The Love of Young Master

CHAPTER 16 I'M HURT

Beyond my expectations, Shasha just lowered her head. He just stood still and stared. Setting his sitting position shifted leaning on the seat next to me. Release the seat belt quietly without saying anything.

" Sha, I also didn't previously know that my game with Puspa got her pregnant. I never thought this would happen. Everything's out of control."

Shasha quiet. His face turned red. But, there was no reaction when I said everything about Puspa's pregnancy and our marriage which had reached the age of 7 months.

" I don't do that many times, not even every day or every meeting. Just once and that too because of the circumstances and the atmosphere that arrived - suddenly made me able to do that. Different from what I used to do with you, Sha. I really enjoyed it. It is very much looking forward to every touch and warmth of your body scent. It's like the opium I want to do every time we meet."

Shasa was still tight-lipped. Didn't say a word. Suddenly, her tears flowed. The defense dam has broken down. He could no longer hold back every statement I made. The sound of his sobbing sounded very raucous.

" So now you're starting to enjoy that woman too? The Puspa you said you didn't love at all. In fact, you first did that relationship with Puspa right? Not me. What do you feel now? I think you really dumped him first. Totally parted from him and forgot our silly game because everything was back to normal. We are united as you always hoped for. Now, I love you and you love me." Shasha suddenly accused my face of hitting my chest blindly.

" I think we're a normal couple. In fact, I am dating the husband of the man who is even soon the father of the daughter. A woman who is said to be not loved at all. I am the stupidest woman blinded by love. Being stabbed by a man who said his love was unstoppable just for me."

I let Shasha's anger spill out on me. Makes her cry and squeal in front of me. It's true that I don't love that woman. Not at all expecting to marry Puspa and never at all imagined the presence of a child in our midst. Even though now my feelings are shaking uncontrollably. It wasn't me who set it up either.

" Then you think I'm your game too after you get bored at home with your wife? You think I'm that cheap? Once you are satisfied playing with me then now you can go back to your wife's arms again? " Sha began to raise her tone.

" That's not what I meant by Sha... I've never been that petty. I never thought you were cheap. I never thought about playing with you either. You know I'm really sincere with you. I never want to lose you Sha..." I calmed Shasa down. I hugged him tightly - tightly and he still continued to beat my chest. Until a long time - the time is up. Crying - it was in my face. The shirt I was wearing was drenched in tears and Shasha's tantrums.

" I am you make your game also Satria.. Why are you so bad it's the same with me. I expected a lot about us. About our relationship. I never thought you would marry Puspa without my soul...You have betrayed me..You gotta..." Shasha's voice turned raucous. He sniffled in my arms.

I feel guilty for my first love. Feeling guilty for the girl who was always present in my dreams. My dream all along. Which always gives warmth every time our meeting.

" Sha, even after marriage I never touched her. At all. We separated rooms. My mom told us to sleep apart. I don't know what my mother plans to do after the birth of the child. I am not legally married either. We are only married religiously. You don't have to worry about our relationship. I was also worried about the next step I should take. Let time answer everything.." I gently rubbed Shasha's hair still sobbing on my chest. Shasha held me tight. Trying to calm himself. I let her cry - so.

" Sha, relax. Now you're the only woman I love. Marrying Puspa was just my form and sense of responsibility towards the child. Our family doesn't want journalists to know about Puspa's pregnancy."

" What is my fate? Do I have to wait for the child to be born again I can have you completely.." Shasha looked at my face. Gently looking at me. His eyes were reddened with tears.

" She, I'm sorry about this mess. True chaos I don't want. I'm worried about Sha. I beg you to understand. "

After the situation calmed down a bit, I put my vehicle on. I'm taking him to his apartment.

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In my big house

" Where did you just get home at this hour? " The tone of speech is rising. His face looks angry.

" That's it. You have no right to say that to me. Or even manage my life. You have no right. " I answered him louder.

" But I am your wife Satria. I will be the mother of your child. " The puspa pointed towards his stomach. His face firmly said as if I were the most disobedient person on earth.

" What kind of wife are you talking about. Huh uh?? The wife who wandered the night at the cafe with her brother-in-law laughed and fro. What kind of wife is without caring about the circumstances around?? What kind of wife doesn't stay home when her husband hasn't come home. Is that what you call a wife?? " My tone is rising. I'm tired of being in situations like this. I am tired of all the problems I have been having all day. Even more sickened to see a wife that I do not love at all but say at will.

"When just yesterday you gave me espresso and red velvet. I know that's just an excuse. Actually you made it all for Reno's sister. "

" You're from cafe mas? Why don't you come near me. I'm the same brother Reno mas. Your own brother. I crave the food we used to eat there when we were dating. We spent the two of us there every night. I miss godok noodles there mas. Do you forget.. You also like very much the same godok noodles at the cafe?" His tone softened. Explain everything at length. But, I do not flinch still wandering ya.

" I told you. You'll sniff next time you call me. Chat me. Let me go home I brought you. Are you deaf or you forget?! You didn't realize you had a big belly night? Or do you still feel like you're not married?" My tone is still high.

" Well, are you rude to say the same to me? Why are you mas? Don't you love me anymore?? I called you, did you? I called you many times but you didn't pick up. Trus I chat you absolutely do not read mas. So now you're guilty of me mas?"

I'm lazy to serve his chatter.

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