PREMARITAL

About Airin

*Thank you for accompanying me for the past three years, even if it doesn't make you stay with me. In fact what I've been fighting for all this time, just makes you go slowly. What you say and promise first, not for you to prove or try, all that is just wishful thinking. I will try to always be okay, even trying to be happy again after your departure.

At first you made me feel like I was the only one in your heart, but it wasn't at all. At least now I know that what you once promised made me realize a little; what you talked about and what you promised cannot be proof of your sincerity.

For you; if you want to leave, please leave without any words of regret after this farewell. I've decided, to no longer expect you. I choose to love myself more now, so that I can better understand who really put my heart on, and who just wants to stop and leave again.

Goodbye to you who are always in my prayers every night, I will let you off with airy chest. I gave you up completely, though I understand it won't be that fast to make peace with the wound. I'll be back fine, and without you I'll be happier*.

Airin closed her diary, wiping away the tears that had now washed her face. He has decided to try to get used to it without Sakha present.

One by one all the photos of her with Sakha, Airin put them into a medium-sized box. Sakha's gift items, come into it.

"You can do it, Rin!" Say it to yourself.

As Airin was busy cleaning up the remnants of his memories with Sakha, suddenly his phone rang.

At a glance Airin saw the screen of his phone, the name of Bima there.

"Hello?" Airin said when the phone call started to connect.

"Hello, assalamallaikum, Rin?" Greet Bima politely.

"E-eh, I'm sorry. Wa'allaikumussalam." Airin answered Bima's greeting. During this time Airin rarely said the sentences that should be said by a Muslim or Muslim when greeting someone, such as greetings.

Bima slightly chuckled, "get used to say hello, Rin." His advice.

"Y-yes, Bim. Oh yeah, what did you call me?" Ask Airin.

"There's nothing, I just want to talk to you." Bima answered what it was. During this time he was typical of men who rarely keep the image in front of women.

"Oh so, tumben. As long as I'm dating Sakha, you rarely greet me." Airin recalled Bima's attitude first.

"Who, I appreciated my best friend at that time. Oh yeah, how are you?" Ask Bima.

"Good, hopefully." Airin replied doubtfully.

"Begin to forget Sakha, Rin. Don't burden yourself," suggested Bima.

"Practice isn't as easy as theory, Bim." Airin said again.

"I know, but how long are you gonna be like this?" Ask Bima.

"Come," answered Airin.

Bima momentarily sighed, she felt sorry for Airin.

"Sad is natural, but not good too if excessive. Maybe God's way of getting you closer to Him is by giving you pain. God is missing you, Rin. So, remember Allah. Fix what kept you away from your rabb." Bima slowly advised Airin, he hoped Airin could become a better Muslim.

Over there, Airin pondered to hear Bima's words. During this time, he has indeed been negligent in carrying out his obligations as a Muslim. What is more is the command to close the aurat that seems meaningless to him.

"Rin, are you still there?" Ask Bima.

"Eh, yes sorry. Bima, can you help me?" Ask Airin.

"Help what, Rin? If I am able, I will try to help you," said Bima.

"Emm, I want to move." Airin said steadily.

"What?" Bima was surprised by Airin's words, not because he disagreed but he was very grateful that Airin could finally have the desire to move.

"Emm, why? Can't you help me?" Ask Airin.

"Mu-not like that, it's just that I feel there are people who might be more appropriate to take you to the right path," said Bima.

"Who? Ustadz?" Ask Airin again.

"That's one of them, we must indeed have a teacher to guide us during the migration. However, there are others that might help you. Like a friend to share," Bima explained.

"Oh, who is that? Can you introduce me to her?" Ask Airin.

"He is Shara," Bima replied slightly hesitatingly.

Airin was silent at the name, for a moment a sense of annoyance slipped into his chest.

Bima understood why Airin did not answer immediately, but Shara was one of the people who might be able to help Airin.

"You must respect those who give you advice and invite you to goodness, they are the ones who drive you to heaven." – Abu Maryam

"Hows it? If you mind, it's okay. Let's find another one" said Bima.

"I-I want to, but will Sakha agree to my request?" Ask Airin.

"Emmm, let's talk first. Maybe after Sakha's fiancee event is over," said Bima.

"Isn't their fiancee's show already underway?" Tanya Airin was curious.

"No, Rin. There was something that made the show almost fail. But, God willing, the event will be back in the day after tomorrow," replied Bima clearly.

"Oh, what's that thing?" Ask Airin.

"Emm, let's not talk about it. We just focus on your intention to emigrate" said Bima.

"All right, then. Thank you" said Airin sincerely.

"Together, I closed it first. Assalamallaikum," said Bima.

"Wa'allaikumussalam" replied Airin.

For a moment Airin thought of Bima's words that suggested him to exchange ideas with Shara, could they be friends.

***

Sakha is talking to Shara on the phone, she talks about her plans to re-apply Shara the day after.

In the middle of their conversation, there was one call coming into Sakha's phone. He glanced at the caller, and it turned out to be Bima.

"Ra, Bima's on the phone. Let's just connect it," said Sakha.

"Bima, who? Your buddy?" Ask Shara.

"Yes, how?" Ask Sakha.

"Emm, it doesn't seem like. I'm ashamed, " said Shara.

"Well, why? He's good, Kok." Sakha.

"No, just close our phone. Continue later" said Shara.

"Emm, fine then. Assalamallaikum" said Sakha.

"Wa'allaikumussalam" replied Shara.

Sakha switched to receiving a phone call from Bima, he was a little grumbling because he had to end his conversation with Shara because of Bima.

"Assalamallaikum, why Bim?" Ask Sakha.

"Wa'allaikumussalam, kha's. I'm interfering?" Ask Bima.

"Yes, very." Sakha answered lazily.

"Astagfirulloh, you're this." Bima.

"Well, I'll be honest with Bim." Sakha chuckles.

"Ish, you're this. Oh yes there are things I want to talk to you about," said Bima.

"What's that?" Ask Sakha.

"On Airin" said Bima.

"Airin's? What happened to Airin?" Ask Sakha.

"Emm, he wants to move." Bima replied.

"Hijrah? Really true?" Sakha asked in disbelief.

"Alhamdulillah, Kha. I want to ask for your help" said Bima.

"Alhamdulillah, what help?" Ask Sakha.

"Can you introduce Shara to Airin?" Ask Bima.

Sakha gasped, "why should it be like that? Ask.

"Shara is not a motivator, she also looks religious. Maybe he can guide Airin," said Bima.

"But later, if your application has already taken place." Bima added.

"Emm, okay. Let me talk to Shara first" Sakha replied.

"All right, thank you." Bima was relieved.

"Together" answered Sakha.