Starting From Grey

Meaning of a Bond

Water is not in deep mark.

Thank you for giving.

I cannot accept it with my heart.

Even though I can't understand.

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"Mirza, I borrow your friend" said Brother Dilan pointing at me. And because I didn't realize anything I was looking behind me at who I was, because I was sure he wasn't me. But strangely I felt that my hand was being forced, although it did not hurt but it surprised me enough and the suspect was Abi.

What???????

What is this, why Abi pulled me and now he's sitting me in the XII-IPA2 class sporter chair.

"Don't let him move" Abi told Sisi, who once suspected that I was Abi's cousin. While the senior only muttered and smiled meaningfully.

"But-" the words that I was about to throw were swallowed back upon seeing the sharp look of Dilan and Abi's brother, what happened to these two companions was astonishing and horrifying, made me undo my protest intentions.

When they entered the field I felt Sisi's leg patting me on the shoulder,

"Lo's gonna be safe here." I frowned, I was confused and completely confused by everything that happened. Be safe? I'd be fucked if I wasn't here. Strange, and this is really surprising bin weird.

I sighed resignedly, maybe it should be like this my destiny, sitting stranded among the senior brothers who looked at me with a friendly yet meaningful smile. Why with me? Is anything wrong? Or are they weird?

"Sister, I'm going there not good with kids. I'm like a traitor, his friend playing instead sitting on the opponent's sporter bench."

"Sorry Mut, but you have to sit here. I don't want Abi to be angry because I want to ask for it."

"Entar let me talk," I said, I was clear, I was not concerned with the game. The bodo wants to win or lose.

"Gue did not dare," Sisi said firmly amidst the frenzied sounds of sporter yelling.

When I looked towards the field it turned out that brother Dilan was scoring a tripoint, it was worth a real race.

I looked towards Mirza, she seemed to speak in her sight, she coded me, she said, I knew Mirza well enough so I understood what that look meant but what I didn't understand was that she told me to do it.

I looked towards the point board and I was so surprised, how could not even a quarter of the point game have been 6:47.

I looked at Brother Dilan who was smiling at me. What kind of game is this, it can embarrass my class. I looked at Abi who was strategizing during the break for a while.

I feel my phone vibrate, though,

X-5 Mirza's

Why are you still there?

You can keep the kids quiet.

I don't know Za, they're keeping me here.

Sent

X-5 Mirza's

Okay, I explained to the kids.

Thanks, but I want to go home too. Cloudy

Sent

X-5 Mirza's

Yep. Careful

I just read a message from Mirza and looked towards Abi, it turned out that she was coming out of the field and coming towards me.

"Thanks take care of him" Abi said to Sisi's brother, making me shrivel. I saw Brother Dilan approaching.

"Bi, said the same Hasan, he was confused again" said Brother Dilan without looking at Abi, because he looked at me with an amused look, things he never showed me. I glared in dislike towards him as if to say, "why look around?"

"Lo tell you," Abi said as he stuffed a small towel into his bag and pulled out a jacket.

"OK deh," said brother Dilan while running to the field because of the whistle sign the game will begin soon.

"Lo want to stay here or join your class?" abi asked me and opened his palm, I willingly gave the thing I was holding into his hand.

"Can you?" many enthusiast. He simply nodded and walked first towards my class sporter seat.

I was just thinking what he was doing, why would he sit with me?

I was sitting at the back, at the very end of not so far there was still Abi on my left.

"Why did you sit there?" asked Zahwa who was sitting on my right.

"So there's a need" I replied slowly afraid Abi heard.

"Ow, why does Abi keep on following you?" tanyanya while glancing at Abi who is playing the phone. Wait a minute, cell phone? What???? That's my phone, how could Abi take it.

I felt an elbow from Zahwa, I forgot to answer her question, I forgot to,

"I don't know Wa" I answered honestly. And when Zahwa was about to ask again was already rebuked by Shinta. So that Zahwa does not care about other people's business and now I can calm down from Zahwa's interrogation.

I exhaled, I felt bored with the match this time, I don't know where the spirit that is usually in my chest when watching sports matches.

I glanced at Abi who was still playing my phone.

"Why, bosen?" abi asked without distracting her from the phone. I just nodded, no matter if he looked or not, it didn't seem like he was looking because he was still focusing on the screen.

I was thinking, what Abi did with my phone, the feeling I didn't have a game there because I didn't like playing games on the phone. Ah, maybe the phone game I thought. I do not like playing games on mobile but that does not mean I do not like games, I like and sometimes play them too but on a laptop.

