RANIA 'God's Destiny Makes Me Cry In Pelaminan'

Kedung Kayang Magelang Waterfall

First week of March 2010.

Mas Farhan took me to a slightly different tourist spot. This time he took me to the waterfall. Its name is Kedung Kayang waterfall in Magelang.

That day we left at eight in the morning, said Mas Farhan the adventure this time will take a little time. Especially when later down the road that is quite steep when heading to the waterfall. Imagine that I feel tired actually. But this time with him, he's the one I love so much. So it looks like I'm gonna be okay.

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Sure enough, when I got to the location I was already scared first. I was afraid of fainting, because the road we went down was really steep rocky, and it could only be reached on foot.

Astagfirullah Rania's! Home-born children who are desperate to come to this place? do you think the origin of the same goes Mas Farhan you will not be tired like that? Tired of Ran. You think that even if you go with Mas Farhan, you will immediately have superpowers like that? It can't be Rania.

Along the way down the rocky path, Mas Farhan always held my hand. Because there are some slippery stones that must be passed. There was also a muddy land, and it was terrible for me.

If it counts maybe every five minutes I ask to stop for a break. Because it is so exhausting. I felt like my feet could no longer walk. But Mas Farhan patiently waited for me to continue the journey, and he always encouraged me by saying that all this fatigue would pay off later when it arrived. Okay okay, baby, I believe everything you say.

Sure enough, what I saw amazed me. The waterfall is so high, the large stones that are underneath are no less interesting. With such a height makes the water fall and hit the big rock below it also produces a spark like dew that is quite thick. If we stand closer then the falling water will directly wet our bodies, and it feels very, very cold.

"Good right?" ask Mas Farhan.

"Banget!" I answered while bored because the journey was so full of obstacles, I also sat on one of the stones.

"It's a drink first, take a break first." Mas Farhan offered me mineral water which he had brought back from home.

"The oath is tired. The original taste was not strong, would cry," I said while neutralizing the breath and drinking the water given Mas Farhan.

"But what did he get? It paid off enough, didn't it get tired?" ask her while smiling.

For what? Farhan did not look tired at all. The turn!

"Bring a change of clothes?" tanyakanya.

"Bawa, kemaren already pesen have to bring a change of clothes, this is in the backpack," I replied.

Yes, today I brought a backpack containing a change of clothes, jacket, and flip-flops. Because yesterday Mas Farhan told SMS, he had to bring a change of clothes and sandals, because it must be wet.

"You're going to the waterfall deck, right?" asked Mas Farhan after seeing me was not so bored anymore.

"May," I replied excitedly.

We also walked closer to the waterfall, and sure enough my clothes were immediately wet with splashes of water that hit the rock.

"It's a cold vow, yeah, cool!" I said as I clenched myself with both hands.

How shocked I was when Mas Farhan hugged me from behind, he wrapped his arms around me as if covering my body so as not to get cold. At that time he was still wearing the black parachute jacket he wore from earlier.

I looked up and slightly turned my head to see his face, he also reflexively lowered his head to see my face, our eyes met.

"Thank you" I said.

He didn't say anything, he just smiled and went back to look at the waterfall that was in front of us.

Does anyone know how I felt at that time? It's hard to describe. Only he, I, and God know.

We took pictures several times, alternately. Inexplicably this time Mas Farhan took the initiative to bring his small digital camera.

Ah, the more here why are all the attitudes and ways more romantic anyway? Realize he is not, if what he does often makes me excited myself. Smile at yourself, and often imagine everything yourself while in the room.

Lucky you are Rania, did not miss the radio show at that time. If you pass 1 minute, you will never know this Mas Farhan. Now he who you have only heard his name has stood by you, left his heart filled with you, loving you with a simple but special feeling.

"At the top there was a stall, there was a toilet too. Later you can change clothes there, if now you want to get closer to the waterfall can be," he said.

"No ah, it's enough here" I said, holding her hand around my neck.

After being satisfied to stand while feeling the splash of water. Mas Farhan was looking for a stone that would be comfortable to sit on.

Finally we sat next to each other, on a wide rock a little further from the waterfall. Suddenly his right hand reached for my shoulder. Pulling me slowly, then his left hand held the camera and pointed the lens towards us.

"One photo yes" he asked.

I looked at the camera with a smile.

"Make mementos" he said.

"Huh? How's it? Memories?" I was surprised to hear his words.

"Oh, I mean the memory that we've been here" he replied with a smile.

