Still waiting for you

thirty five

I glanced at the beautiful bellowing clock on my wrist, the grey lombok real pearl-faced watch featuring ten o'clock at night. I blinked and yawned occasionally, stretching my muscles while collecting life scattered like a puzzle. I enforce the position of the car seat that I originally used to spread. I swept my eyes out of the car, the dark and lonely atmosphere gave me a little creeps, why Nature left me alone here.

I saw Nature coming out of the tent stall with dim lights on the side of the road. I observed Nature who had just entered the car and gave her friction to me.

"Eat first yeah, I'm laper." I just nodded and took out a box of medium sterofoam, then opened it and turned it on Nature.

"Thank you.. Oh, what do you want?" Just ask when my hand will reach for the crackle to take food for myself.

"You take food" I replied flatly, honestly I'm still very sleepy at the moment. So, I only responded to Nature with a flat and indifferent tone.

"Eh, no. This is, right, the first time we ate together. And this is my first born living for you. So, let me take the reward embedded in my first bribe for you who are already my wife." Nature said as she scooped up the steaming fried rice, silenced it hanging for a while in the air, then fed it to me. Original, this is a sweet moment I never imagined. But what is the power if the body reacts to betray the heart. Behind my heart that somersaults because of Nature's treatment. My body actually reacts the opposite, the smile was not willing to look at the lips ranum colorless lips because of sleepiness that has not been perfect away.

"Still sleepy, Nduk?" This is the second time Nature has called me that new name.

"Why suddenly call me that?" I asked after successfully swallowing one mouthful from Nature.

"Why?, Don't you like it?"

"Like it, but want to know why"

"One call dear this, special in my opinion, the effect is that you are spoiled and sweet."

"What am I like?"

"Sweet, but not yet"

Nature said it with a smile, I could have sworn that this time Nature's smile was so dangerous. Just a simple smile makes my chest beat unnaturally. My stomach also feels like there's a fine tickle in there. I cleared my throat before continuing our conversation.

"Yes, right, I don't want to take your bags, do I,?"

"If your principles were like that, I don't have a problem. But, if you want to be independent now, I mind."

"Why is that?, not delicious, if not in repotin,"

"If repotted by the wife of the person is disastrous. But if repotinated his own wife is love." I hit Alam slowly on the shoulder, he giggled to find my cheeks flushed with embarrassment.

"Be careful mas, gombalin chick jam this time tuh, prone in samperin wewe gombal loh." I pointed at him with narrowed eyes, meaning to scare. Instead of being afraid, Nature pulled my hand and kissed my index finger.

"Ih, I cheated!" I nodded and looked away with my arms crossed.

"Cock cheating, anyway, honey. Only the hand link of a husband and wife can abort sin. Especially by kissing her."

"Sorry Nduk, you slept well. So I can't wake you up."

"But if you just hold onto nothing. We are already mahrom, which cannot be, I ask for my right as your legal husband, before I pay my dowry." Nature continues its explanation. I really want to shake his head, if not sin. How could he end his sentence by pecking my lips at a glance. Although the duration of the blink of an eye, but the effect is like again striking the cable rice cooker with wet hands, errr.

"Such a machine, anyway, if it's serious gini,"

Nature is undaunted even though my eyes are slipping until they almost run away from where they live. Right now, casually she's stroking my cheek. And stupidly, again the reaction of the body betrayed the heart and mind. With disrespect, my eyes were closed to enjoy the soft elusan of Nature.

The soft fingers of Nature that were originally covered in my cheeks are now turning to the lips. My chest was rumbling, the flapping of butterfly wings tickled my stomach. I can only say a prayer in my heart, so that the orchestral concert is not invited in my chest not to be heard by him.

"Considerably, until when should I fast, dear,?" The question of Nature is only answered with a twitch in the forehead. Either because of the ambiguous question, or my mind is still muddled by the little touches of Nature.

"How many days is it?, Hmm?"

"Oh, a week, anyway, mas. Why?, should wait for me to be holy first yes, if you want to nunikan dowry."

"Not really. if that, anyway, it should be hastened. It's okay, tomorrow I'll buy a lot of ice for you." Nature spoke while menoel the tip of my nose before finally getting out of the car with a large bottle of mineral water. I, who did not understand the words of Nature, followed her out. I have not had time to ask a question, Nature first approached me in a hasty step then put the original bottle of mineral water, and directed her two open palms right in front of my face by looking left, right, make sure that no one is looking in our direction.

"Eh, should be yes. I thought it was just for the show." I stepped back according to Nature's interduction. Nature took over the niqob I had managed to take from the dashboard, then put it on for me.

"Closing your face is not something Nduk requires. But this, the part of the body between the neck and the chin, also includes the aurat that must be covered." Nature painstakingly put up a niqob while explaining something completely new to me. In the past, my mother only told me to wear a hijab when I had my first mens. I'll drop out of school because my uniform is short.

"Thank you, mas. I'm gonna watch my aura,"

"Sama-sama, I also want to say

thanks though. Because I'm a wife who knows what the husband says."

"Because that's all I can offer you. I am not as rich as khodijah, not as smart as aisyah, not as diligent as maryam in worship. You're almost perfect to be my summation." This phrase is not a joke. I really say it, this is a fact that even crazy people will agree without a second thought.

"Later, as time went on. You'll know how perfect your role is in my life."

I smiled behind the perfectly-mounted veil.

"So what did you want, take the minelar water out." I asked about Nature's pending activities.

"Mau wudlu, help yuk. This Abis I'm downing my dowry, all of you continue the journey."

"okay."