RANIA 'God's Destiny Makes Me Cry In Pelaminan'

Pok Tunggal Beach

It was May 15, 2010, two days before Farhan's birthday, although there were no plans to commemorate him, let alone celebrate him, but I wanted to give him something, after a few months ago I once gave him a gray shirt, now somehow I really want to give him a watch.

I've seen one cool watch on display in the storefront of a watch shop in the Malioboro area. The price is good for a college kid who still relies on the delivery of parents like me. So after looking at that clock I did plan to raise money bit by bit to buy it, and today that money was enough. I hope the watch is still there.

I also invited Via to accompany me to the watch shop. And as always, this one friend of mine always faithfully accompanied, never refused and never much reason. Around 2 pm we went to Malioboro, and went straight to the store I meant.

"Alhamdulillah is still." I said.

"Which one?" ask Via.

"That's the black one" I replied pointing at a black digital watch that was still in the same place as when I first saw it.

"Woh, 475,000? Edyan, rather than a watch kok outsideange ra general" said Via.

"You look at the storefront there, there's 3 million." I said with a smile.

"Walah yo eman duite Ran nek me, for me the watch that matters is the timeliness, not the model or price" he said while still paying attention to one by one the contents of the display case.

"Wiiihhh, wise tumben." I said as I poked his waist.

"Wise me to bab money, hahaha." she laughed.

I also called the shopkeeper to ask for help to get the clock I wanted.

After the clock was in my hands, I checked each side, afraid that something was scuffed or damaged. And it turned out perfect.

"Bak I want this yeah." I said to his salesman.

"May, I'll get you a box and make the note first" he replied.

"Okay, mbak."

"Edyan Rania, blas did not think to look for a little cheaper again" said Via.

"And only occasionally Vi, I also just gave goods twice for Farhan mas, I am not the type of woman who likes to spoil her partner by giving this too often, quite occasionally, just, it's only been a year that I've just given him two things, and I'm asking him the same thing, don't spoil me with this gift. I don't like it very much." I'm clear at length.

"Wooo nice nduwe your kayak boyfriend yes, no matre. Hahaha." yoke.

"Haha, that's not it, I don't want that love to be realized in the form of goods, because if later it turns out to be not a match, and that love must be alone from the owner, the goods are still left behind, there is still, and it will be repulsed if discarded, if stored will make the heart difficult to move on, ah anyway do not like it." I said.

"Oh, yes it makes sense as well huh, understand" said Via while nodding his head.

"Yaudah yuk, walk again." take me after paying and receive his hour.

"Men, laper" said Via.

"Okay, what do you want to eat?" my many.

"In the Mall yuk, while ngadem."

"Es your favorite teller?" my many.

"Well, yuk."

We headed to Mall Malioboro and ate at his favorite ice teller restaurant Via.

"Ran, so how are you the same as Farhan? Haven't you got the Ijo lamp yet from her mother?" tanya Via opened the chat.

"So far thank God it seems to have been a bit lethargic yes, if from the Farhan mas story the mother has started to often give positive comments about me" I replied.

"Thank God, I'm going along with you."

"By the way Zahra how's Vi? Still communication is the same you aren't?" I suddenly thought of Zahra.

"Still, sometimes still like SMS, yes talk about ordinary things, last he confided about the Farhan mas pas he said he made the same agreement mas Farhan, and it turns out mas Farhan ngajak you, that's her calling me for 3 hours, crying like hell, I'm trying to be a good listener, let her blow it all out, let her be relieved." Clear Via at length.

"Huh? How come you didn't tell me?"

"I forgot Ran, it's been a while, besides he already knows everything, he also explained everything to Farhan mas, you asked him to focus on his life now, let Farhan with his life."

"Actually I feel sorry for him, but also can't afford to see him deket again the same mas Farhan." I said honestly.

"Yes I know, I also if so you do not want to be the person I love, back to his ex" he said smiling.

After eating we decided to go home, Via there is a similar agreement mas Iwan he said.

At the cost I immediately looked back at the hours I had bought, there was a sense of satisfaction because I could get what I wanted by saving little by little.

