Starting From Grey

Meaning of Friendship

The friend is a brother without blood.

I sat you in a high chair in the corner of my heart.

The high chair that had an important role for me in stringing gray stories.

That high office I call a brother with no blood ties.

That high office is called my friend.

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Note: This story will be deleted shortly after completion.

I sat my ass on the bench, this is not my class but this is my exam room.

I sat down with a boy XI IPS 2 who I knew was Sis Alfa, he was quite famous because he was the vocalist of this school band.

However, behind all that after almost a week I knew him he was in the class of wayward children, he likes to cheat and likes to sleep.

"Did you see me?" ask Alfa who is sleeping. Eh, she's sleeping, knowing I'm staring at her?

"Don't look at your innocent look. That's for me to know," he said again, raising his face from the table, frowning. Tight and rough, right?

"Why? You're so mute?" I was still silent and looked at him in wonder, suddenly his hand was pointing towards my face and his eyes were looking at me intensely.

I got nervous anyway, I saw his hand was about to get to my forehead, but I haven't had the chance to pat a hand that stopped him.

"Don't touch me recklessly" said the owner of the hand and as I looked up I saw Abi holding onto Alfa's brother's hand.

"Sorry Bro, I can't stand it because he's shaking so much. I've jutekin him but the innocent base he's still like that." Alfa's words made me think hard, but I couldn't digest it I didn't know what it meant. I'm getting my forehead.

"Well, noh see. Bikin' squeaky?"

"Huh??????'' I said astonished, while Brother Alfa had left the bench and went outside, leaving me alone in class with Abi.

Wait, there is still Bina's sister in the corner but seems busy with her book. And our conversation seemed to have no effect on him.

Abi's breathing resuscitated me and made me look at him. He raised one eyebrow then sat on the seat of Brother Alpha and placed his head on the table facing me.

I just kept watching him, I was confused about what he was really doing and he was expecting.

"Cock here?" ask me slowly, I really wonder bin kepo really, eh bingidz maybe.

"Dilan hasn't come yet and it seems Hasan is reluctant to talk to me." He said casually with his eyes closed.

"Why come here?" I was wondering, we weren't that close to sharing the problem, so teach me this question.

"Pacify the mind and seek comfort."

"Ais, why play a puzzle anyway?" I asked hard enough, realizing that I immediately smothered my mouth. He opened his eyes and chuckled.

"Why your expression?" abi asked, I scowled dislike, I thought that the annoying and songong was just Dilan's brother but his friend this one also sucks.

"Today is the last day of the exam, abis home where are you going?"

"Go home," I replied indifferently, he paused for a moment and raised his eyebrows. Out of curiosity I also followed in his footsteps by raising my eyebrows, but it seemed to fail because I heard the crisp laughter from the two sources of sound, one from beside me and the one from in front of me. The one beside me was clearly the one in front of me was the songong I said just now.

"Gue Cariin also turns out to be here" said brother Dilan after easing his laughter.

"Ah, just interrupt," said Abi to get out of her seat and leave the classroom.

"Lo's expression is funny, thanks for my best friend," said brother Dilan patted my head slowly and went to follow Abi.

I frowned, ah they are really weird bin geje. I kept quiet and paused for a while as the other kids started getting into class.

One of them is Mirza. Ah my friend that one was getting weird, he became indifferent and not infrequently left myself when I was talking.

I do not know what happened but I did not mendemdam then left him to change, I still like always greet him even though only with a smile on my lips ignored by mengalinkan face.

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"Eh, where are you going?" ask Alfa when I'm done tidying up the stationery.

"I'm the one you asked?"

"No, the wind I asked. I know how to ask again."

"That's a big deal, again PMS yes," I said with a chuckle.

"Could complain too, lo," he said unfriendly.

"Not that, brother," I said, feeling bad, however, he was my senior and older so I had to be able to maintain my manners.