"How can my phone be in your hand?'' my many.

"You were the one who loved."

"Couldn't you?" I wonder if that is why I didn't realize it. Just as I was about to ask again I saw Madina and Erly standing beside Abi. And they both looked in wonder at the two of us.

"Big brother Abi here?" madina asked, making Abi lift her face. Great, I talked from earlier he stayed focused towards the phone screen, another turn that spoke directly to the phone screen. Ah why do I think that I am like a lover who is ignored by his partner.

"Yes, why?"

"No papa, it's weird. How come Abi's not playing?"

"So it's already."

"Mut, how come you take a seat in the back anyway?" ask Erly,

"It's full in front" I replied with a smile.

"Yes, too" answered Erly quietly and seemed disappointed.

"Don't you come early, Mut, how can you sit in the back?" it was Madina's turn to ask.

"So I was sitting in front, but I was pulled away by someone and when I got back the seat was occupied." They just fuck.

"You wanna sit down?" abi asked them both.

"There's no room, brother" answered Erly. Suddenly Abi pulled my hand and took me to my feet.

"You sit here, I need to" he said, walking away from two of my friends who were looking at me in wonder.

Abi took off his hand and walked in front of me, if you ask me why I keep following him, it's all because of my phone he still carries.

"Wear this," Abi said as he thrust out a black helmet.

"Why should I wear a helmet? You need to give me my phone and please solve your problem."

"Don't ask a lot, take it and wear it." He was wearing a helmet similar to the one he gave me. I don't want to obey his orders.

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The longing in my soul still adorns the glorious night of the full moon.

Smear the silence and silence the heart with a million questions, without an answer being found.

Why are you still sitting in silence?

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I stood on the balcony of my room looking up at the sky, somehow my mind floated, remembering the incident earlier this afternoon. When the smile that appears imprinted on the lips of Dilan's brother. What happened to him. Why is he smiling at me? Isn't this something rare?

I saw my phone on, there was a notification from whatsapp,

Mirza

Defeat is not everything, the most important is cohesiveness and effort.

Idris

I am proud to be an X-5

Erly

Thank you guys for the effort.

Tiaras

Spirit and compact always

Idris

Ciye nyai love spirit!

Madina

I wonder, huh?

Erly

Wh why?

Mirza

Wh why? (2)

Lianas

Wh why? (999+)

Irfan

Wh why? (18+)

Tiaras

What's that Irpan.

Erly

Madina

The Mutia.

Erly

Why the Mutia?

Mirza

What happened to mutia

Lianas

What happened to mutia

Irfan

Wh why?

Woe, a lot of just read

Madina

It could be the same with Abi.

Irfan

Owh, that was Dilan's brother who asked.

Madina

Japri pan's.

Tiaras

Ciye PCan same ipan

Irfan

Why jealous?

Tiaras

Week pingin my high school

Irfan

I haven't done anything yet, I'm still very happy.

Erly

It's so filthy you guys.

I shut down whatsapp, I remembered Abi this afternoon.

"Where are we going?" I asked Abi who drove his bike out the school gate.

"home."

I just kept quiet all the way, and I didn't tell you my home address, if you think Abi's using a motor sport like in your soap operas is wrong, he's riding a duck bike from a pretty well-known brand.

"Wouldn't you come down?"

"He?"

"Und through." Abi opened the glass of his helmet and looked into the rearview mirror. I stammered for a moment and looked to the left, it turned out that my house was in plain sight, hurriedly I came down and confirmed my tangled hijab because I took off my helmet.

I was still silent, I wondered where she knew my home address from.

"It's that bond that makes things difficult to separate."

"Eh, meaning?" many wonder.

"Have come in" he said, turning the bike back on. Before the bike went I thrust out the helmet I was wearing and thanked him.

"Sama-sama, you're the helmet you're holding." Abi runs his bike leaving me still confused. A few moments later I saw him back. Did he change his mind about taking his helmet?

Turns out wrong friends, he just gave me my phone back and without saying anything he just left.

"What exactly does this mean?" I asked myself, because there is no one here.

Maybe I should prepare some answers for tomorrow, I'm sure the kids will definitely interrogate me.

I went into the room, and I saw the purple paper bag, I knew what was inside, because I put it in.

I'm still confused by all these puzzles.

