
Many times I tried to call Satria. But everything is mute. My phone call was not picked up at all. I chat only read and then without an answer a word.
" Dear, where are you? ", my message is short.
Many times I tried to shake off the feeling that she was starting to ignore me. Like he was avoiding me.
One. Two. For three hours I waited for news from him. There was no answer until I fell asleep until the next morning.
***
Next day
The clock indicates nine o'clock. This is my first day living at the Wirajaya family home. But, it seems like I'm having a bad time because I slept too late last night. After finishing washing your face and brushing your teeth, I stared at the outside of the house from the big window in the room. This morning I was confused as to what to do in this house. The desire to go to college has been put off because of my pregnancy, learning also feels impossible in this situation.
My feelings are mixed.
While I was confused towards the kitchen, hungry. Worms in the stomach it feels can no longer be compromised.
There were two assistants in the kitchen I met last night. Seeing me heading into the kitchen with a swift younger Inah approached me.
" Non Puspa, can I help you? What is breakfast?", she asked.
" If you want to non wait just in the room, later if the food is ready let Inah call non again. "
" Yes, I want to drink milk. It feels thirsty. Please make me some milk. But, let me just wait here for you."
With a swift bi Inah towards the refrigerator and poured cold milk chocolate flavor into my glass. I sat waiting at the dinner table in a wry voice, if - if I could see Satria.
Bi Inah thrust the milk she just made to me, "It's non, the milk. Oia, mas Satria had left for campus early in the morning and she advised not to wait for him to come home. Because Satria came home late. If non Puspa needs something just call bi Inah aja yes non", explained bi Inah to me. It seems that bi Inah realized that I was wailing because I was looking for Satria.
" Where else is bi? How is this house so quiet?", I asked later.
" Mistress there is an event with colleagues for 3 days out of town accompanying the master. If the great sir had gone to the office early in the morning. Breakfast at 7am, non. Later also long - long time not accustomed to the situation here. Madam advised, non Puspa should not go outside this house as long as they are not at home."
I just nodded while drinking my milk. I spent it quickly and I picked up some books in the room and headed to the garden in front of the house.
***
In the front garden of the house
There I saw someone sitting on a park bench reading the book he was holding. His back was firm, indicating that he enjoyed exercising. His hair was black, shiny exposed to the reflection of the morning sunlight that was combed through the cracks of the leaves. His eyes were round brown and glowing. His face is engraved perfectly decorated with thin lips that are very suitable combined with a sharp nose perched on his face. Appearance! Ah, it turns out that there is a young man in this house. It fits perfectly with the atmosphere around it. It was as if he was sitting on the bench of heaven.
I just smiled and looked at him, "Hey. Oia, sorry who is this?" Tanyaku later.
" I'm Reno. Yesterday I also came to your wedding! The time you don't remember? " slowly reminded.
For a moment, I tried to remember - remember, his handsome face, his sharp nose and his mature and calm appearance that made me momentarily amazed - amazed earlier.
' Ah, what! I was thinking like I would already have Satria who is no less handsome than the man in front of me, ' tepisku in heart.
" I'm sorry, Mr. Reno. I forgot yesterday you came too? Are you ready for Satria if you know?" Askaqua.
" I'm Satria's sister. I'm more precisely the adopted son of this family. I live here. I happen to be studying in this city. I just got into semester 3. Oia, what are you going to major in?" he continued later. From his tone there was not the slightest awkwardness when he spoke to me. It's like he's known me long enough.
He was determined to sit on the bench next to him. The place he was sitting at this moment. I put my feet up and sat down next to Reno's. It smells of perfume. I realized I had not yet taken a shower.
I quickly moved away. Afraid that she'd notice my body odor.
Brother Reno seemed to be indifferent or unaware of my body odor, he again asked me. " Why are you silent? You don't intend to continue college? "
I shook my head slowly and bowed lethargicly, "I don't know brother. I feel ashamed of it. I don't know where my life is going to take me anymore. I've resigned. I no longer have a mind. Brother Reno knows that my condition is now like this. I'm pregnant because of my own carelessness."
" Loh, what is it? Come dong you also have to be excited. You are still young. Still can reach your mind. Listen - listen also you will often get scholarships as an exemplary student. Why do you have to be so discouraged? Come on Puspa, you spirit huh! Don't worry because of this problem and then you can't reach your mind", Reno's smile makes me feel very touched. Her words of encouragement made me feel more appreciated. We just met each other. But I was overwhelmed by what he said earlier.
" Remember Puspa, maybe now your success is delayed. That means you can still devise better ways and strategies for you to your success. There is no failure, there are only lazy people to think and struggle. There is no failure, there are only successful people who are delayed because of obstacles and obstacles. And you, try to face those obstacles more strongly. You have to be sure you can. Don't think and try to give up. Remember Puspa, your sister and your parents are waiting for you to be happy. Make them and their smiles your strength and whip towards success. And one more thing, your son is not your barrier, he is only the most beautiful part that will become your unity. Never regret his presence. Never curse him for being present in your womb."
" Yes, sis, everything Reno said is true. And all this time I realized that my money was useless. Just adding to the burden of the mind. " My words are steady.
"Well, try to think. There are thousands of women out there who crave pregnancy and a child. Why did God choose you? That's because God knows you can. So, the spirit yes! " Sister Reno patted me on the shoulder slowly. Sweet smile meaningfully.
I feel my spirit is back. Feeling Puspa who is smart, beautiful and admired by many people is back. My soul feels coming again.
" Thank you, Reno! ", I answered with enthusiasm.
'Yes, I will prove that I am Puspa. Clever. Rigid. Great!', my promise is in my heart.
***
The breeze of the morning breeze and the fragrance of the flowers blooming in the courtyard added to the aura of my spirit to recover. Though before it had been set and lost somewhere after all the sudden things that happened to me.
' Thank you, Reno. I don't know why I feel like I've known you a long time'