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I couldn't hear Dimas's request, my heart ached when I mentioned a child. I felt like a less fortunate and imperfect human being.
for two years, we were married and had not had a child.
I secretly did everything we could to quickly get offspring, but it has not been fruitful.
I choose to be silent, although Mas Dimas always invite me to do an examination to the doctor or do all the way, such as therapy for example.
because without his knowledge I have already done all the checks.
until I get a bitter reality to swallow. I am not disappointed with my destiny. Maybe this is the best of God.
"I want to, vacation later.we go on vacation and repeat our honeymoon" said mas Dimas.
I can only comment on a smile, staring at the shade of my husband's face.
I have to do something, I have to. whatever it is.
I drowned my face right in the chest of Mas Dimas' field.My height was only limited to his shoulders.
I admit my husband is very high above average. Besides handsome mas Dimas is also a man who is Sholeh.
I realized my husband was not wearing his clothes.
"Mas, if the rich hugs gini continue when to wear his clothes?!" said my wife with a little spoiled.
"Mas, dear miss. two more weeks we did not meet." I answered a little bit of a ridden lips.
"Sana gih. wear clothes first!" he said and pushed himself until I fell right on the bed.
not to forget I pulled her hand until Maria fell on my body.
we looked at each other again, and Mary woke up and stood up to get me some clothes.
after I finished dressing I sat down next to Mary.
I see he's pensive.
"Mas, yes, I want Dimas to get married next Sunday!" he said without taking his eyes off.
"Can't I refuse?" my many.
"No, I want Dimas to follow me immediately" he replied.
"I'll be willing to marry Mayang, but give me a good reason for what purpose did you force me to marry her?" ask again.
"I just want Mayang to have the right husband, I don't want Mayang to have the wrong husband."
"But I'm not the right husband for her Maria. I'm a married man, I'm afraid I can't make you both happy.or maybe.
I consider her nothing more than a sister, my little sister.I was afraid instead, not that I made her part but I hurt her instead" I said
"But, I'm sure you can."
"Is that sure you're with me?" Maria nodded
"I'm not even sure I can do that, but . how can you be sure of me."
"I believe in you, my trust in you is in myself"
"What would mayang want? is she willing to share her husband with her brother. Are you sure you saw me with the mayang? you can have to share with other women Maria. All that must be carefully thought out.
do not be due to emotions for a moment, I alone cannot bear to live it. I fear that if I cannot do justice then I have wronged you."
"Marriage beyond one is permissible, but in the record must not hurt the heart and feelings of our partner.then we will get God's paradise and blessings from him. so think again maria, before everything happens. I'm afraid it will make Mayang's heart hurt."
"I am ready, for the consequences." I answered steadily
"You're really ready, if you accidentally see me and Mayang making out, or. instead we make out accidentally Mayang saw him, I'm sure he'll feel pain'. I'm not ready Maria I don't want to sin." I said honestly.
I'm just an ordinary man, if I follow lust, of course, I want to have more than one wife.
after with this one, then move there and there again.will not finish following the devil's lust'.
I can't stand it. I'm really not ready for it.
"I'm ready mas, I've thought about it carefully. marry the mayang.happy him, he's the trust of both my parents."
I threw out my rough breath Maria stubbornly once.
whatever he wanted, I got up and left.
"Wait a while," Maria held my hand.
"Please!" begingly.
"Give me time" I said, and Mary let go of this hand.
I'm leaving right away, I need some calm.I'm depressed right now.
the intention of the heart wants to rest, but instead so from last night I have not slept and eaten.
I pulled my car over on the edge of the park, I got down and walked to the bench and sat there.
while I was enjoying my tranquility, Amel came to me.
"Only mas?" his question and wander may be seeking the whereabouts of my wife Maria.
knowing what to ask myself, I got up and left.
"Mas, where are you going?" ask Amel
but the question I did not ask, I continued to advance my steps.
I drove my car back at medium speed, and I reached my mama's yard.
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"Mom, mama!" call me.
and I just walked in. I saw my mom and dad relaxing in the living room.
I'll be right up to them, "Ma!" call me.
"Dimas." call mom
"Why are you, come face to face in the bend like that?" asked Mama.
"Dimas again upset ma" I complained.
"Yes, why?."
I can't tell you about this but I have no choice but to tell my mom.
"Ma, Maria wants Dimas to marry again." I told her.
"Good donk Dimas" replied papa with a smile.
"What the hell is this? it's good, though" I asked in wonder
"Yes, if your mother asks you to remarry you will not refuse, with pleasure" said papa while chuckling.
I saw my mom throwing a sharp look.
then I told you all the articles, from the beginning of Maria, and also disappeared and attempted suicide last night.
"If according to my mother, yes, just follow me." he replied casually.
"What the hell is this mama?" ask me wonder. "Isn't my mom a woman?" my many.
"Yes, mama is a woman. The difference is that mama did not ask your papa to marry again" replied the original mama.
after the conversation with my mom and dad I have decided. And God willing this is the right decision.
I came home soon, afraid that Mary would return to doing strange things like yesterday.
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once I got home I immediately parked the car right in the garage.
now I've been inside and walked up the stairs.nampa house is very quiet like they are in their respective rooms.
czech..
I opened the door to the room where Maria and I were staying.
"Where have you been?." Attack Maria with questions.
I have not answered, I prefer to go to the bathroom and take ablution to perform zhuhur prayer.
maria just looked at me strangely. After I came out immediately I held a prayer mat and wore a sarong and peci.
"Have you prayed?!" I asked. Maria nodded.
after that I immediately carried out my duties.
while there's time don't delay it's my principle.
having finished with my four raka'at I never forgot to pray.begging forgiveness for all wrongs and sins, pleading Ridha from him for everything we do on this earth.
seeing that I had finished performing the Marian prayer approached this self and welcomed this hand with reverence.
I kissed his forehead.really this heart that I want only for him other than the almighty, as a form of my love for him.
if this should happen, it would not happen without his intervention, my Lord.
"I'm from my mom's house" I answered her question.
then he looks at me gently, I don't know why my wife lately is very difficult to guess.
"Mas is willing to marry Mayang?!" he asked again.