"The answer to my question earlier," he said sewot, but it was strange that the attitude shown by Mr. Alfa, not usually he wanted to interfere in my business or want to know my business. Because for a week we sat with him looking indifferent and not interested at all in other affairs.

"Lo then, come with me," he asked with a joke and a way first, inevitably I was forced to follow behind him.

"Who are you, Fa?" ask brother Erik, one of Alfa's friends who is in the room with me.

He was friendly so I knew him well. Since there was no answer from Alfa, she looked straight at me.

"Hai Mut, join here" Brother Erik asked when he arrived at the cafeteria. I smiled and joined them.

There was also Mirza and Madina because they would join the band's rehearsal and they joined the self-development in the field of music.

I sat down next to Madina, then she thrust the bottled drink at me, it seems they have ordered a lot because even though there are only about 10 people sitting on this long bench but there are many bottles left.

"Lo wants to join the band too, Mut?" ask Mirza, as if getting a lottery. Ah, maybe because Mirza was happy to talk to me I just smiled and shook my head in response.

"Keep it here?" ask Madina.

"I was invited by Brother Alfa earlier, but his intention was not to join just follow me," I replied as I glanced at brother Alfa who seemed indifferent to me.

I grimaced because I was ignored. I hate being questioned the most and casually the guy is insensitive to realize it.

Though Mirza never put myself in this kind of position, if we were gathering she knew very well that I would have trouble mingling so she always accompanied me by talking or explaining the subject.

I silently looked bored at them, it seemed like Erik's brother realized that and he nudged Alfa's hand and coded her chin at me, but I was still indifferent and more venting my frustration into my drink by playing a straw.

"Lo why?" sis Alfa asked flatly, I shrugged indifferently and I heard a heavy breath coming out of her mouth.

I'm still indifferent to disregard. It's delicious to taste I think I'm upset.

"Hi Mut" said Ahmad.

"Dlo Mas Ahmad," I hesitated, then he thrust a book containing a study report at me.

"Please love Bagas yes, because I was in a hurry," said mas Ahmad with a pleading tone, some of my conscience was knocked to accept but some asked me to refuse. Maybe it was because my good nature reflexively hadn't finished thinking I had taken it made a relieved smile imprinted on my senior's face.

A few moments after the departure of Ahmad I also say goodbye to those band-children who are not in an open meeting. I reasoned that there was a need with Bagas' brother when they asked, but I knew very well that they knew the reason.

I took my foot to the scout studio, where I wanted to find Mita, one of my acquaintances, to return her novel that I borrowed. However, when in front of the sanggar I saw the serious face of pradana and pradani scouts were arguing, I thought they were busy so I paused my intention.

I raised my leg again to step into the seemingly empty IPA classroom corridor because this area was not used for testing. I was right in front of IPA 2 and from the inside I heard a conversation that was quite curious.

"Lo knows I like him, but why do you have to deketin him?"

"Gue didn't try to get him, you guys should be able to keep the attitude.''

"Keep up what kind of attitude again?"

"Lo has to accept the decision don't be a loser hiding behind arrogance. I don't think I've known you for long."

"Lo said that because you already feel you can get the heart of the girl."

"Please San, you don't break our relationship just because you're rejected by girls."

"Who destroyed it? And who was destroyed?"

"Gue doesn't want to be a girl just because of our disagreement. We guys have to be able to control our feelings."

"Gue knows now Bi, you're the same as everyone else. Can't understand me, I like Mutia but why you ruined everything."

Brakk.... I couldn't stand the screams they were making, instead of running to get away from that shitty place but I opened the door violently.

I was surprised and very surprised, because it turns out that in the classroom there are not only Abi and Kak Hasan but also there are Dilan's brother, Sisi's brother and Bagas' brother, as well, the person I wanted to meet a while ago.

I was silent for a moment, breathing heavily and exhaling softly. I saw the shocked faces of the five people in front of me but I casually walked into the classroom and closed it back down.