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I stood in front of the gate of my house hesitantly, what else when I saw the car that was now parked neatly,

"Come in" a voice that looks so flat.

"Sister Dilan?"

He just shrugged indifferently and pushed my back into the car. I was still pensive and digesting what had actually happened. Why could this person behave like this to him. And what is this guy doing? Picking himself up?

''What's that weird face?'' ask Brother Dilan without taking his eyes off his handpone.

I shook my head and I saw Brother Dilan chuckling amusedly, what is it with this one senior that he ate wrong so behave like this time.

Without feeling the journey to school so quickly missed,

"I got off near the stop, sister," I said as I entered the alley to the school.

"Why?" asked Brother Dilan in surprise, I just shook my head. And I felt the car stop, as I got off and thanked Dilan for following me down.

"Why is my brother following me?"

"I'm not following you, are you senile, aren't our schools the same?" He said with a cry.

"That's not what I mean," I said exasperatedly, not because I was disrespectful or brash but somehow seeing her flat facial expression made my emotions rise. He simply put his shoulders together and kept walking leisurely and arrogantly.

"Assalamualaikum," said Brother Dilan suddenly.

"Waalaikumsalam," answered the voice, where did it come from? Why I did not realize his presence. What is so influential the existence of Kak Dilan to make not see the figure of the tall man in plain sight. God, it seems like I really need to be examined.

"Why are you on the road?" ask Abi to Dilan.

"Take your will" said Brother Dilan pointing at me.

"Will I?" my question was astonished and still digesting the words of the senior judges.

"I didn't tell Brother yes, I just said I wanted to get off at the stop, didn't ask Brother to come down." I said in a slightly raised tone, as I did not accept the accusation. I don't know this emotion is very easy to go up every time talking to a songong bin guy does not want to miss this one.

"In the morning it was fierce," said Abi amusedly, I knew he was hiding his laughter.

"If you want to laugh, you don't have to be arrested." The two guys in front of me immediately threw their faces away.

"Basic," I said quietly and continued on the road.

"You're so fond of teasing girls," softly complained a woman's voice, making me instantly turn my eyes when I saw Abi's mother beside Abi. Where I knew Abi's mother was simple, because I often saw her being picked up.

"Gemes the hell Bun," Abi replied in a casual tone.

"Just look at the horror face when you see Mommy" said Brother Dilan amusedly. I can only grumble, not clearly. And let me be surprised, when suddenly Abi's mother came down from her motorbike and approached me.

"Good morning" she said gently with a warm smile.

"Good morning aunt" I said with a shy smile.

"Don't take heart said Abi, understand he was lonely no one was tempted." Abi's mother said softly. Ah so miss mom.

"Yes aunty, I can understand."

"Oh yeah, just call mommy, just like them."

"Huh?" I gawk, she is so beautiful and charming with all her movements. Abi's mother smiled and said goodbye. I can only nod my head in a sign of understanding.

Then we stepped into the school gate,

"Heh" called Dilan repeatedly but I ignored him.

"Heh, called too," said brother Dilan pulling my veil behind me.

"I have a name and my name is not 'heh'" I replied as I took off Dilan's arms.

"There is Hasan above" said Brother Dilan quietly, "do not look at the dodol." He said again as I looked up.

"Keep why?" many wonder.

"Yes, you're insensitive."

"What else is my fault" I said, and I realized something, where did Abi go?

"Why? Abi Nyari?" asked Brother Dilan teasingly and innocently I nodded.

"He's gone first, stay away from Abi is better."

"Wee, brother what does that mean?" I asked after coming to my senses from my own thoughts, and I saw Brother Dilan just waving his hands indifferently.

"Stay away from Abi it's better."

"Stay away from Abi it's better."

"Stay away from Abi it's better."

"Stay away from Abi it's better."

"Stay away from Abi it's better."

That word is so in my mind. What the hell is going on?

I do not understand why Dilan suddenly said that, I never tried to approach Abi, but it is undeniable that I felt a little urge to approach him.

I've always been in the safe zone all this time, always walking by following the specified line. Wouldn't it hurt if I took my own path?

I walked towards the classroom, and in front of the library was Abi, Brother Bagas, Mira and Madina chatting, what should I do? Stepping or walking pretending not to see. I was still standing, confused by everything that was happening. Mira, I remember that my friend liked Hasan's sister. Should I fight alongside Hasan?

I felt like someone had suddenly pulled my hand, because I was surprised that I just kept quiet and followed his footsteps.

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