The Can I Love Him

CHAPTER 17

Cklek.

"Adel let's go in".

"Yes Mas".

Dirga came in and I followed him from behind. From the front door, a luxurious living room was seen. The lights of the room are so beautiful hanging above me. Behind the sofa chair there is a white piano and beside it there are several lounge chairs. The living room is directly opposite the beautiful garden. There is a koi fish pond on which a bridge is built. At the end of the bridge there is an elegant but simple outdoor relaxing area using teak wood and decorated with white-colored light.

Mas Dirga climbed the stairs like his would lead to his room. My heart was racing in hunting.

I'll sleep with Mas dirga ....

Wild thoughts haunt me. I often hear the term first night. And tonight will be my first night. I'm very, very unprepared. Dirga still walked in front of me to the end of the hallway. Strange, even though Mas Dirga can make his room next to the stairs so not far away, but why even make it at the end of a darker hallway.

Cclek

Uwoo... dirga has opened the door!!!!!

"Del, come on in. You're not sleepy? ".

"Y-iya mas".

Doubtful I stepped foot to enter Mas dirga's room which is now my husband. The lighting in the room is pretty minimal. I noticed out of the four light bulbs only one was alive.

Techs.

Mas Dirga turned on all the lights of his room so that this room became very bright and every corner of his room was clearly visible.

The condition of the mas dirga room was different from when we left this morning. The bedding and pillowcases are replaced with a creamy color that is a snowflake motif. Blankets that had been red are now also replaced with ash. The candles and the lights are no longer there in the room Mas dirga, now the room looks more elegant and soothing.

"I take a shower or you? ".

The deg!

Answer what am I?

"Adel aja diluan... ". I immediately ran small towards the bathroom in Mas Dirga's room.

Stalled steps. I slowly turned my head while grinning.

"Mas, the change of clothes is over. I forgot to tell bik ina nganter... ".

"That's what I bought". Mas dirga pointed to the table beside the bathroom door. There are several bags inside that are definitely clothes for me.

Don't tell me my CD!!!!

I checked the bag. My eyes widened when I saw the fourth bag I checked. A pair of maroon red underwear with beautiful brocade. My face was flushed and not moving. Shamefully felt. But this underwear is too sexy.

Mas-cook mas buy kayak gini.

"Why del, how silent? ". A worried looking derga walked up to me.

"Stop the mas stop!!! ".

My hands are waving fast. Without me knowing the bra I was holding was still in my hand. My face warms withstanding shame. Dirga just looked at me in wonder.

"I didn't buy it, it was my cello who bought it for you ".

"I -iya om, that's why take a shower first, om". I immediately ran into the bathroom carrying all the bags inside which were my own clothes.

Have I called mas dirga om again.it's hard really dah!!!

Adel begins his bathing ritual. Surely using the soap and shampoo of dirga. He tried hard not to think about the bra just now. He rubbed his face repeatedly with soap. Then he turned on a shower that watered himself full of foam.

10 Minutes passed and finished the shower. He remembered the gift given by the godfather during the reception earlier this afternoon.

"MAS....". Shouted from inside the bathroom.

"Yes what's wrong? ".

"Take my little bag on the table".

"The black one? ".

"Yes mas".

I opened the bathroom door a bit and extended my hand to Mas dirga.

"Thank you... ".

"Hmmm... ". Of course I am confused as to what to answer. I took a shower but there was still something I wanted to do inside.

"Oh yeah, I took a shower under me".

"Eh, yes, mas. Ga pa pa, right? ".

"It's not papa".

I closed the door again and reached into my bag.

I took out a box that the godfather gave me during the reception earlier.

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Adel opened the box. A letter. The picture and the ring.

Little speechless. The look on Adel's face changed at a glance as he remembered things he should not have remembered.

Brother deity....

Adel opened the letter.

By adel, though,

Excuse me. I want to express my feelings once again, even though I know you can never be mine. I love you so much Adel, no one can replace you in my heart. Actually, this ring wants me to watch when we get to the beach. I don't know if you want to get married. I'm late. But how do I know if you love me. I know it. Adel I'll be waiting for you. I don't care if I'm second, but I'm sure you can't be happy about it, because you don't love her.

 

Godhead.

 

Unstoppable anymore. Adel's tears dripped he cried bitterly. His mind is mixed. It's true that he can't lie to his own feelings. Deep in his heart he still loves God, yet he wants to fight back and always tries to forget. His heart is very sick.

*Don't wait for me brother, I'm already the wife of a dirga. Sorry brother.

"It hurts... Why should I be rich? God why can't I just*".

I stayed more than an hour in the bathroom. Dirga who was waiting outside was worried and wanted to open the door. He was faintly surprised to hear the sound of sobs.

"Adel's? you cry? ".

Dirga retreated slowly walking backwards and sat on the bed.

Dirga rubbed his face rough repeatedly. He's pensive. The feeling of pleasure that he had felt since yesterday disappeared instantly.

That's why you married me? What else can I do so you can have this wedding.

Cklek.

Adel's out of the bathroom. His eyes still look puffy.

"Well, aren't you asleep? ". Adel forced himself to smile which made him even more upset with himself.

"...".

"You sleep here tonight, I sleep in the next room. Later if the room for you is done you can sleep there".

Dirga went out of his room. His visibly irritated face was not covered at all. Adel was surprised that his attitude suddenly changed.

"Mas dirga why? ".

Adel, who was left alone, was still astonished and closed the door. Then he laid his body on the bed that smelled of the body. Adel's eyes full of questions. It wasn't about you being cold back to her. But his heart was contrary to his thinking.

The clock shows at 3 am. Adel is asleep now. Dirga went into his room which is now occupied by Adel. Adel's eyes were more puffy than when he came out of the bathroom earlier. Adel held a letter in his right hand.

Dirga slowly took the letter from Adel's hand. Surprised not playing. His anger became more and more so when reading the contents of the letter. I want it to feel like he is beating up a god right now. But derga was trying to be patient. He did not want to hear Adel would defend the god in front of him again. Dirga chose to leave Adel's place. In one of the rooms he always locks. He took a picture that was above the drawer.

"Mother... Does it have to hurt here. Why does Adel not remember? ".

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Heloww. today the author is speeding his typing. mumpung rhinoceros work....

What does that mean, Dirga??? klian curious so do not forget to favorite, like and comment.

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