RANIA 'God's Destiny Makes Me Cry In Pelaminan'

Suralaya peak

"Ramen, reneo Men to my room (here to my room)." Via called me while whispering at the door.

"What's? Why?"

"There's Zahra in my room. He's coming here, maybe you'll see."

"No ah, what? You're the one who's talking, you're your friend," I said not interested in meeting the woman.

"So he confided in me, crying, about Mas Farhan."

"Huh? Why cry?" suddenly I was curious to hear what Via said.

"Say he misses Mas Farhan. But don't know what to do. I thought I said noah nek you are now pacare Mas Farhan," said Via still whispering.

"No, don't tell me. Let's see him later when he meets Mas Farhan. Let Mas Farhan himself be clear. He doesn't need to know who I am Mas Farhan, say it's just that, yeah," I asked Via.

"Well ngopo? Mending I said it, so let him know that Mas Farhan already has someone, so he does not bother people's girlfriends," said Via.

"No need, I want to see later Mas Farhan admit me as what to him," I said.

"Oh, yo wes. Come here to my room, talk together."

"Yes later, I don't take care of my job," I replied.

Zahra, it turns out she still has the same taste of Mas Farhan.

Why do you have to come now? When Mas Farhan could forget you. When Mas Farhan emptied his heart and accepted me into it. Why just now? Why not when I didn't know Mas Farhan, why? And why is the world so narrow. Why should it be Via's friend? why should I meet and know him? What is the scenario of the LORD behind all this?

"Astagfirullah," I said. All those questions filled my mind.

After a while, I finally came to Via's room. I knocked on the door and pushed slowly. I saw Zahra hugging Via with her back to me. Via waved his hand telling me to come in.

"I'm a nuisance, right?" my many.

"No Man, just go in. Iki loh Zahra again vent," said Via casually.

"Oh, sorry Ran. I even have to squirm like this, sorry," said Zahra as she hurriedly wiped her tears as she saw me standing in front of the door of Via's room.

"No papa, just explain what's up. If crying can be a relief, why should it be put on hold," I said trying to understand Zahra's feelings at the time.

"Where did Rania know Mas Farhan?" tanyakanya.

"From the radio broadcast" I replied.

"Oh, Mas Farhan used to love listening to the radio" said Zahra.

"Where do you know Mas Farhan yourself?" my many.

"I used to teach tutoring in one of the small tutoring places in the Sleman area. Mas Farhan's niece was there too. Mas Farhan often anther pick up his bangkokanya. We end up talking a lot." Zahra began to tell stories.

"Ani's sister huh?" my many.

"Yes, Rania knows you too?" tanyakanya.

"Oh no, not yet, only Mas Farhan ever told me."

"Rania and Mas Farhan have known for how long?" tanyakanya.

"Almost a year iki, Mas Farhan often rene continue to walk Rania," said Via. I was a little surprised by his spontaneous speech.

"Rania is dating Mas Farhan?" tanyakanya. I could see Zahra's curiosity from her face.

"Nek iyo, piye how do you feel (if yes, how do you feel)?" ask Via to the point.

"Weh, how is that talking?" tanyaku in a soft but firm voice so that Via keeps a little of his words. I'm afraid Zahra is suspicious.

"Wasn't iki misale?" said Via a little high-pitched.

"Yo no papa, it means that Mas Farhan has been able to live a new day with a new heart" replied Zahra. But I'm sure it's just his word. The face looks as if it cannot accept.

"Have you guys been dating?" my many.

"No, just deket. It's a big deal, but he never reveals anything. Never shoot and give certainty" explained Zahra.

"Keep ngopo why did you say goodbye, Ms Mas Farhan ngidn't you contact Mas Farhan again?" ask Via curiously.

"Not to be told to Mas Farhan but yo if I tell you?" pinta Zahra while looking at me and Via.

I also nodded.

