RANIA 'God's Destiny Makes Me Cry In Pelaminan'

Angkringan Lek Man's

Mas Farhan's birth month finally arrived. Yeah, in May. In May 2010, she was exactly 30 years old.

I was 23 at the time. Our age is quite far, seven years. That's why Mas Farhan was snacking so much on me. Because he is already of his age.

It is very natural when men are older it starts to often think about marriage.

As for me, I'm still focused on my thesis that just started CHAPTER 3. But Mas Farhan once told me that he would wait for me to finish. He explained and tried to convince his parents.

Mas Farhan once said that his mother was a little worried if Mas Farhan was married to a distant person. I know that I am Sumatran. It's not about SARA, but her mother is worried that one day I will bring Mas Farhan to Sumatra. That means his mother's wish to stay and be guarded by Mas Farhan will not be realized. I also had time to tell Mas Farhan, if someday I was his match, and we were destined to be together. I'll go wherever Mas Farhan goes and settle down. If I had to be in that house with his parents, God willing I would be there with him.

Although to be honest, if you hear the experience of some friends who are married. They advise not to stay with in-laws, stay away from conflicts he said.

I don't know, but it was my head just focused on my skirps first. Because my dad used to ask me when I was done. So I had to take into account my parents' expectations first, before my own.

Does not every parent have high hopes for their children after financing and sending them to school. So did my parents.

*********

Today as usual, I was busy on campus, and seemed to be going home late in the afternoon. All day long I have not contacted Mas Farhan at all. He seems to be busy with his work too. Because he hasn't contacted me at all.

"Via, yuk's bus." I took Via to the library.

"OK, just wanted to jump, uh in the past," he said with a laugh.

While in the library I and Via were busy respectively. We spent until 15:00.

After finishing all the activities in the library, me and Via went back to the boarding house. Shower and relax resting the head that was full of material.

I saw my HP, there was absolutely no SMS from Mas Farhan, just from my mother who reminded me of eating and praying as usual.

My mind started going everywhere, Mas Farhan really a henchman huh? There's absolutely no news all day. I finally got the initiative for SMS first.

"Assalamualaikum, what else?"

The SMS was sent, I waited for a reply while sleeping and listening to the radio. My life can't be far from the radio. Especially since I got to know Mas Farhan from there. I've listened to almost every program on my favorite radio frequencies, I Radio Jogja, Yasika, Geronimo, and Retjo Buntung.

Without realizing it, I fell asleep. I woke up hearing the voice of the Maghrib Adhan. I saw again my HP, it turns out there is still no reply at all.

I'm still trying to think positively. Maybe Mas Farhan's overtime or out of town. Because Mas Farhan had been out of town several times to install CCTV in the hotel, and every time he was out of town he usually just contacted me the next day. I am not a woman who always insists on communicating. If I knew he was busy, I would wait for him. Wait until he calls me first.

The next day I was busy with my script. Typing what I wrote and summarizing in a book from the library yesterday.

On the sidelines of that busyness, I looked back at my HP. But until that afternoon there was still no SMS reply from Mas Farhan, I also began to feel uneasy. I finally decided to call him.

After several times I tried to finally pick up the phone, only the answer from across there was not Mas Farhan, but the voice of a woman.

"Assalamuaik." Someone who raised the HP of Mas Farhan greeted me.

"Waalaikumsalam" I replied.

"Dek Rania huh?" tanyakanya. I recognize that voice, it's Ani's.

"Yes, is this Ani's mom?" my many.

"Yes, this is Ani" he replied.

"Sorry Ma'am, is Mas Farhanya?"

"His heart hurts again Dek, now sleeps again" he said.

"Huh? What pain is it, Mommy?" ask me with a feeling of worry.

"Fever Deck, from yesterday his body was hot, and shivering. But I went to the doctor, he said typhoid symptoms."

"Oh that's Ma'am, my pantes SMS from yesterday there was no response," I said.

"Yes, he said he was dizzy. So jaudah same mother told to rest first, lots of sleep. Dek Rania isn't here to see Farhan?" asked Ani at the time.

"Huh? Can Ma'am?" many doubt. Honestly, if I wanted to come, I would really like to see him. But I'm afraid of Mom's acceptance.

