PREMARITAL

Dispart

*The crying is a do'a, when you can't talk anymore.

Cry if you want to cry. It is good for your soul. Tears do not always show weakness, tears are just the language of the heart that your mouth cannot say*.

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When God leaves love for us, we cannot choose who it will be. Nor can we resist when love comes, because love is a gift that God has given us.

When the time comes, God will test His care. Testing the love that HE entrusts to us, testing how strong our love for Him is also on our mortal lover.

There will also come a time when God tests the power of love, and perhaps by bringing forth other loves. Just to make sure, whether love is reduced strength or not.

And will man be sincere, when what is in his possession is again taken by the owner of everything when the time comes...

***

Inside the hotel room, Shara shed her tears. His heart ached when he remembered his encounter with Airin. Not only because of that, what made her sad was when Sakha made it clear who she was for Sakha.

It is true, hoping in humans will only get disappointment.

The issues began to weaken, Shara pondered over everything that had happened. Perhaps God brought them together just to greet each other, not to be with each other.

"Astagfirulloh, no. I have to be strong, it's just a small matter." Shara cheered herself up.

Shara wiped away her tears, she occasionally took her breath. Restoring the irregular rhythm of his heart, his activity stopped when someone knocked on his bedroom door.

Shara moved from her place and walked towards the door. His body came to a halt, as he looked at the two people who were now standing before him.

"Emm, what's up?" ask Shara.

Sakha looked at Shara meaningfully, unable if she had to say a separate word to him.

Airin understood his lover's gaze, but he chose to pretend to be blind. Sick, sore, angry and disappointed, when he had to admit that now Sakha had turned away.

"Shara, we're going home" Airin began the conversation.

Shara was not too surprised, she had prepared herself for this.

"Oh, right now?" ask Shara.

"Yes, right now" replied Airin.

Shara stared at Sakha's silent flash of a thousand languages, she was eager to hear the last words from him. However, it seems like it is good that they do not respond to make it easier for the two to forget each other.

"Yes, be careful!" exclaim Shara.

Sakha looked back at Shara, her lips opened to say something. However, Airin first stopped his intentions.

"Come on Sakha" take Airin.

Sakha nodded, she was really in a dilemma at the moment.

"Assynualallaikum."

Only that could come out of his mouth.

"Wa'allaikumussalam" replied Shara.

"Be happy with her" Shara said in her heart.

Shara closed the door of her room, staring blankly in any direction. Slowly sitting down, he leaned his back against the door while lowering his face.

"O Allah, this is what it feels like to hope in man, do not let this feeling weaken me. Open my heart" he said full of earnestness.

***

Sakha did not say much, during the return trip she was seen silent and staring blankly in any direction.

Shara's shadow always filled her mind, even her heart seemed to be left behind. Like a lifeless body. Excessive may be for some people, but for Sakha this is the most stifling thing.

The separation is now happening too, a separation that is either to be rediscovered or even will only be a sweet memory that will never be forgotten.

"Sakha," call Airin.

Sakha does not budge, she is still immersed in her daydream.

"Sakkha." Airin raised his voice.

Sakha was surprised, Airin's voice this time was able to disperse her daydream.

"Yes, why?" ask Sakha polo.

Airin snorted in annoyance, even when she was with him Sakha thought of something else.

"You why?" ask Airin in a sharp tone.

Sakha frowned, she did not understand why Airin was gaping so tightly.

"Why? What, Rin?" ask Sakha.

Airin stared intently at Sakha, "you've been daydreaming, what are you thinking?" ask Airin.

Sakha swallowed her saliva, she scratched her non-itchy head.

"Emm, I-I'm not thinking about anything," Sakha replied.

"Since when do you like to lie to me?" airin asked, he knew very well that Sakha was lying to him.

Sakha sighed, it was true that she was not good at lying. But in a situation like the present, he couldn't possibly tell Airin the truth either.

"I didn't think of anything, really. I'm just tired" Sakha said, leaning her back.

"Why do you know?" ask Airin.

Sakha turned her eyes back to Airin, for a moment she digested the question."

"You mean me and Shara?" ask Sakha.

Airin nodded.

"We accidentally met there, a couple of times. And the introduction happened while he was filling out a seminar in one of the shopping malls. He's great, young is a motivator."

Sakha's facial features changed instantly, she seemed very enthusiastic when telling of her meeting with Shara.

"You know, when he just got to the Mall, his fans had already draped him, he couldn't even walk because he was blocked by them. Out of pity, I helped her. I pulled his arm, then we ran inside the Mall, and were chased by his fans. It's like we turned away at that time," Sakha continued her story, occasionally she also laughed considering the moment where she ran away avoiding people's relationships.

Airin notices Sakha's expression, and becomes convinced that her lover has more than just a friend.

"You like it?" ask Airin.

"Yes" Sakha answered quickly.

Airin gasped, he sharpened his eyes looking at Sakha who was also surprised by what she said.

"I-I mean, she's a good woman, independent, successful at a young age and everyone loves her too" Sakha said.

In her heart, Sakha hopes that her explanation can be received by Airin. He really did not want to have to argue at this time.

"You sure?" ask Airin.

"Yes, I'm sure" replied Sakha.

"Usually if a woman and a man are friends, one of them must be harboring feelings. Is that right, isn't it?" ask Airin again.

"Emm, it's not all like that, Rin."

Airin did not continue his question, he had no intention of quarreling with Sakha at this time.

"I know, you have feelings for her. And I don't want anyone to take you away from me. I have to make you forget it, sorry if I'm selfish." Airin closed his eyes.