"Oh Kirain wants to make me a memory" I replied, looking down. Honestly hearing the word 'memories' while being in contact with Mas Farhan was one of the things I was most afraid of. I really can't imagine how I could bring it to memory.

"Sensitive it turns out to be my boyfriend, gini yes if already a girlfriend turns out. Very afraid of the same things that lead to separation that." She teases me.

"Yes, no dating person who wants to separate, want stepnya tuh abis dating ya married," said I seriously.

"You?" tanyakanya.

Well Rania! Asked what not to shake? Can't answer you, Ran? Lagian lancing in that direction anyway. I knew he was ready for that. Even go in that direction. Rania, Vanessa.

"Yes, if it's time, then" I replied.

"InshaaAllah" he said with a smile looking at me.

"Eh the deck wait here briefly yes, I did not get a little closer to the waterfall bentar, drop this," he said as he stood up and handed his backpack to me.

As Mas Farhan walked away. I saw that he climbed onto a large rock near the waterfall, and he took a photo of the waterfall up close.

Shortly afterwards I suddenly felt a tremor in Mas Farhan's backpack that I had been holding. I also tried to open the backpack. It turned out that there was an incoming SMS on his HP, and I ventured to open it. It was an SMS from Zahra. Huh huh? Zahras?

"So meeting tonight? It's 7 o'clock, right? In the north square?" fill out that SMS.

I was surprised because Mas Farhan did not say anything to me from earlier if he made a deal with Zahra. I read the other inbox. They made the deal yesterday.

At that time I felt very anxious to reply to the SMS, and said that Mas Farhan was with me. I'm holding his HP. Yeah, let Zahra know that I'm that close to Mas Farhan.

But I'm abandoning my intentions. Cause I feel like it's gonna look pretty presumptuous. After all, Mas Farhan's cellphone signal suddenly disappeared after that.

Soon after, Farhan returned. He walked over to me, and I had his HP back in my backpack a few minutes earlier. So he didn't see me unlock that HP.

Lah, but the inbox I've opened, how about donk? Ah the bodo period, hopefully he is not aware of it.

After finishing enjoying the scenery in Kedung Kayang, exactly at two noon. Mas Farhan took me up and we left the beautiful waterfall. Just like before, I can't walk up to the top. Even this time it feels twice as tiring as the descent earlier.

But finally we arrived at the stall that Mas Farhan meant. I feel like I'm really not strong anymore. Even stepping feels heavy.

I also hitchhiked the toilet at the stall to get changed. Finished changing clothes Mas Farhan took me out of the location. We are looking for a mosque to pray dzuhur and looking for a place to eat. Because from the morning we only ate bread and water that Mas Farhan brought.

After we finished eating we continued our journey. This time the trip home was quite long, because Mas Farhan did not drive the bike as fast as usual.

It turned out that we arrived in Yogya at about four in the afternoon. We stopped at the mosque for Ashar.

When it comes to prayer, Mas Farhan is much more diligent than me. I totally admit that. Wherever we went for a walk, the prayer never stayed at all.

He told me once,

"Sholat is mandatory. Whoever you are, no matter how you live your life, as long as you are Islamic it means you are obligated to pray. After all, doing it is not long, then why should we leave it? We talk, play, even walk for hours. The prayer period which is only five to ten minutes only would want to be left? Being forgotten? Be neglected? The five prayers of course do not necessarily go to heaven. Especially the ones who ignore it.

The words he said made me feel that my love was not wrong.

After the end of the Ashar prayer he invited me to continue the journey, I thought he would take me straight home to the boarding house. Apparently not, he took me to the North Square first.

"We nyore here first well, later maghrib in the mosque. Abis was just not coming home," he said, pointing to the Gedhe Mosque in the square complex. Our memorial mosque, the mosque that still makes me remember its figure to this day.

I also nodded.

But, didn't he make a deal with Zahra later at 19:00. Why would he even take me to kos abis maghrib? Did he forget his promise to Zahra? Ah whatever. If they follow me, I don't want them to see you again. Sorry Zahra I'm selfish. For a Zahra my selfishness is quite pronounced. I was afraid they would get close again. I was still lacking confidence at the time. Because I knew that Zahra had been a filler for Mas Farhan's heart for much longer than I was then.

Without feeling Maghrib arrived, finished our maghrib prayer did not go straight out of the mosque. We sat down in the courtyard of the mosque.