"May, the time' of the sick man cannot be. Especially the sick people who are special," he said.

"Hmmm ... InshaaAllah tomorrow I invite you there to visit Mas Farhan ya Mbak. But don't tell Mas Farhanya first Ma'am," I asked Mbak Ani.

"OK, wait for tomorrow, yes" he said.

The conversation is over. I could feel that Ani was friendly and kind to me, as if she accepted my existence. Mas Farhan also told me that Ani's mother helped him explain slowly to Mom about me. Although Mbak Ani had wanted to match Mas Farhan with Sekar assisted by Mbak Dahlia. But said Mas Farhan, Mbak Ani did not want to force. All decisions are in the hands of Mas Farhan, because Mas Farhan will be the one who will live it. So whoever Mas Farhan's choice is, Ani will always support him.

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The next day I asked Via to take me to Mas Farhan's house. Because if I go alone it's impossible, I don't know the exact path. Although I had been invited by Mas Farhan to his house, I really do not remember the road we had passed at that time.

So I gave Via an address, fortunately he knew where Sumberharjo was. It's just that we still have to ask some people we met on the road near the area to be able to get to the address of Mas Farhan's house.

Finally, Via and I arrived at Mas Farhan's house.

Arriving there I also knocked on the door and said greetings with considerable doubt and a heart that was certainly pounding. Coincidentally that opened the door when it was Mbak Ani.

"Dek Rania, enter Deck monggo." Ani's mother also let me and Via into her house.

"Thank you, Ma'am" I said.

"Monggo sit down, is it?" asked Ani when she saw Via.

"Yes Ma'am, know this Via." I introduced Via to Mbak ani, and they shook hands.

"I'm going in for a second. Monggo sat down first, taken casually," he said as he passed inside.

A few minutes later Ani came out carrying two drinks, and behind her was Mom who accompanied.

"Monggo Dek is drunk" said Ani as she put down the glass she was carrying.

"Monggo," Mother also invited.

"Thank you, ma'am" I said.

"Do you want Farhan?" ask Mother.

"Yes mom. Ani's mother said, Mas Farhan is sick," I replied.

"Yes, the doctor said that the typhoid symptoms, I think because of the fatigue," said Mother.

"Yes, that was two days ago overtime straight on. The return of malem really, the possibility of fatigue," continued Mbak Ani.

"Thank you Rania, already want to come all the way here to look at Farhan," said Ibu Mas Farhan with a smile.

I don't know why I feel so happy to hear that remark, let alone see Mom's smile. I hope you will continue to be this friendly to me.

"Monggo if you want to look at it, go straight to his room or papa. Dek Via is also aja monggo," said Mbak Ani let me and Via go inside.

Me and Via stood up and followed Ani from behind. When Ani's mother opened the door to Mas Farhan's room, I saw that Mas Farhan was asleep.

"Oh again sleep Ma'am. It will disturb you not well. Let's rest first" I said.

"Daddy, are you here?" I heard Mas Farhan's voice calling me.

"Well, wake up. You know he's the voice of Ranianya," said Mbak Ani teasing me.

I smiled too, I saw Mother who was standing behind Mbak Ani also smiling. This time it was the most tender and coolest smile I had ever seen on Mom's face. Not a smile like before. I am so glad to see my smile again.

Me and Via went into Mas Farhan's room, and sat down on a chair beside his bed.

"Still dizzy?" my many.

"No, it's just a little too late" replied Mas Farhan, trying to get up and lean on his bed.

"Some are worried that their hearts are in pain. Jump uproar ngajak. But so excited he forgot to bring nothing at all," led Via.

I was also shocked to hear his words. Jesus, I just realized that I did not bring any hands to Mas Farhan, like I usually do when visiting sick people.

"Astagfirullah yes, I forgot. How come you didn't mention me?" ask me to Via while half glaring. I honestly panicked at that moment. Exaggeration is me, but that's how I feel. Shame at forgetting to bring something for my girlfriend.

"I'm wae again lelian iki, mergo ndelok kui loh (i'm just inget now, because look at it loh)," said Via while pointing at the basket containing fruit on Mas Farhan's table.