Out of nowhere, I sat down casually in the teacher's chair while looking alternately at my five seniors leisurely.

"Let's continue your drama, I'd like to see it too." I said casually and rested my two hands on the table to support my face.

"Why silence?" I was surprised but I saw the flat face of Abi and the cynical look of Hasan. Hasan may I call him that because it seems like my respect has to be lost on a figure who is no less annoying than Brother Dilan.

I turned my eyes towards Brother Dilan, I saw Abi and Hasan sitting and breathing. I stared intently at Brother Dilan, he did not dare to look at me this new thing that had happened.

I was just wondering how he could keep quiet when his two best friends had such a big fight just because of girls. And that girl is me who's not good at all and has nothing to be proud of at all.

"Ok, if no one talks what if I do," I let out my voice with the haughty tone I have.

I have to do this to keep my defensive wall from collapsing. I am also a girl sometimes I also want to cry over this destiny.

"Actually the debate was very exciting if you do not mention my name, because you say my name so I had to bring up my nose so that you are not considered as a gossip for talking about others, but it seems like my decision has you all quiet."

"Oh yeah, actually I don't want to interfere but I just want to make you aware. You know this real world is not a fictional story from a novel or a drama. So my advice is, don't act like it's ruining a friendship just because of a pseudo feeling called 'likes' that you can't believe in ending. Why you're fighting that muscle doesn't change things."

"You know, I won't return your feelings for now, because I won't change my principles." I took a lot of breaths and exhaled slowly to balance my omosias.

I saw Abi take his bag and just go past me without even glancing at me, I knew there were tons of particles called fury in his chest and mind. But I keep my mind that I don't want to be the destroyer of their friendship. Besides, a lot of things are going to happen with all of this.

I wish it never existed because it ruined a lot of things. Friendship and peace are also a bet.

I walked up to Bagas' brother and handed him the book that Ahmad had left before I sat down in front of Hasan.

"Sister, I'm sorry. But if I can erase that feeling because I can't. I can't keep going like this brother knows I have principles and besides that I always avoid that feeling even if there is because I want a halal relationship not a pseudo relationship. I love you as much as I love my other best friend." I said in the tone I made as gentle as possible, but because he was overwhelmed by anger he just smiled cynically.

Ah, not only the anger that dominates may also be due to heartache and feel his ego hurt.

"You can't because you want the destruction of my relationship. Otherwise, there's no way you're here." He went and took his bag. I was only able to take many breaths to unravel the tightness in my chest and hold back the water that was about to break through the defenses of my eyes.

I'm so tired of all this, why are they so selfishly not thinking clearly and looking at it from so many points of view, why do they feel hurt without thinking more deeply about all this.

"You're satisfied your mission of destruction has succeeded." He said sharply and a cynical grin on his lips. Before he stepped out followed by the other two seniors he briefly glanced back at me and I saw the wound.

"Why should you interfere?" ask Bagas who is still in the room.

"I need to keep quiet as you keep quiet. I'm sorry I can't."

I came out of the room and I was surprised to see three of my best friends at the door. My two best friends looked at me with a look of blame and one of my best friends looked sad.

I smiled at them, but there was no more sincere smile.

"Lo never told us this? Do you not believe in us? Though I believe and tell everything to you," the slur came from Mira's lips while Madina was already throwing her face.

I was about to reply but I paused as Madina raised her hand and glanced cynically at me before pulling Mira and Erly away leaving me.

I can only breathe heavily. I knew after this everything would change. And I realized I wouldn't be able to put the broken glass back together.

I stepped slowly towards the side gate, but before I saw the figure of a man standing near the door with a blank look and I realized that the man I did not know heard everything.

I ignored all that, all I would do right now was step out the gate, run towards the stop and immediately go home before my defensive wall collapsed.

I'm strong, that's all they can know. And I don't want to be pitied by all this.

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Beware of prejudice, for prejudice is a bad word. (Mutafaq'alaih)