"First, Ms. Mas Farhan had said, that Mas Farhan was the child she most expected to continue to keep her in the house. Indeed Mas Farhan has Mbak, yes mbak ani it. But Ani's mother lives with her parents-in-law who are also old. So it was Ani who kept her in-laws. So the father of Mas Farhan's mother hoped that Mas Farhan would one day take care of his Father and Mother in the house. Because Sister number two and Adek Mas Farhan live far from there, so can not take care of the Father with his mother.

He said it was that first. After all, Mas Farhan is also the most loving (telaten) with his Father and Mother. His mother loved Mas Farhan more than any other child. Very keen on the matter. His mother seemed to imply that he already had a choice for Mas Farhan and he hoped that Mas Farhan and his wife would live in the house" Zahra explained at length.

I who heard Zahra's explanation at once also felt nervous, trembling, it felt like my body suddenly went limp.

'There's an option' that's been imagined by me.

"Mas Farhan knows about Ibune's choice? About Ibune's talk to you?" ask Via to Zahra.

"No, Farhan doesn't know. I didn't say sempet. At that time I was very sad, it felt like my feelings were gone at that time. Yaudah I immediately decided to stay away. Coincidentally, I also want to move to Bogor, so I did not have time to explain anything to Farhan mas," he said.

"So what are your plans now, Zah? Are you trying to explain to Mas Farhan?" my many.

"Eh, stay with Ran. You are now related to Mas Farhan what? You're not Mas Farhan's girlfriend? Grandma I told you that you really don't papa?" ask her to find certainty.

"No papa, I'm the same Mas Farhan just ten deket anyway. No matter what," I replied as I gestured to Via to keep him quiet.

I just wanted to extract a few things from Zahra, which I should probably know, before all these feelings are too deep and deep again.

"Oh okay, yeah I don't have any plans yet. But I just want Mas Farhan to forgive me for going away without saying goodbye. But I don't know where to start, and how to convey it" he explained.

"Why not SMS? you can say it all, you must have read it with him. Although maybe he doesn't want to bales, but at least he can know what really happened, right?" I gave Zahra advice.

"I don't have his number anymore. There used to be, but it's gone with the loss of my old number" replied Zahra.

"Nih I love you, just say dapet from Rania," I said.

I also saw Via gesturing me not to do that. But I don't mind it. I'll explain to Via later after Zahra gets home. That's my plan.

"Seriously Ran?" ask Zahra.

"Yes, here's your HP. I'm calling Mas Farhan's number."

"Thank you a lot Ran, sorry, we just knew but instead I wes confide in many things. Soale all this time I've been alone," he said.

"Sama-sama, tomorrow-tomorrow if you need to confide again, just come here," I said to offer him.

Long time we talked about ngalor ngidul, which was discussed Mas Farhan, until discussing other things.

Eventually Zahra returned home.

After Zahra came home Via directly poked me with many questions and chatter.

"Kowe ki piye anyway(what the hell are you doing)? He was arguably the former Mas Farhan. Regardless of what the name of dating is not. But they used to have a taste, and he just disappeared. Mas Farhan was still waiting and looking for him. So now Mas Farhan Kayake was able to eat him and put the name Rania in his heart. How do you even give Zahra the opportunity to reconnect with Mas Farhan ki you mean piye? The fire maen is called Ran, their mother turned piye jal (if they try to reverse), glittering me! Her lick.

"So you heard Zahra's explanation, there is a sentence that his mother Mas Farhan has prepared a choice for Farhan mas. That means there is a woman prepared by her mother for Farhan mas. Then my fate could be the same as Zahra Vi's. Try if I said I was Mas Farhan's girlfriend. Zahra can't possibly tell such a detailed story, and I won't know about Mas Farhan's mother. Why do I give Mas Farhan number, I mean let Mas Farhan finish his relationship with Zahra completely. No one hangs, drifts without clarity. If only Zahra would call Mas Farhan I would be 100% sure Zahra would ask Mas Farhan about who I am, and I would like to know what Farhan said. He will acknowledge me as before Zahra. If it turns out that Mas Farhan did not admit, or maybe even later they reversed it. Yeah, I mean I'm the same Mas Farhan is not a match. Means that Mas Farhan's feelings are still bigger to Zahra, okay?" obviously I was long until my throat felt choked. I held a cry in my chest.

