
In my golden cage
This morning I got out of my golden cage. Yeah, I call this room a golden cage. It looks beautiful on the outside but empty and empty from the inside. No happiness no warmth of affection. No joking around with loved ones.
I put my phone next to where I was lying. Some days I was lazy status updates or anything on my sosmed. I ignored all of them for a moment. I was just busy reading sheet by sheet - the cooking books that Reno bought as a gift for me to fill my free time. Throw away the saturation and add to my insight into the world of cooking he said.
A moment later, my phone rang, I grabbed it while leaning my back against the bed, I opened my phone quickly. I saw a notification sign for an incoming message.
" Satria." I widened my eyes a little surprised to see his name appear on my phone screen. It was strange to receive an incoming message from my husband, let alone this early. I know he's the proud type to start this kind of silly conversation.
"Ah.mustahil say he arrived - suddenly sent a strange message like this. Didn't he just had a big fight with me and with Reno's sister? Was he aware of what he did last night? But could he have realized so quickly? I also don't really understand what they were fighting about last night. Ah.had it! thinking about it makes me feel dizzy! Just ignore. Maybe he's just a prank. I've been round with my resolve. Whatever happens my choices won't change."
Last night I accidentally heard Reno's brother fighting and fighting with Satria. But, I paused my intention to get close because they happened to be fighting right in the garden in front of my bedroom window, I was afraid to mess things up. Because I know, brother Reno must have defended me and enlightened Satria's attitude that had crossed the line.
In my opinion, Brother Reno would have advised Satria because he had heard me and Satria quarrel and Satria did not accept in nasehati brother Reno. I know Satria's character is stubborn and likes to be willed at will. He must be angry because he did not accept it.
The longer I think, the more questions that come to my mind. I feel nauseous and dizzy. Especially last night I thought a lot about my life and my way of marriage, crying too much.
***
Heavily, I got off the bed, stepped my feet up step by step, while supporting the weight of my belly and trying to sit under the thick, downy carpet of the room.
From last night until this morning, it was still complete I wore a warm red cardigan and butterfly socks because it arrived - my body was shivering violently after a great fight with Satria.
I leaned my back gently and limped beside the bed. While continuing to wipe - a swab of the stomach that arrived - suddenly felt very painful and cramping.
The pain to stab into the heart. My tailbone also feels like it wants to break and crumble. Linus. End - end of this, this, often I feel cramps and pain like this but I do not share my complaint with anyone just trying to invite my baby to talk from heart to heart so that he will be good - fine in there.
At this time, this joy repeated itself as usual. I wanted to scream for help so that someone at home would hear my pain. But, don't yell, opening my mouth feels heavy and difficult.
As the minutes went by, my stomach felt more and more intensely contracting, the faster it was and it felt as if it had limp all over this leg to stand up properly.
By dragging my legs and butt on the floor, I grabbed the doorknob of my room. Trying to unlock the door but then my attempt failed. Many times I tried to get back the doorknob of this golden cage.
This time, as a last resort, I tried to exert all my strength and energy, until I finally managed to stand leaning behind the door quickly unlocking and...
Brugg's...
A few moments later...
" Yes..Lord!! No..!! " Sayup - I heard the screams of Inah from the direction of another room followed by the screams and the words of other family members.
I don't know, it's like being swallowed by the earth... My head was empty and I didn't know what was going on. My eyes felt glare and heavy. My eyes are no longer open...
Cess...
Looks like something's flowing through my groin. I don't know what happened to me...
***
A few moments later
I feel like my body has moved into another room. It felt narrow and I moved quickly, thinking that my life had moved from its place. Move to another dimension and time.
Ah but it's impossible..
Because just a moment ago, there was still a kiss - I heard the voices of people telling me to open my eyes and wake up. But I don't mess with their faces. I don't know who they are. And I don't know where I am either.
Until I finally heard a voice that I clearly heard. The voice of someone who always makes me fall and love, "Puspa, you can definitely. You are a strong woman. You are patient! We fight the same for our children. You have to be sure that you can and will get through it all. The spirit of yaa Puspa..I'm waiting for you here. Waiting for our son. Strengthen your heart, dear...." He said softly in my ear. While continuing to hold my hand tightly and push my bed towards the room that made my eyes glare as it was full of floodlights towards this body.
***
Apparently I was being moved to another room and now in the operating room. Apparently - these people are the medical personnel who want to do surgery on me. Is all this real? Am I really here?
For the first time I saw the contents of this cramped and terrible room, something I never imagined and could usually only see through the movies I often watched. Why did I arrive - could I just be here? What are they gonna do with me? My child? What's gonna happen to us? No. gabe. It's definitely not real.
I kept asking questions but no one answered me until someone turned me aside and stuck a needle in my back. Limp. and in just a few seconds I was closed. My spirit floated past my body lying on the operating table. Fast as if he were being pulled into another world. All felt glare and heavy. This is what other people feel when their spirit is separated from their body.
I saw everything glare and it was dark at last. I don't know where I'm moving to. Save us God...
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