? My parents want to send me abroad. Should I obey or refuse? I don't know what I'm supposed to do. It's all too heavy for a man my age. I'm too worried, Puspa. Do not talk much. Just according. That's what you have to do. I'm just like you. Don't know what's going to happen next !"

Satria looks stiff. Without the slightest expression of guilt. He began to ignore my feelings. I feel more cornered. Without anyone understanding my feelings and helping me. Crying out. That's all I can do right now.

Satria flicked her arm, trying to shake my hand off. I looked at him sharply. My tears that have fallen are unstoppable.

" Thank you for your treatment today, Satria. I know it's hard for you. I knew I had to work hard through all of this even though I had to separate rooms or keep my distance as your mother said. Okay, I get it. But, is your love that has been present between us just gone away? I'm pregnant with your son Satria. This is your son. It's not just my fault. We have to accept the same consequences. Do you look that low on me?" . I confirmed the look on his face. Nothing has changed one bit. Yeah, he doesn't seem to care anymore about me and my son. Our son whom I bear because of our love. Even though his presence made us become like this. I have to accept.

I confirmed once again the look on Satria's face. I hope he responds to my words. Wishing she would look at me, hold me in her arms, gently stroke my hair and kiss my forehead. As he used to do when I was sad. But no.Yes, he still did not change the look of his face. Stiff and sculpting. It was cold as if I wasn't in front of him.

After a few seconds, I finally understood everything. A situation like this I never imagined. I took off my grip on Satria's arm which was still sculpting and put on her stiff face.

I ran to my room. I buried myself back in my tears. ' Mother... Dad.. sorry I.. Sorry this kid.. Sorry I didn't know myself.. I have sinned so much against you. I want to go home, I want to go home. I just want mom's hug. It's true, a big house or a rich house is not all it is but family I'm just you guys my best place to go back.... '