While relaxing while enjoying the hitz songs on the radio, suddenly my phone vibrated, and it turned out to be a phone call from my mother.

"Assynoga". Greet mom from across.

"Waalaikumsalam ma'am."

"What else? You bother me?" tanyakanya.

"For the radio, ma'am, relax again." I replied.

"Sir, why not tell me if it's not the same as Bima anymore? I also just found out that it turns out Bima has been in Kalimantan for a long time, the feeling used to be nothing mbak mother's story."

"Huh? Do you know where it's from?" manywould be surprised.

"Yesterday Bima phone father, he said to meet you, and he told me that he had just returned to Yogya and had been studying entrepreneurship with his in Kalimantan, Kalimantan, continue now he is pioneering his own business in Yogya." explained mother.

"Well, why did he use the phone father all the time, also never." answered me annoyed.

"Yes papa dong mbak, his name is also friendly, it was your first time in Yogya he took care of you, like to help you, father also likes him because his son is polite and kind." said mother.

Yes, in the beginning I went to college in Yogya, my boarding school is not here, I spent near the cost of Bima, in the early years, my father and mother visited me here three times a year, so I met Bima a few times. And once when I was dating Bima, my father and mother agreed, my father and mother knew, even when my business was a little problematic, my father liked to send money to me late, It was Bima who helped me a lot. Bima is good, royal, attention, but all that slowly faded because he really pursued his studies to be completed quickly, and he was very ambitious to be self-employed. He once said, although later it may be a small business, no problem, the important thing is that he is the boss, not a subordinate of people. And that prisip is also what my father holds.

So the father has really considered Bima like his own son, Bima used to communicate with the father, give each other news, but since we broke up and he moved to Kalimantan, let alone the father, let alone the same father, he also lost contact. And I never told my parents that Bima and I had broken up, because I didn't think it was anything important, we were dating, anyway, maybe even just ordinary love. Even though I kept crying because I felt she wasn't thinking about my feelings, it was as if I wasn't being counted, not sad about losing love.

And with his PD he only sent out an explanatory SMS once a month away. But it saddens me not long ago, because Via always tells me 'if he can be lost anyway, you can too'.

So when I came home and my father asked me about my relationship with Bima I just answered 'all right'. Without explaining the truth.

"Sir, is it still there?" mother's voice surprised me who was thinking about Bima's intentions and goals.

"Still ma'am, sorry ma'am, Rania rarely tells the same story mom, yes according to Rania it is not so important, anyways it was a long time ago ma'am."

"Oh yes already, after all Bima has returned to Yogya again right, so maybe you can continue the relationship with Bima" said the mother.

"If you know, Rania has a new boyfriend, and this time it's real love. But Rania is not ready to tell mother, later if Rania's lecture is finished, rania must be the story." I muttered in my heart.

"Liat later ajalah ma'am, Rania wants to focus the thesis first, again do not want any other thoughts, right said Rania's father must graduate immediately" I said.

"Well, if that's the case, what matters is that Rania is fine there? Take care of yourself, son, take care of your health, do not stay praying."

"Yes ma'am, InshaaAllah, yes, ma'am, Rania lowbat batre" I said I wanted to end the conversation immediately.

"Yes, yaudah, assalamualaikum."

"Getishalight."

"Mas Bima, what do you mean you called dad?" ask me in my heart while putting my hp.

Sunday, May 16, 2010, one day before the birthday of Mas Farhan, the day was as usual, the cost was suddenly quiet because some boarding children returned to their respective villages, but this time Via did not return. He said again males brought his own motorbike long distance,

As Via and I were chatting in my room, my phone suddenly shook.

I thought it was Farhan, but it wasn't. That's Bima. With his new number.

"Rania, this is Bima mas, this is my new number save yes, btw busy no?" tanyakanya.

"No mas, just relax at the cost. Where's my number from?"

"From your father, can you meet me by the way?" tanyakanya.

"I'm going all over the place, if you want to see me at the cost." I said.

"May, ask for a full address" he said.