Gedhe Kauman Mosque is located really in the heart of Yogya City, so it is never deserted. Always crowded visitors, from the original people of Yogya to tourists who travel to Malioboro and its surroundings always stop here.

I saw Mas Farhan take out his HP from his backpack, and he typed something.

What is Zahra SMS again? Then they will meet in the North Square. Then how am I?

"Dek, yuk, come," Mas Farhan asked as he stood up.

I followed him to the parking lot, and we continued on again. Again, I guess he'll take me to the boarding house. But it turned out that he took me back to the middle of the North Square field, and stopped about 20 meters from the banyan tree that was there.

I got off the bike and sat down on the edge of the fence that surrounded the banyan tree. I saw Mas Farhan still sitting on his bike.

What the hell is he doing? She didn't follow me to sit next to me.

But before long came a motorbike and stopped right next to Mas Farhan. It was Zahra.

I was very surprised at that moment. How come Mas Farhan made a deal with Zahra, but didn't take me home to boarding first?

I decided to stay in my seat, I saw them get off their bikes and talk. I don't know what to say, I can't hear it. Because I sat far enough away from where they stood.

About ten minutes later I suddenly saw Mas Farhan walking towards me.

"Dek, come on," he asked as he slowly pulled my right hand.

I was shocked and stood up and walked with him.

"Rania?" greet Zahra with a surprised expression.

"Zahra," I said with a smile.

"As I said earlier, thank you for your explanation of what happened, maybe we can be friends after this" Mas Farhan told Zahra.

"Thank you for listening to my explanation, and congratulations on finding a new heart" Zahra smiled as she looked at me.

"Rania I'm sorry, it's been interrupting your time. What is clear is that I am relieved now that I have had the opportunity to talk to Mas Farhan. Now I know what he meant by that it was you" said Zahra with a slightly sad face. Yeah, I can see that. Although I am the type of woman who is less sensitive and indifferent (except when with Mas Farhan). But as for someone's facial expression, I can still very much read it. Looking at Zahra's face, I could tell how she felt at the time.

During the conversation, Mas Farhan did not release his hand from my hand at all. To be honest, it made me a bit awkward in front of Zahra. Because I told you that I'm the same Mas Farhan is just an ordinary friend. But it seems like Mas Farhan has already said the truth.

"Yaudah Mas, Ran, I go home first huh. Oh yes Rania, I tipped Mas Farhan yes, take good care of him. Because Mas Farhan is a very good man."

I could see Zahra's eyes glazed over. I could feel his sadness, and everything that had happened before was not his fault. But it was the circumstances that made them have to separate. Zahra, I'm sorry.

"Be careful deck" Mas Farhan told Zahra.

"Be careful, Zah" I said.

Zahra left us and I immediately raised my head to see Mas Farhan. He also returned my gaze.

"I deliberately didn't tell you that I made a deal with Zahra here, and it's been yesterday. I've been planning on taking Dek Rania. I want to hear Zahra's explanation firsthand, and I also want to tell Zahra that there is someone else in my heart. So that he doesn't expect me anymore" he explained at length without me asking.

I'm confused about being happy or what. One side I am happy because Mas Farhan has really admitted me as his lover. It was before Sekar, today before his past Zahra. But I really felt sorry for Zahra, because I could see how sad her face was. Maybe if I were him, I'd cry. Just imagine, someone who once filled our hearts. Then separated by circumstances, when there is a chance to meet again it turns out to be the property of others. His heart was empty and filled with others. What is even more distressing is that the other person is brought before us. How's it feel? Porak-poranda already, and I really did not expect that Mas Farhan could plan that.

"Thank you for truly acknowledging my existence" that was all I could say to Mas Farhan back then.

He smiled and held both my hands. His look was so sincere, it made me feel like he really loved me. I hope this is not just my feeling. Mas Farhan is not an easy person to fall in love with. Not someone who easily expresses their feelings. But to me, he stated it, admitted it, even confirmed it.

Finally we went on our way, and this time we really went back to my room.

One of the things that stuck in my mind all this time was done, Zahra already knew who I was. Zahra already knew that Mas Farhan's feelings for her were gone, and it relieved me. So I don't have to pretend anymore when I meet Zahra.

Zahra, if I knew what Mas Farhan had said at the time, if I could know how you really felt at that time. I wish I could know what happened to you after coming home from that place. If I knew if you could use me in your heart? Did you get to curse me? Do you really hate me? Zahra, if ever I could meet you I would like to apologize in person. He, the most beautiful it turns out to be our past together.

Seriate....