"Oh, sorry, Mom. I completely forgot," I said.

"No papa, no need to bring anything. The origin that Rania came from, I was already smiling," Mas Farhan said with a smile.

"Tsaaaaaah, it's like a telenovela. Woy, I'm here, ampon!" via said heboh himself.

I was embarrassed to make it, it felt wrong to hear Mas Farhan say such a sentence. In front of Via again.

A few minutes later while we were chatting suddenly a woman went straight into Mas Farhan's room. It turned out to be Sekar.

"Eh there's Rania," she said as she directly sat on the edge of Mas Farhan's bed.

"Who's here?" asked Mas Farhan to Sekar.

"Sama Mbak," replied Mbak Dahlia who was from earlier in front of the room door.

"Rania's been here a long time?" ask Sekar to me.

"It was about 15 minutes ago" I replied.

"That's a deck chair." Mas Farhan said to Sekar and pointed to the chair next to me. Looks like the plastic chairs are indeed prepared for those who want to look. Or maybe Ani's mother who has prepared it because she knows I'm coming. I don't know, obviously the chairs were already there when we came.

"Ndak ah, here ajah," Sekar replied while holding Mas Farhan's left hand.

I saw Mas Farhan pulling his hand that was being held by Sekar and looking at me.

"Oh, I lali ono yange (i forgot there is a boyfriend)," said Sekar while looking at me with a slightly cynical look.

"Ran, go home yuk." Suddenly Via took me home at that time.

"Oh, okay. We go home first." I say goodbye to Mas Farhan.

"Why rush?" asked Mas Farhan to me.

"I have a study of Mas" said Via.

I just smiled too. This smile was a jealous smile. A forced smile, an annoyed smile. Why did Sekar suddenly come, why did he have to sit there anyway?! I am the one whose boyfriend does not dare. Uuuuugghhh, it felt like my heart was really stuck at that time.

"Yaudah Mas, I say yes first" I said.

"Not anther ahead" said Mas Farhan.

"Eh, you are still sick, Mas, already here is a boobok," said Sekar.

"No papa, just going forward that's it" said Mas Farhan while trying to get out of his bed.

"You don't have to, they can do it themselves. You're booby Mas," said Sekar while holding the hand of Mas Farhan.

"I want my boyfriend to get to the door" said Mas Farhan as he slowly let go of Sekar's hand.

He was silent with an annoyed face.

Me and Via finally came out of the room. When in front of the door of the room we passed Mbak Dahlia who was standing there and looked cynical.

"Mas, would you like to say goodbye to Mom first?" my many.

"May, wait a minute" he replied as he went to the kitchen to call Mom.

Finally me and Via also say goodbye to Mother and Sister Ani.

"I'm sorry Dek, it was made uncomfortable with Sekar," he said.

"It is not very comfortable, kok ono wedhok ko ngono modele (it is not very comfortable, if there are women models so)," said Via spontaneously.

"Ssttt, the man will be horrified. By the way, what are you studying? As I said you never took part in the study," I asked Via while nudging his hand.

"Mbuh, waton muni wae. Sebel me (do not know, as long as I was talking, before me)," he said.

"I'm sorry, Dek" said Mas Farhan.

"Yes, not papa. Yaudah we go home first yes, a lot of rest and drink water. Cepet recovered again," I said with a smile.

"Now also recovered, this is my medicine," he said as he shook my hand.

"Tsaaaahh, mulaaii. Wo koyo ABG wae, come bali(wo, kayak ABG aja, let's go home)," ledek Via.

"Jaudah be careful on the road, if it costs you to tell me," said Mas Farhan.

Finally, me and Via came home. Along the way I listened to Via who mengedumel commenting on Sekar.

If Via knew, my heart would also want to menggedumel actually. But baby was at someone's house. If for example, he acted like that outside, not at Mas Farhan's house. I've pulled her hair out. I am an ordinary woman who can also be emotional, not like the character of garlic in soap operas that despite being colonized and bullied are still good and pretentious. I can't be like that.

**********

Five days passed by the day I visited Mas Farhan, finally Mas Farhan has completely recovered. He can work again too.