"Not far from the old cost really, deket cost temen mas Bima first, mas chess" I said.

"Oh kos girls who color ijo?" tanyakanya.

"It is true. I'll be in the dalem." I said.

"Okay, I'll get ready first."

The SMS is over.

"Who? Farhan Mas?" ask Via.

"No, Bima." I replied.

"Weeeeh Bima is your ex? The one you used to confide in when she was missing?" ask her.

"Yes." I replied.

"Kok ujug-ujug nongol ki arep ngopo meneh?" tanyakanya.

"No idea, justinlah, want to connect a chaturahmi aja times. I'm not papa." I replied accordingly.

"But you used to cry about it a day ago." she said.

"Hahaha, yes, when I was still alay., after all I was sad because I felt unappreciated, not because I lost love." I replied.

"Saiki even soyo alay, just deket already made often confused with Farhan mas."

"Viaaaaaa, uwes anyway." I said as I pinched his arm.

Half an hour later Bima arrived. And I met him on the porch.

"No papa, I want to talk to my ex" she replied with a smile.

"The former who was left that way?" my many.

"There really is no intention of staying that way, it's the last time I have to explain something via SMS" he said.

"You need not discuss the past." I replied.

"If now I come and want to make you my future?" tanyakanya.

"Huh? How's it?" I asked to confirm my hearing.

"If now I come and plan to make amends, and make you my future?" he said more clearly.

"Hahaha, kidding you mas, like no other woman aja aja ah" I replied casually.

"There never was, for God's sake" he said, looking at me.

"Don't say anything for God's sake" I said seriously.

"But that's the truth, Rania, as long as I go and chase my dreams, not a single woman is in my heart" he said.

"But my heart is filling." I said.

"What were you in Indomaret yesterday?" ask her.

"Yes." I replied briefly.

"Newly dating, right? So not necessarily a soul mate" he said.

"Mas Bima, can't ya if the speech is not original?" just pissed.

"Sorry Ran, I just want to say, as long as I can wait. I will try to wait for you, while I'm pioneering my efforts." she replied as she looked at me.

"We never know about a mate, but if we can, don't expect me too much, there's still a lot better than me out there."

He just fell silent and looked at me for quite a while, and I was a bit awkward with that look. Then he stood up and went home.

"Yaudah I say goodbye first, at least I am relieved to have conveyed my heart" he said.

I stood up and got a little closer to where he was standing.

"I'm sorry, because there is a heart that I have to take care of right now, about a soul mate we don't know yet, I can only pray for all of us, too, I can only pray for all of us, hopefully fine and get the best soul mate anyway." I said.

Suddenly he held my right hand.

"Thank you for the advice, I also pray for you the best."

When Bima was holding my hand, suddenly there was a motor stop in front of the boarding gate. And it turns out it was Farhan mas!!

I also immediately pulled my hand that was held by Bima, and immediately put on sandals to approach Farhan mas, but when I was just about to get closer, Farhan immediately went to drive his motorbike.

I was surprised to see Farhan acting so, why he would not stop and hear my explanation first.

I just fell silent, did not call and did not chase, because it would only be in vain I thought, mas Farhan darted very fast at that time.

After Bima came home, I went straight into the room, I tried to call Farhan mas many times, but there was no answer at all.

The night when I was lying in bed while listening to the radio, I tried to contact Farhan again. This time, his phone died.

I don't want to push myself, I'll wait for him until tomorrow. That's my plan.

The next day Monday 17 May 2010. It was Farhan's birthday. But from morning till afternoon I still couldn't reach her, her phone was still off.

Honest attitude like this I did not expect to come from a Farhan mas, he who is so mature, why as if this time behave childish. Just leave, hp turned off. Even if he's jealous, he has to be.

I felt lethargic that day, but I had prepared a gift for her, but she disappeared.

At 4pm I went back to the room. Bath and ashar prayers. Then I fell asleep while listening to some bad songs. It matches my feelings at the time. When I was busy daydreaming suddenly someone knocked on my bedroom door. And when I opened it, there were Farhan, Via, and Iwan.

