The Love of Young Master

CHAPTER 22 I'M HARDENED At the Wirejaya residence

Today is my day back from the hospital. All my family members, father and mother have gathered, including my mother and father-in-law. Satria and brother Reno were not left behind, all of them filled this central space. They all welcomed my return from the hospital. But it occurred to me for a moment, it seemed that they were not waiting for me more precisely waiting for my reaction when I came home without my son and only brought my empty body.

My mother led me into the living room, looked at me and invited me into the room but I refused.

" Mom, I'd like to sit here with the others. I want to talk about and explain something so that all the family members are here. "

I said as I sat on the sofa, right next to Satria.

" all right. What are you going to talk about Puspa. " Mama-in-law started talking.

" Don't you have to rest first" he asked later.

I breathed deeply and exhaled slowly, "I and Satria will end our marriage ma, pa. " My words were flat while looking towards Satria.

Satria widened her eyes in shock, it seemed like she did not expect me to be able to muster up my courage to reveal everything so quickly.

" You mean what ? Is it not wrong to ask for a divorce? Why didn't you just talk about everything the same as me? " Tanya Satria was shocked. His face changed completely.

" I told you yesterday that I asked for a divorce. I thought you agreed. Be stuck. It's obvious you married me because we have children. The child you didn't expect. Now the boy does not exist. So, what else do you want to do ? Is there nothing more to account for? Let you be free too. After all, all this time you were also constrained by your status? Luckily, our marriage is only through the ruler. There's nothing to be served. Is it easy ?". It feels lazy to see the face of Satria, sick of seeing her pretend was was - was and think of a marriage that is not at all like marriage.

The marriage I had originally envisioned ended happily even though it had to happen too early. But I believe and I strengthen myself for my son and for the Satria that I love with all my soul. The marriage that I thought was not at first clapping hands, which at first I thought she would take care of me with all the love she had.

In fact, all this time he fooled me turns out he never loved me. He was having an affair with another woman behind my back. Together weaving love with his first love. I thought he was busy studying and going to college for the future of our little family.

Every day I stared at the big window in my room waiting for his return until the early hours of the morning. Turns out he was making love to another heart. Sharing sweat and sharing a bed with another woman. While I was his wife, he never touched her at all during this marriage. I also have to endure fatigue and fatigue with my stomach constantly growing. Being alone with loneliness for the sake of loneliness every day. While Satria, she was only once in the six months of my pregnancy, asking about her son. Asking my news is just a base - stale whether I am fine - and have been drinking milk or not as usual husband to his wife who is pregnant, even not.

Only once did she care what I wanted while pregnant with my son. Maybe he thought I never knew the game he was out there with another woman.

Perhaps, he was too afraid of his mother and father-in-law over the restrictions they had made so that we did not have one room. But, this is not how. Not then he abandoned his wife and child in a large room full of luxury furniture. Not that she was looking for warmth with the other women out there.

I took my breath in - deep. My mother-in-law and father-in-law all fell silent, staring fixedly at me. Whether what they were thinking, it seemed like they were relieved to release me as a burden or instead there was an implied feeling of guilt on the faces of my two in-laws. I don't know, I can't crack all their facial expressions.

I reopened my voice, "Please Sorry Puspa. During this time Puspa can not take care of Puspa children well. Puspa can only complain and tightness in the heart. Moreover, Puspa just a lot of silence in the room just a lot of daydreaming and thinking about fate. Puspa should be better. Can be more comfortable and enjoy everything not as a burden. Maafin Puspa because the doctor said the cause of premature birth yesterday because Puspa too late love vitamins, do not eat - healthy food and too stressed. Not because here Puspa is not guaranteed about food. But it feels like I want to swallow something.." Speech ceased. " Dad, mom.. Maafin Puspa.because.."

I cried out howling it really is.Entah why all the shadows of the recording during my pregnancy yesterday arrived - it was present in my head. Tired and overcrowded, the feeling of guilt towards my son suddenly appeared just like that because everything was wrong I had to lose my son. I lament too much Satria who doesn't think I exist. I was hoping for too much happiness that would eventually destroy me and torment my own inner self.

***

I lowered my head and covered my face while continuing to shed tears. The Satria who had been silent from earlier and sitting next to me grabbed me into his arms. Trying to calm me.

Mom and Dad approached. Take my hand and let me into the room.

" Once, you just came home from the hospital don't think too much. " Dad covered me with a thick fur blanket.make my mood warmer.

" Satria, try calling the doctor and have him check on Puspa. " Dad seemed worried about my situation. Again, I made my mom and dad panic.

" Dad, sorry Puspa. Puspa much trouble father and mother. "

***

Half an hour later the family doctor came to visit me.

" A lot - a lot of rest and no stress, Mom. "

I nodded slowly. It was as if it was drowning and feeling sleepy.

The doctor injected me with a sedative until I fell asleep.