That day before work he said goodbye to me via SMS. I was happy to hear that my Mas Farhan has recovered, which means that I can meet him again. Without having to go to his house and meet Sekar again. To be honest, I do not want to fit into Mas Farhan's house to be with him again.

Anyway, I can't bear to see the behavior of that one woman. It could be high blood.

That night, Mas Farhan picked me up and took me to dinner. This time he took me to Angkringan Kopi Jos Lek Man located near Tugu Station.

It's not my first time to go to Angkringan Lek Man. Because some friends also often invite me to eat here.

Arriving there, Mas Farhan ordered the legendary Jos Coffee. A glass of black coffee served with burning charcoal. Jos coffee is one of the main menus of Angkringan it. While I ordered the wedang gahenya.

We also got a seat in the Lesehan section. Because it is angkringan it is never empty of visitors, even sometimes to queue. Seats provided there are lesehan and there are also those on the bench and wooden tables.

"Dek, it looks like I've started to accept you" said Farhan.

"Huh? How's it? Repeat," I asked to confirm my hearing.

Mas Farhan also changed his sitting position to be more face to face and close to me.

"Rania Ainun Sofia, it seems like my mother can already accept you," she said once again holding both of my hands.

"Couldn't you? What did Mom say?" tanyaku sok kalem hotel.

"When you came to see me a few days ago, my mom said that she did not expect you to come to look at me. Even though you have only once taken me home, that means you are trying to find my home address just to visit me," he explained.

"Masa' is just because of that? It's easy to melt your mother's heart." I asked to doubt Mas Farhan's explanation.

"There are actually several other reasons. Your mother said you were polite, and Ani's mother also said you were kind. And I also gave my eyes to Mom that one day we will be like a mate, you want to come with me" he explained with a smile.

"Alhamdulillah," I answered briefly.

My heart was really excited at the time. But there's no way I'm jumping around in that crowded place. So I tried to hold him. I hid my happiness in my heart.

After that conversation, Mas Farhan and I discussed many other things. Talking to Mas Farhan was one of the things I always missed. Because Mas Farhan always had a topic of conversation.

After finishing enjoying some very complete angkringan special food available at Angkringan Lek Man, we decided to go home.

On the way home I asked Mas Farhan to stop by one of his Indomaret ATMs, because I wanted to check my mother's delivery this morning.

I went into the car, and Mas Farhan was waiting for me in the parking lot. Still sitting on his bike. When I finished checking the balance, I also walked to the entrance of the Indomaret and did not think I would meet with Bima. Yes, Bima was my ex-boyfriend before Mas Farhan.

"Rania," she said.

"Well, Bima, what's here?" manywould be surprised.

"Yes, just two weeks ago I went back to Yogya, how are you?" tanyakanya.

"God is good, you?"

"Good alhamdulillah, where are the gini malems from?" tanyakanya.

"Abis from eating at Angkringan Lek Man" I replied.

"Who's the guy?"

"Sama Mas Farhan," I answered again, looking at Mas Farhan who was watching me from behind the glass of indomaret.

"The new one?" ask her with a smile.

"Yes, the old one has flown to Kalimantan" I replied.

"But this is already in Yogya again the old tablets," he replied teasingly.

"Ah ah, I want to go home. Bye," I said as I passed by leaving her.

I also walked out to Mas Farhan who was still waiting for me on his bike. After that, we continued on our way back to my room.

Bima, I dated him for two years from 2006 to 2008. Long before I knew Mas Farhan. We used to be a college, he's the big brother of the faculty with me. We didn't break up because of a third person or other problem. We broke up because he had to move to Borneo. Yes, after graduation, he went to Kalimantan to work with Omnya who was domiciled there. He left me without saying goodbye. Then after he was there for a month, he just called me again. But because he was too busy, our communication was so, so much less. At that time, my feelings were bland. I know that he has ambitions to become a self-employed person. So he works while learning how to open his own business like his omnya. But I admit, from the beginning of dating Bima I feel all ordinary. Very ordinary, I don't have feelings as deep as I have for Mas Farhan right now. That's why when I broke up with him I was normal. It is sad to be left without saying goodbye. After a month, I gave word. But the sadness is not deep. A sense of loss for a moment, then faded in just a matter of days.