"Dueeeeeerrrr" cried Via and mas Iwan.

"Astagfirullah, you guys, just ngaggetin." I replied in shock.

"So, there are more lethargic, weak, weary helpless, because there are those who try to contact his lover many times but his cellphone dies." cerocos Via.

"Ssssttt, what the hell." I replied embarrassedly.

I saw Farhan just smiling and looking at me.

"So ngene, dino iki is Farhan's birthday, but even Rania zinc in surprise i" said mas Iwan.

"And it was all me" said Via proudly.

"meaning?" many confused.

"So wingi, just as you received an SMS from Bima, I SMS to Farhan mas, I asked him again in which area, again in the office or outside, it was fitting, he again outside, he was out, I said Bima wanted to come here, I told her to come, teruusss I told mas Farhan through thok let's see you again with Bima, teruusss, so the impressione mas Farhan caught you with Bima and she was jealous, kept going, without stopping by. But it's a hand-holding scene, it's outside my screenplay." Cerocos Via.

"Astagfirullah Viaaaaa, kakean watch soap opera yo ngene ki loh." I said mangkel.

"But it worked out." he said teasing me.

Farhan said nothing at all, he just smiled and watched me, and it made me salting.

"Come ra sah kakean cerito, gek ndang get ready we go directly to Pok Tunggal beach" said mas Iwan excited.

"Where's that?" my many.

"On the mountain of kidul." replied Via.

"Faraway, at this hour just want to go, when to go home?" my many.

"Not coming home, we're all at the beach. I wes nggowo supplies." said mas Iwan.

"Whose plan is this?" my many.

"I." said mas Iwan.

"Tomorrow how will Farhan work?" my many.

"I have permission for tomorrow." replied Farhan.

"Ayoooo Raniaaa, le interview kanko meneh, saiki change clothes, nggowo change clothes, jacket, wes any opo zinc arep mok gowo ben we immediately cappus" said Via.

And I got ready, they were all waiting on the porch, because they had everything ready, and I did not forget to bring gifts for Farhan.

Along the way I still did not finish thinking the same plan, I was shocked and happy, especially mas Farhan, could-may he follow the crazy idea Via. And during my travels Farhan always held my left hand.

We also arrived at Pok Tunggal Beach after Maghrib, because we had stopped by the mosque first.

We did not put up a tent, because it was not planning nenda, it was just that mas iwan carried two bases that were quite thick, like a folding mattress but thinner and wider. I don't know his name.

Mas Iwan also brought emergency lights and some other equipment, understand he is a child of nature lovers. So he does have all those tools.

At that time the sky was full of stars, the night was quite bright, the beach was the same as the beach of mountain kidul otherya, white sand. But the location is a little wider and flatter.

"Sorry, deck, it worries you" said Farhan.

"Don't do it again well, I'm afraid to know." I replied.

"You don't either" he said.

"Don't what?" my many.

"Don't let this hand be held by a man other than me" he said, holding my hand.

"I don't know if he wants to do that either" I said.

"Are you jealous?" ask again.

He did not answer directly. He pulled my hand and put it on his chest.

"You think?" ask her while looking at my eyes.

"It looks like it is, and I'm happy because of that, it's a sign that you really love me." I replied smiling.

"Somehow else should I express this heart, I just hope you never doubt it again" he said seriously.

"Shortly." I said as I pulled my hand from earlier in his hand.

And I took the gift I had prepared for her.

"Make you" I said, giving the gift.

He opened it right away.

"Happy birthday. Best prayer for my beloved." I said with a smile looking at her.

"Thank you so much for the deck, but for me, this year's most beautiful gift is you" she said, holding my hand.

"Haha, I'm just feeling weird in gini gombalin like a Farhan mas." I said with a laugh.

"I'm not fat, I'm serious" he said.

"Thank you for accepting me for who I am, for giving me happiness I have never felt before" I said, looking into her eyes.

And we sat next to each other, I put my head on his shoulder, looking at the beautiful sea and the bright sky of the night.

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