Paternity

Chapter 91

Since this was not a special festival, very few people came to worship in the cemetery. Su Aobai shaved off her green skin and wore clothes that were not suitable for this season. It looks a bit strange, and the grave guards can't help but look at it.

Very few people here on weekdays, the tomb guard can be sure that he has never seen the man in front of him.

I took three buses and spent 6 yuan. Currently, Su Aobai still had 194 yuan left in his pocket. There are also people who do business outside the cemetery. Some sell flowers and sacrifices. Some places are more expensive.

Su Aobai took out the money in his pocket, saw the Zhengyan flowers on the wagon, and finally bought the local lily and strawberry catties, these things alone cost forty-seven yuan.

She and Ji Xing ate strawberries for the first time when they were seven years old. A rich woman came to visit them at the orphanage. The woman bought ten strawberry cakes, and each child in the orphanage was given a small piece.

Since they were both well-behaved, while cutting the cake, Aunt Baoyu eccentricly gave them a piece of cake with whole strawberries on it.

From that day on, Ji Xing was firmly convinced that strawberries were the most delicious fruit in the world.

The economy in the orphanage was not rich, and the fruits purchased were always apples, bananas, and oranges which were relatively cheap. When they came out of the orphanage, the price was far from as high as it is now. Jin, but his income is relatively less money.

Ji Xing always spent money carefully, and when he was really hungry, he bought cheap strawberries that didn't look good.

He always said that strawberries are not suitable for storage, and will be crushed in just one day after picking, but the extent of this damage does not affect the taste, it said, but it can cost a few dollars cheaper than the newly picked one.

But even if it was strawberries, he was reluctant to buy too much. Under the boss' white eyes, he carefully picked out a dozen, and then holding a bag containing a few strawberries, he happily grabbed her hand and said that she was really very happy.

you moron!

Su Aobai repeatedly said to herself in her heart that this was the life of others, she need not be too sad, but she could not do it.

The kind of pain that was so pitiful that he couldn't breathe, his heart was like it was torn to shreds, the closer he got to Ji Xing's tombstone, the more he couldn't help it.

This kind of emotion was so turbulent that Su Aobai even felt that this was his life.

In the previous world, the original body of all the bastards with more or less problems, and they had to blame themselves for the process of gaining or losing, but life was different, the way of losing it was too tragic, the way of losing it was too tragic, obviously they are very happy, but Life is tearing them apart as you run towards goodness.

"Is this really not my life?"

This was not the first time Su Aobai had the same thought, but this time the feeling was extremely strong.

Or, after inheriting the memories and emotions from his original body, did he really use this identity to the fullest?

Unfortunately, the system did not appear to give him an answer.

The layout of the cemetery has not changed at all. Su Aobai found Ji Xing's tombstone accurately. It can be seen that sometimes there are people here to clean it up. The photo on the tombstone only faded slightly due to the prolonged sunlight and rain, was wiped very clean, and there were two dishes in front of it, which contained some biscuits and dried dates.

Su Aobai thought about Ji's mother, she might occasionally bring the child to worship.

Will he be happy to see the boy?

Su Aobai looked at the sacrifice confusedly ...

if...

If at that time, they are not so panicked, if they can understand common sense, take the contraceptive pill immediately after the event, to prevent the possibility of pregnancy, to prevent the possibility of pregnancy, if they did not go through that difficult time in a daze, they could pay more attention to the physical changes, find their existence before the child is old enough to induce labor, and drop them, everything would be different.

He was still alive, and those embarrassing and painful memories would eventually be forgotten gradually in mutual comfort, and they could live happily.

Too bad there is no if!

During her pregnancy, Ji Xing's mood was very bad, she often looked at her enlarged stomach in confusion, and cried silently, she understood what she was thinking.

Mother said it was too heavy for a child like Ji Xing who had been abandoned since childhood. It has always been her dream to be a competent mother. She wants to be a completely different mother than her irresponsible parents. He will love his son and raise him to be a good man.

But the reality is often unsatisfactory, can he love this child? Can she be a mother to this child?

He felt that he might not be able to do it, which was why it was so painful.

She was not at peace with herself until just before giving birth, she began to discuss with her which brand of diaper to buy, whether it would be more cost-effective to cut the urine ring from the old clothes, she said, and discuss buying blankets for babies .Baby high clothes.

Because the birth of this child is already a disaster.

So a few days before the due date, she solemnly told him the following section—

"I was left at the gate of the orphanage since I was a child. I don't know what kind of person my parents are. The reason why they left me was also because I came because of some dishonorable and unpleasant things? I hate Them, but in their hearts, maybe losing me is actually the right relief."

Compared to a child like Yuan Shen who was placed in a welfare institution because his parents died and his relatives refused to support him, a child like Ji Xing who was abandoned at birth often caused a lot of speculation.

His parents probably left him because he was a girl; perhaps his mother was just a little girl who had tasted the forbidden fruit and did not even know the father of the child; she may even be a product of a woman being raped/violently, so getting lost is a natural thing ...