*********

A few moments later, Mas Farhan and I finally arrived in front of the boarding house. I got off the bike, and we chatted for a while in front of the boarding gate.

"Daddy, who was that?" asked Mas Farhan to me.

"Oh, that's Bima. My old ex" I answered honestly.

"You never told me about him, like I told you about Zahra" he said.

"Make what? I broke up with him long before I knew Mas, and since breaking up until this moment I have never communicated with him again at all" I explained.

"Yes, yes" he said with a smile teasing me.

"Why? A crush?" my many.

"Yes I have a crush" he replied.

"Oh, I'm right." I laughed at Mas Farhan's statement.

"I have a crush on her ex-boyfriend" she said, looking me in the eye.

"Start," I said, blushing in shame.

"But really, I had a crush on her ex-boyfriend from the moment I first met," he said again holding my hand and looking back at my eyes.

"Mas, what thick dictionary is your dreadlocks? The more here the more aggressive the zombies," I said teasing Mas Farhan.

"I've never been a lame, I'm serious" he said with a face that had turned serious.

"Yes, yeah. I know you have a crush on me, just like that" I said with a smile.

"By the way, until this moment you never returned the note I once gave Dek. Already harried?" tanyakanya.

"No, yet" I replied briefly.

"Why?"

"That's a note to write your mistakes, flaws, and attitudes that make me uncomfortable right? And so far none of that," I said while looking at his face.

"Masa' doesn't exist at all, can't I be that perfect."

"Who said you were perfect?" my many.

"There are no flaws and mistakes you can write on the note."

"There is a lack and a mistake, but it has been covered with his kindness, his affection, his attention, his walks, and his sweet smile" I said with a smile looking into his eyes.

"I feel like ABG loh Dek you gombalin gini," he said smiling shyly.

"I'm not a tombal, I'm serious" I said imitating his words.

We laughed together too. After talking for a while, Mas Farhan came home, and I went to the boarding house. Not stalling, I took a shower, changed my clothes, and got ready for a break.

Before going to bed I had time to turn on the radio as usual to become my bedmate, and saw my HP, which turned out to have three SMS from Mas Farhan there.

SMS 1: "Sir, I'm home."

SMS 2: "Sir, are you asleep?"

SMS 3: "Dek, if there is a time to hold HP and read my SMS, immediately reply yes. I'm waiting."

Whatisthis? Not usually Mas Farhan SMS this much. Usually if I have not replied he will wait until I reply myself, this really SMS tumben until lined up once every five minutes.

"What mas? Ni abis shower, now it's ready to rest," I replied.

Not waiting for long suddenly my HP shook.

"I'm waiting for your reply from now on" he replied.

"Tumben really awaited, usually if I reply tomorrow was not papa."

"Tonight was another, I was also astonished."

"Other what is it?" my reply.

"I want to say something, and I want you to read it right away" he replied.

"What by the way?"

"It's serious, don't say gombal, don't get mocked. I also don't know why I can feel this, and it's only the first time."

"What the hell is mas? Make curious," I replied with a strong curiosity.

"I love you Rania Ainun Sofia."

I did not reply to him immediately, I read the sentence over and over again, which I had been lying down at once I immediately got up and sat down.

Huh huh? This serious? Whats? Almost a year I knew him, only this first time he said the ultimate sentence like this. Raniaaa, you are not how much this can make a Mas Farhan love you, and now he can say it even though it is just an SMS. What dream are you, Rania? What dreams?

"Do you know what makes you love me? Until I can finally say it?" reply kalem poky.

Even though my behavior in the room was exactly like the seesaw of a Kindergarten child, while hugging my neck. Please just imagine.

"All the things I love about you, there's no need for any specific reason to love someone, right? Enough to feel," he replied.

Oh Raniaaa, selow Ran, selow. Don't overdo it, this trip is still a long way, don't fly too high. Falling from that height will hurt. Control your feelings Rania.

"Thank you for loving Rania, thank you for accompanying Rania so far" I said.

"Together deck, yaudah rest yes, Assalamualaikum."

"Getishalight."

It was one of the most beautiful nights of all the nights I've spent since I knew him. Mas Farhanya Rania's.

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