Honestly, I unconsciously felt afraid, afraid that what Via said happened. Mas Farhan returned to Zahra, or Mas Farhan with his mother's choice. Whatever happens between those two things, I have to be ready. I have to legowo.

"Sorry yo Ran, I wes ngoceh-ngoceh. I shouldn't have interfered and didn't make you this confused" said via, hugging me. I'm sure he saw my eyes glazed over.

"No papa Vi, I know you love me so much. You don't want me to be sad. You've been to my place to pour out my sad feelings before."

"Yes, I don't want you to experience it again, I don't want you to be sad as your relationship with Bima ran aground. Though all is fine, but maybe also because it has not been a soul mate and the original way Bima went without saying goodbye also makes you feel as if you are not appreciated, not considered. Although I know your feelings are the same Bima used to not be as deep as you feel the same as Farhan today. I can see that," he said, strengthening me.

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I spent the night enjoying songs from the radio. Mas Farhan hasn't called me that day. Maybe he's busy. I said hello this afternoon, but there was no reply. Well, let it be, I'm not the kind of woman who likes to impose her will. If I tried to do something, but there was no response, yes. I'll just let it go. I will wait as long as I can.

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Happened again, three days every time Zahra appeared in front of me, Mas Farhan disappeared from me. But strangely enough, the one who met Zahra yesterday was me, not her. But why did he disappear again. As usual, I chose to wait. Without starting to contact or look for excessive.

That morning I decided to take a day off, I want to rest the brain first. My plan is to read comics or novels only at the boarding house. While on my favorite radio.

"Ran, Rania, there's a guest," call one of the boarding kids Nuri.

"Yes Nur, beware" I replied as I opened the door.

"Who?" my many.

"Mas-Mas used to come here to pick you up" he said.

That's Mas Farhan.

"Okay thanks Nur" I said as I walked towards the front door.

Right, Mas Farhan suddenly came after three days of disappearing. It's a habit or what it really is. Ah, I don't know.

"Mas, how are you?" My broom when I meet him on the terrace.

"Good alhamdulillah, have you taken a shower?" tanyakanya.

"Udah, why?" I'm a little lethargic.

"Change long clothes, trousers, jackets, keep going" he said.

This time I did not ask, and this time I was not so surprised, because I was getting used to her attitude like this. I go in and get ready.

When I was ready we left. It was 09:00, I don't know where he was taking me. As usual I'll just come along.

The vow! This trip is much longer than to Gunung Kidul Beach. Much more winding and tending. There were even some sharp turns that really made me nauseous.

"The gas stops first yes, I'm really nauseous" I asked as I patted her on the shoulder.

Farhan stopped his bike slowly.

I really threw up this time. A lot of fluid I'm taking out, though,

And as always Mas Farhan was ready with drinking water and all his supplies.

"Couldn't you continue?" ask her.

"It's still far away?" ask me while holding back nausea.

"No, about 15 minutes. Then hold it well," he said

A few minutes later we continued our journey. All the way I closed my eyes. Leaned on his back, and he held my hand as usual whenever I felt dizzy.

We finally arrived, and I looked up at the sight before me. I don't know where this is. It's just that I had time to read the writings of Godean, Sentolo, and I don't know what else.

After getting off the bike he held my hand. We also walked to the stairs from the bottom look very, very high, and it looks like there is a kind of gazebo. We climbed the stairs slowly, as I looked tired he stopped his steps. If I could be invited back up again, he would hold my hand again to continue the journey.

We finally got to the top. It turns out there was a gazebo there, I could see it a little bit earlier. Arriving above my eyes widened when I saw the scenery around. I feel like I'm on a cloud. Thick fog, unusually cold temperature.

