Still waiting for you

thirty one

I put aside the curious confusion caused by bang Amar, in order to hear the series of episodes of Dani's life that had been left behind by me.

"Six months, counting since the return of the mother to the boarding house. I'm limp, my life is directionless. The news of me being the bastard son of a PSK was expanding at lightning speed. Not only in the neighborhood kost.an, in the place njai I will meet some sharp eyes, like blaspheming me in silence. Mbak pain, I even willingly do not eat for the sake of not swallowing the work of the mother. I try to support myself. The money my mother gave me never took." Dani let out a long sigh, looks to be arranging the roar of his breath which is increasingly hunting because of the emotional turmoil that had stopped by because it remembered the dark times.

"The bundle of people I can still withstand mbak, it is not that easy to knock out the strength of my heart. But, when the mother brought a young man she called a boyfriend. I am no longer strong enough to take heart. Feeling that this fate is too evil to beat me up, can't destiny say hello before it hits me so hard?." Highlight Dani's eyes glare far away, a clear circle falling on her white cheeks as fast as the lightning she blotted out and looked at me with a bitter smile.

"I saw with my own eyes, that the man whom mother had only

utilizing money. When I told mom about her boyfriend's behavior. He was angry, and called me an unlucky child. From then on, I left the boarding house in the morning blind, and returned almost midnight. I never visited the njai place again, I lost to the situation. I did everything that was forbidden, solely for rebellion

For a fate that has utterly ravaged my heart." Again, Dani rubbed a hard clear circle that fell without permission.

"Hina ya very mbak, do not know myself so much I became his servant." Dani is hanged this time. I could only look at him from his right side. He cupped both palms on a teary face. If alone and remembering the past. I will feel like the most hurt man in the world. But, hearing Dani's story, I cursed myself for being too late in my own story, to forget that out there, many suffered far more than I did. I just understood the words of Nature about healing by looking at the variety of natives. The most frugal healing is able to cut the lack of gratitude perfectly.

"The perverted people I meet always have a way of distracting my mind even for a moment. Until I am completely plunged into an earthly paradise that offers pseudo happiness. My tiredness was distracted, my annoyance disappeared, my anxiety for my mother faded. But my heart is broken, something stuck in my mind, but as hard as I can shake it all. I'm really like a flavorless monster incarnation. Until one night, when I came home, the usually quiet boarding house, sounded rowdy from the inside. At first I would turn around to let go of the commotion I knew was created by the quarrel of her mother and boyfriend. But mother's screams made me want to not run to her. When I arrived, the shameless man rushed away without any guilt, after pushing his mother until she hit the table. There were no initial wounds, it was just that mom kept squeezing her stomach and biting her lips hard. I ran for help when I saw fresh blood running down my mother's legs. But what I got was not a helping hand from the neighbors. But the ridicule of feeling that increasingly stifling the chest. Instead of running to the street to ask the help of road users or stop a taxi....."

Dani looked up, pausing his story. I was astonished by his transition of expression. He smiled while looking at the solemn sky.

"It is beautiful how God draws a sinful servant back to his character. Allah moved my feet towards the mosque, when it came to the fence of the mosque. I was confused, only to realize that I was walking so far from the boarding house. When I was about to turn around, that's where I met bang Alam. He caught my fucked-up look. He offered to help me after I told him the outline of my problem, without much questioning, I immediately followed him in the car and immediately took his mother to the hospital."

Dani looked at me, she smiled sweetly before finally coming back to tell the story.

"my mother got pregnant mbak, but the man did not want to take responsibility, my mother was disappointed because she was too hopeful for the man. eventually they quarreled and ended up physical fighting until the mother miscarried. I blamed myself at that moment. I ran towards the hospital mosque and complained there. Shameless indeed. But I felt like I had no one at the time, the glitter of my perverted world nothing could help, I realized, how big of a mistake I was at the time. If I wanted to be patient, and continue to pray for my mother.maybe this would not happen.I almost lost two lives, my mother and my future sister mbak. If that happened, I would never forgive myself. I kept crying and cursing myself at that time, until a subtle clap I felt from beside me. Bang Alam smiled at me as I turned to find out who was with me at the time.She invited me to pray in congregation, asking me to pray for the safety of my mother. I'm gamang, is my prayer accepted?, after all this?. " Dani still continues to carve a smile in between the story.

"Nature told me that time, If you wait for the helping hand of creatures, they will run away from it, but if you hang all your things on Allah, they will run away, God will stretch out his hand and hold you tight." Dani looked over and sniffed at me.

"what I want to know now, why did this place become like this?, my max, you know what place this was before this sacred place." I finally asked Dani.

"specifically, let the natural bang yag story directly to mbak. If I tell you the story, the feeling is different." Dani answered with a grin.

"why so?"

"yes that's it." Dani laughed to see me my look turned upset.

"okay, if you do that. So, you know Mas Alam is Old ?"

"Lumayan, Ami will ask directly yes" he replied briefly while smiling. I frowned, really, Nature with her myriad of secrets made my head dizzy.

When I threw a serious face, I was about to extract info from Dani about Nature. I reflexively smiled sweetly as my gaze caught the figure of M.Alamsyah waving at me.

"Ghibahin me yes." Nature accuses me when it comes before me.

"He-eh, you're a pantes in ghibahin kok" I replied lightly, while commenting on the smile on Dani who took his leave.

"The more you grant me, the more your love will fall mired in me dear." Reply smiling.

I gawked at him. It turns out that in addition to his unlimited smile, his over pe-de stock is also no less bejibun.