Rachel Love Farel's

Part 101s

"Now mama rest well, I will accompany mama here."

Ayuma shook her head, "You should go home and rest at home. Tomorrow morning you come here again."

"Yes No, Ma. Where could I leave my mom alone. I can sleep on that couch, Ma." Rachel turned to the long sofa that Brandon and Uncle Samuel were sitting on. From this afternoon until now they've been here."

Before eight o'clock last night many visited. There was Opa Vishnu, Sebastian Anggun and Rachel's best friend and their mothers, meaning to Farel and Sarah too but they came home because it was already night . Opa Vishnu wants to stay but for the sake of health. Rachel and Ayuma told him to go home.

"Mama should not worry. As long as I'm with mom I'll be fine."

Ayuma nodded,

"Now my mom is sleeping. It's night." It's night."

"Slowly Ayuma closed her eyes while holding back the tears that broke her wish to come out. Ayuma desperately held back the tears from dripping and made her daughter worry.

Ayuma felt so fragile and weak now. Her promise to be a strong mother figure for her daughter is difficult for her to do with her current condition.

The doctor said there was no weight problem, just fatigue but the doctor warned Ayuma to maintain health and not be too stressed. Stress can cause a variety of serious diseases .

But in a situation like this, it was impossible for Ayuma not to be stressed. Ayuma holds everything by herself. Ayuma did not like being pitied and people looked at her with pitiful looks.

"Good sleep Mama," Rachel kissed Ayuma's forehead staring long ago, and kissed once more.

"Uncle Samuel, Rachel tipped mama for a while well, Rachel wants to get out for the wind."

Samuel nodded, while Brandon stood up to Rachel.

"I'm with you."

Rachel stared once more at her mama's face, then exited the room with Brandon. Brandon asks nothing and just follows Rachel wherever she goes.

Now they are on the path of the hospital garden. Walking in front while Brandon followed behind. Their steps were in rhythm within about 10 steps.

Without Brandon and the people in this park realizing, Rachel Wept without a Voice. Or maybe it was Rachel who didn't want to hear her own crying voice.

A cry that showed how weak he was now. Rachel had tried to be strong, but seeing her mama lying in the hospital, Rachel felt a part of herself destroyed.

Rachel continued to walk with tears. Just keep walking through the garden, until his feet are tired and tears begin to dry up.

Rachel turned around and her gaze met on Brandon who was standing in front of her.

"You want me to go there ?"

Rachel did not answer, instead stepped first to Brandon and stood right in front of him.

"What do you see now ?."

Brandon was surprised to hear Rachel's question.

"You see me ... My life is a mess now . I don't even know if I can smile and laugh as seriously as I used to. So if you hope my presence makes you happy, you're Brandon's fault. I can't even make myself happy how can I make you happy. I'll just be your burden."

Brandon shook his head, "We can get through together. My life isn't perfect either, Rachel, nor do I expect to always be happy with you. There must be times when one of us is down. That's what we're for in this relationship. We can strengthen each other."

Brandon grabbed Rachel's hand and clasped her hand tightly.

"I was once in your position of being a broken home child. I know the pain and despair you are feeling right now. Even though Papa was remarried and my stepmother was very kind, I still could not recover completely. For years my mother left me and her stupid every night I kept hoping for her presence.I know what it's like to hold back my longing for parents who can't be delivered. Just like your longing for your papa."

"I, I will always be by your side and will never leave you like you did . You'll never leave again like my mama did, will you ?."

Rachel returned Brandon's embrace tightly, then slowly let go.

"I'm scared,"

"Fear what? what are you afraid of, Rachel?."

"I'm afraid I can't live up to your expectations."

"My only hope is one, I ask you to stay by my side and not leave me. Is it that hard?."

Brandon's expectations sound simple, but it's not that simple for Rachel. Rachel was depressed and scared.

"Rachel, why?."

"I love other men."

Brandon's hand trembled in Rachel's.

"Who?."

Rachel doesn't want a relationship based on dishonesty .

Sighing heavily, Rachel replied, "Farel. I love her so much. The second man I love so much after papa. But neither can I have."

"I don't want to know any more men in my life. But on the other hand I was also afraid of myself. I want to be loved and loved. I want to feel how prioritized."

"Then you came and promised not to leave me. I who feel unwanted whatever very happy to hear that . I didn't think anyone would love me. I try to accept you and open my heart. But the more I get here the more depressed and frightened."

"I'm full of wounds, Brandon. I must heal the wounds of Papa and Farel at the same time. I should try to love you too. I'm barely numb, I don't even know if I can fall in love and trust men anymore."

"I'm afraid of hurting you. Your wounds are starting to heal, I don't want to scratch them anymore. I don't want to hurt anyone. At least if I'm ruined I want to be destroyed myself."

"I wanted to say this from the beginning before we go any further. Now it's up to you to do what."

"It's better you leave than you come crumbling with me."

Brandon just kept quiet, listening to every word of Rachel's outpouring of heart. This girl was not as good as anything she thought. His smile and laughter were completely fake.

Brandon seemed to see himself as a teenager. Although he was a man but he was not as strong as Rachel to keep smiling while being injured. Brandon deliberately showed a flat expression and glared cold eyes so that no one approached.

Although to just pretend, Brandon still can not smile. It feels many times painful when being injured but must be forced to smile for the sake of loved ones not to be sad.

Only great people can do that. And Rachel was so great. And Brandon's admiration for this girl multiplied many times.

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