"Where is mas?" my many.

"Peak Suroloyo," he replied with a smile.

"Crazy! It's really high. Kayak on the clouds," I said in amazement.

"If later the fog is gone, we can see all the cities of Yogya from here, even we can see Borobudur Temple as well," he explained.

"Oh yeah? Very cool. Come here often?" ask me.

"Just this time," he replied while looking at me.

"Huh? Can you know the way?"

"Yes the name is the same temen, and before leaving also been given instructions via SMS. It stopped short of not reading anymore," he explained.

"Crazy! Intentionally, have long wanted to come here what?"

"Udah often heard stories about this place, and it seems cool, you try it."

"If it turns out to be stray how to try?" godaku's.

"No papa, it's stray with Rania's deck" he replied, looking at my face.

Come on, Rania, it's really cold in here. Can your cheeks feel hot, why? Your cheeks are red Rania.

"Yes, it could be, a tombal pinter, it turns out," I teased him.

"I've never been a lame, and I can't say that kind of thing to women" he said with a serious face.

"Oh yeah? So I'm not from a girl, am I?" I asked with a smile looking at his face.

He was silent too. Just a sweet smile, and I could see the embarrassment from his eyes.

"Sir, did you give my number to Zahra?" he asked when we were already sitting on the bench that was available in the gazebo.

"Huh? Yeah, he called you?" manya curious.

"Yes, he texted me, explaining what used to happen. Until he finally left without saying."

"Then?"

"No, I'm not bales, I just found out about what my mom told him."

"Huh? Continues to?" manywould be surprised.

"I don't know what Mom means, and I don't know which woman you mean" she said, looking at me.

"Then if it turns out the woman did exist how?" my many.

"One day I will ask my mother about it" she replied briefly.

I was confused as to what to say at the time. I'm really scared. Afraid that I might lose Mas Farhan. It was the only thing that was imagined by me.

I also stood up from the bench. I walked to the edge of the gazebo, placed my hand on the wooden edge surrounding the gazebo.

Do not cry first Ran, this story seems to be still long, do not be too quick to conclude. Don't imagine the no-no. Calm your heart. I looked far ahead, holding back the cries and enduring the pain in my throat.

I was shocked when Mas Farhan's two hands suddenly coiled around my neck. He hugged me from behind, and his two hands completely grabbed me.

"We never know how God determines our soul mate. If it turns out we are a match, thank God. But if not, keep being the cheerful Rania, who is always smiling. Because you will never know, if it turns out your smile can captivate someone's heart. The soul mate is an absolute God who has provisions. We can only live and pray, if you have been praying with my name included, but it has not been a match. Who knows your soul mate is the one who includes your name in every prayer. Isn't that deck?" he said without letting go of that trap.

Oh my God, I really don't know what to say, what to say, somehow there's a claustrophobic sneaking up on my chest. My voice feels lost. Many times I tried to catch my breath to feel a little relieved.

"If it turns out that the woman exists, and Mas Farhan's mother asks Mas Farhan with her, will Farhan immediately accept?" ask me with a vibrating voice.

She did not answer him immediately, she just kept quiet and strengthened her embrace even more. It really makes my heart feel bad. It feels pain, God.

"I will try my best to defend what my heart has chosen, and as much as possible not to inflict pain on a mother. Because after all, mother's position is much higher in my opinion."

One side I was sad and sick, but the other side I was proud because Mas Farhan was not the selfish type of man. To her the highest glory is still Mother. Mother who gave birth and raised him.

Oh Rania, prepare your heart. Prepare your heart for whatever the end of your story will be. Don't push, don't be selfish. Strong heart, lots of prayers.

But honestly this time, it really hurts, it hasn't happened yet it's been very painful.

"Thank you for loving me and for carving out a story with me" I said, holding both hands still on my neck and chest.

"Don't be sad, the fight hasn't started yet. Rest assured, if our soul mates must be together," he said, kissing my hair from behind.

Seriate...