The Love of Young Master

CHAPTER 15 REALITY

A straight-haired beautiful girl looked at me with a sweet smile. Her hair was swept away by the wind.

I move my feet towards him who has been waiting for me. He was sitting on a campus park bench with some of his friends.

I waved my hand at him.

" Today you want to go to my place? " tanyanya while holding spoiled my shoulder.

" Our Emm.we went somewhere else.."

" Where by? Oia, why don't you keep me playing to your house... Even though long ago I did not meet the same om and also aunt Sarah. Aunt Sarah also since 6 months rarely pick up my phone. My mom also wanted to come home. They haven't seen him in a long time. "

I was just stunned into the confusion of what I should answer to Shasha's question. I'm stuck in a relationship like this. On one hand I'm a man's husband and soon to be a father. On the other hand I have to accept the fact that she is not the woman I love.

The woman standing in front of me who with all my body and soul loves. For years I always wanted to be with him. And now it's true that I already have it but I'm already the husband of someone.

Now I'm stuck in an uncomfortable relationship, it's really uncomfortable. Yes, I was comfortable with Shasha. For six months I was with him. Take days full of warmth. Full of love and passion of youth. It used to be when Shasha liked Reno's sister. I tried so hard to get it. Now when Shasha is with me and falls for me I have to lie about my status with Puspa. Although we were only married religiously without official letters. But still come - suddenly this feeling of guilt arises at this time. Without any babibu. Ah.cuz...

I love Shasha but I feel guilty because I will hurt her feelings. But I feel very comfortable and happy when I am with him. Forgetting all my burdens and problems that are happening to me. On the other hand, I have to keep also the feelings of both parents Puspa if to find out his son-in-law has an affair while pregnant with his grandson.

I am indeed selfish. But I'm still young. I deserve to be happy. Why did God tear my life apart by leaving a child in the womb of a woman I didn't love at all. What a cruel fate my destiny is!

***

" By, you're even diem. Ngo and what?? Wh why?? Hemm.i know. You must be afraid I'm back to like Reno, right? You're afraid I'm just your wits to meet Reno's sister. You're jealous.hayoo ngaku.." Shasha narrowed her eyes teasing me. Poking my waist with her index finger. His naughty smile began to tease me. As usual, she was a very happy girl. Laughter in the midst of anger.

I tried to smile amusedly with his behavior, covering my inner turmoil, "Ah. Why am I jealous of Reno. I'm just tired of the atmosphere of that house. That's why every day I spend the same time as you, baby. Yuk cappus is already starting at dusk... "

I speed up my vehicle. I drove my car to a romantic cafe on the hill. The cafe where we used to meet and the first time I was dating. At Puspa my first boyfriend.

***

The cafe on the hill

Glittering lights - urban lights visible from the top of the hill add to our romantic atmosphere tonight.

The drizzle started to come down.

The atmosphere around him is more calm considering this is also Sunday night. Many young couples love in this cafe.

Shasha sipped her orange juice pounding her sweet fingers covered in red cuttings. He hummed while enjoying the music from a music player in one corner of the cafe.

I too was dissolved. For a moment I forgot a little bit of my turmoil. Enjoy the sound of music songs - pop songs of choice. While pampering my eyes looked around the cafe.

Until my eyes flinched at one corner. I saw two people I knew talking and joking. They look very familiar and do not care about the circumstances around.

I put my face forward, trying to hear what they're talking about, " Ah, that's it. I better get out of here. " I quickly grabbed the hand of Shasha who was still enjoying the music.

Shasha arrived - suddenly startled and confused about what was going on.

" You why by. I came home "I quickly picked up Shasha's bag and pulled her into my car.

' Ah, what are they doing here. Nights - nights like this are joking in public places'. Tired of being annoyed for a moment because they feel betrayed. Why did he take other men to where we used to date.

***

I speed up my vehicle. I try to organize my mixed mind into one. Shasha was raving around. I don't know what he's saying I'm not paying much attention.

My mind is being set so that I can strengthen my courage. It brings up all the facts that are happening to me right now. Reveal all the true stories I had to tell earlier.

Suddenly this turmoil grew more powerful exploded in my chest. In silence I pray, may Shasha not be angry if I tell her everything. May Shasha accept the harsh reality that I will soon reveal.

All the harsh facts that I have married Puspa and soon born my son who is now in his birth. The child who continues to grow up in the womb of the woman who is the subject of my and Shasha's play. I felt a different vibe last night when I held it. Feeling kick.

May Shasha forgive me and I don't know if she'll accept everything. Yes, due to the fact that it used to be the encouragement and coercion of Shasha, I also dated Puspa. For brother Reno to feel jealous of me and heartbroken because I snatched away Reno's love.

I'm sorry Sha, I do love you with all my heart. I feel proud to have received my first love. But, my feelings are shaking. More precisely my courage increased when I first touched the child in the stomach in Puspa's bladder.

Yes, although I still properly and consciously love Shasha but my feelings suddenly changed and a different vibration appeared when I first touched the contents of Puspa yesterday. Especially when I realized that it was my son. An innocent child without whom he wanted was born from a father like me who did not accept his presence. The father who always ran away and became a coward. Seeking impingement and love in the arms of another woman who is not her mother. But in the end, I had to accept the fact that I was a father.

***

" Sha, I want you to excuse me sha.." I stopped my car on the side of the road to Shasha's apartment.

Shasha was astonished and looked at me...