Similar comments often appear in their ears, sometimes only classmates around them subconsciously convey what their parents say in their ears.

Orphans, they must have bad genes!

Orphans, there must be something wrong with their personalities!

Orphans, orphans who cannot bear children and cannot adopt an orphanage, carefully raise white-eyed wolves, and run to find their biological parents when they are adults What good seed can those who have lost a child produce? ?

Because of such remarks, they did not dare to make more mistakes than their classmates. At school, they obediently listen to the teacher, and most of them choose to hang on when bullied by their classmates. It was because of their status, orphaned, and because of this status, some of their mistakes were inadvertently magnified, because they were orphans, so it was their fault because of the lack of guidance, it was their fault, and the unfortunate gene left behind by their biological parents is at work ...

"If I give birth to her and lose her, will she be a star next season?"

Her heart softened, so from the moment she was born, she might not be able to love him that much, so try treating him as an ordinary child.

At that moment, as long as Ji Xing could calm down, no matter what he decided, Yuan Bo would not mind.

But fate only likes to joke with people, a few days ago, the girl who still firmly said that she was willing to work hard to fulfill her responsibilities as a mother, said the statement, it had turned into a corpse that could not breathe when she was pushed out of the delivery room again.

Before giving birth, she jokingly said that if she had a difficult delivery, she wished she could live well, and it turned out to be a reality.

"I'm sorry, I didn't do what I promised you."

Su Aobai poured the offering from the original plate into the bag, then placed the freshly bought lilies and red strawberries on the empty plate.

She touched the photo on the tombstone The girl in the photo smiled very sweetly, her eyes were clear, and there seemed to be a shadow of her in her pupils.

He can't live a good life, and he can't be a responsible father.

On this day, Su Aobai had never left the grave.

*****

Three days after Ji's mother saw Su Aobai after she was released from prison. During this period, she could not wait for Su Aobai to come to the door, she thought she did not want Yixing as a daughter anymore.

"have not seen you for a long time."

Looking at the man sitting opposite him, Dean Ji was also dazed.

He is very different from nine years ago. Back then, she still looked a little childish when she was under 18. Although the wind and rain at the construction site made her skin dark and rough, her face could be seen at a Glance, it was seen that she was still a half-grown child, and she was still a half-grown child, and no one thought he was already a father back then.

Nine years had passed, his facial features had grown completely, and his facial lines had become increasingly clear, with the fortitude of an adult, the deep lines on his eyebrows, and his silent eyes like a puddle of water, water, and water, it even makes it a little bit more than that old and tired at this age.

This was not like a person who was less than thirty years old and was in the golden stage of life, but more like a dying old man.

After all, he was the child he raised, and Dean Ji couldn't help but ponder whether he was being too hard on her for ignoring him for these nine years.

But with Su Aobai like this, he really could not bear to hand the Yixing child over to him.

"I'm back this time hoping that the dean can continue to babysit. After that, I will pay the living allowance every month. This request may be too much, but Mother Ji, I really can't deal with it." the child who died at birth. the mother's own child."

Su Ao said with a dull face, then he took out five hundred dollars from his pocket.

This was the money he had earned from working at the construction site over the past few days. Because of its criminal record, many construction sites are unwilling to accept it. After finally finding a contractor who would accept it, he pressed him.

For Su Aobai who now had no money and had just been released from prison, there were not many options, even though the work on the construction site was difficult, this is relatively the fastest way to earn money that he can reasonably find in a short time.

"Do you know what you're talking about!"

Dean Ji stood up in anger. How could he blame the child for Ji Xing's death? The boy is innocent, and he, the father who can't control his belt, is to blame.

The old woman clutched her chest, unable to speak, luckily that child Yi Xing went to school today, otherwise, she would have known that her father had always missed her in his heart, how uncomfortable he is.

She really wanted to scold him loudly, what he had thought of in prison for these nine years, it was clear before the accident, she was very responsible for taking care of the infant Yi Xing.

"You should meet your daughter, that child looks exactly the same as Ji Xing, how could you be willing to hate a well-behaved child."

Because of Su Aobai's mother, Ji, the gentle-hearted old woman could not say any worse words.

"It's a pity, because she has exactly the same face as Ji Xing. Every time I see her, I'll think of her mother who was killed by her."

That's the perfect excuse, isn't it?

Su Aobai put a few hundred yuan on the table, then got up and left.

"Sorry, just treat it like I ran away."

Sorry, he really couldn't like the child, even though he had half of Ji Xing's blood on his body.

Su Aobai opened the door of the dean's office, and saw a little girl in loose school uniform standing before the door with tears streaming down her face.

Seeing her come out, the little girl wiped her tears tightly and looked at her bitterly, her eyes red.

In a daze, Su Aobai seemed to be looking at the shadow of another girl, but he just passed by her and left without looking back.