Still waiting for you

uncover the secrets of the past

Nature's countenance instantly changed, she sighed heavily and looked at me fixedly.

Mother came closer to take a seat on the bed and hugged me. Very warm, mother's rubbing tear down all the emotions that are still lodged in me. Although the joke of Nature had managed to cut the cry, but the rumble in this chest was still faithfully stirring emotions. Mother hugged more tightly, as if to absorb the outpouring of my emotions.

"Ami, as bitter and as hard as any massalu.remember, you can still stand strong today. Make it a self-forging. Be a great surfer who never trembles as much as any wave that will be faced."

I hugged, nodded a few times to understand what you were saying.

This is a rare moment where I always have difficulty interacting with new people, it is so calm and comfortable in my arms. We only met twice, first with my mother, and second time today. Very much different when I met Umi, I felt an unusual atmosphere when faced with her that forced me to be vigilant.

Mother unraveled the embrace and rubbed my face full of tenderness, tidying the child's hair poking out perfecting my look that looks like a frustrated person.

Mother came out with father, leaving me, mas Alam and bang Amar in this room.

For a moment, no word came out of our mouths. Silence is still an option for arranging the appearance of feelings.

"Can you leave us here?" My words gently slashed the silence between us.

Nature looked at me fixedly, her eyes displaying a very intense worry. He must be afraid I'm fainting again.

"May, but used to ginger the angelnya. Keep taking the wudlu, first remove your emotions before you speak." Nature speaks softly but implies firmness. I could only nod and receive a helping of warm ginger glasses from the hands of Nature.

Just this time I saw the other side of Nature which was calm yet implied decisiveness. It is not Nature that is whining with its distinctive grin and chirps that are almost never crisp.

"And, one more." I glanced at Nature while still sipping a warm ginger in my hand.

"Chat is not here. In the back garden. In the gazebo, I will prepare a pillow for your backrest to be comfortable".

"Okay aja deh. you are again in fashion can not be denied right?" I asked in a mockery and pulled out the glass I had pressed on.

"Pinter is a wife." Nature laughed crisply with a hand gesture rubbing the tip of my head. Then it passed away with the rest of his laughter that I could still hear. My gaze followed the departure of Nature, how surprised when I met the eyes of bang Amar who was sitting on the bench in the middle of the room. Since when did he come out of this room and watch me from there. I looked away and went to the bathroom.

I walked slowly towards the backyard according to Nature's instructions. Mother's house is not as luxurious as European-style home designs like most. It is as if you choose a classic theme for your home. The room is not too much either. Only two guest rooms, one maid room, one living room, one tivi room, and one kitchen at the bottom. Above are only three rooms. What I love about this house is the back yard. The yard is quite spacious with a classical style mosque where all the residents of this house congregate every day, there is a small-sized swimming pool that is not too deep, next to it there is a gazebo under which there is a fish pond, similar to angkringan depot lalapan. The plants are also quite numerous and diverse, there are various kinds of flowers, fruits such as longan just beside the gazebo, even vegetables scattered beside the mushola.

I paused for a moment, sniffing the scent of the blooming jasmine flower made this courtyard like an earthly paradise. The atmosphere in this backyard for a moment made me feel comfortable. I saw Nature talking to Bang Amar in the gazebo.

Nature who saw me immediately waved and patted the place she had prepared for me.

"You look fresher, baby"

"According to your instructions, I'll take the wudlu first before coming here."

Nature smiles and shuffles down.

"Titip Ami yes bang"

"Ck, even we're still under the same roof." Turur bang Nature cold. Typical of him.

"Lo do I want to go if I give alms to the fish below who are hungry?"

"Wooooo, I thought I was sack centred"

"Similarly," I beat without a burden, and got the plotting of Nature and the laughter of the Amar bang.

"Lo bang satisfied.!" Nature left us as if she was really upset. Amar's laughter still broke as Amar's back drifted away.

"I know, Nature is the right man for you." Bang Amar turned towards me.

"Yes, Allah is very dear to this selfless servant. So it's easy to send such a great figure to me."

"This is not as instant as you think meena, a lot of sacrifice and perseverance to fight."

"Bang Amar knows since when did Nature make me a destination?"

"Since long ago, ever since you knew his name."

I frowned, that was a long time ago, even Aalm's age was still not even fifteen years old.

"You think I thought I was serious about saying find your address at the school web when I first picked you up?"

I'm squealing, trying to draw conclusions from what bang Amar said.

"Nature always goes down to make sure you're safe until home, he also knows the place you always stop by for a while before finally coming home."

I was flabbergasted, looking at him in disbelief, asserting that what he was saying was unbelievable. How could Nature do it without my knowledge.

"And it goes on every day. At first, I was worried when I decided to end our relationship. I'm afraid you'll no longer have any friends. I'm afraid you're lonely. But everything is cut short by reality. I know that Nature has kept its taste in you so good, that's why I have to leave you. Because there's a much better man on all sides than I am." Bang Amar looked at me. He doesn't look like a man who betrayed, he looks like someone who gave up, sacrificed, I hate this situation. He was like he was making Nature an alibi out of all his mistakes to me first.

"Bang Amar is looking for justification?, Why look cornered mas Alam?, As if brother is a victim, a hero of misfortune who comes to sacrifice feelings"

He smiled slantedly in response to my words, maybe he didn't think I could guess the direction of his speech.

"After hearing all the reasons and stories behind my decision. You will thank me."

I rolled my eyeballs. In addition to cool, natural bang is indeed too confident. Like now, for example.

"Ceritain is! In a short time. I want to go home" I said a little annoyed.

He laughed and shook his head.

"You'll be very enthusiastic later. I'll confirm that."

"Bodo is bang. Story hunting!"