
Aurel continued to watch Fabian standing by the window. Her husband had been silent since he entered her nursery. I don't know what her husband was thinking Aurel didn't know. To be sure it might have something to do with what he overheard accidentally two weeks ago. A reality that made his heart hurt even though it was not bleeding.
That morning Aurel overhears Fabian talking to Gerry when her husband's coworker comes home. Not the intention of eavesdropping, but Gerry's loud voice was able to make Aurel who accidentally through hearing their chatter.
"Why did you wear that drunken show all night? This is how it happened. The girl is still a virgin and you lost her virginity. What if she's pregnant? Usually such an act is most likely her chances of getting pregnant are eighty percent. Moreover, you threw it inside, not outside."
Aurel recalled what Gerry said that morning. What he heard from Gerry's mouth broke his heart and hurt. Her husband slept with another woman in a drunken state. While he was married to Fabian for three years, even though he had not been touched by Fabian. Let alone being touched deeper, kissed she never. Even if he was kissed, even then when the two were married and it was only on the forehead.
What Fabian really can't open his heart to himself, Aurel thought so he had to get drunk and do romantic scenes in bed with other women.
"Bag!!" Call Aurel, but it seems Fabian did not hear the call coming from Aurel's mouth. Her husband was still busy with his mind that was not thinking what.
"Mas Bian!!" This time Aurel called her husband in a slightly loud voice from before hoping that her husband would hear a call from her.
Fabian cleared his throat and shook his head slowly when he heard Aurel calling out to him. He exhaled slowly and stepped closer to Aurel's bed.
"Why? Going to the bathroom?" Fabian asked who thought that Aurel called him because he wanted to go to the bathroom. He was looking at Aurel.
"No." Aurel answered with a head. She looked at her husband who was also looking at her.
"Want a drink?" Fabian asked again while taking a bottle of water that turned out to be empty. "At the end of his drink. I'll get it first."
Fabian who was originally about to step away undoes his intentions when his left arm is held the same Aurel. He stared at his arm, not rather Aurel's hand holding his arm.
Aurel who saw the direction of Fabian's eyes immediately released his hand grip on Fabian's arm. "Sorry!" Aurel felt guilty for holding Fabian away.
"What's wrong?" Fabian asked who felt that there was something Aurel wanted to convey to him, so he broke his intention to take some drinking water and pulled out a chair for him to sit on.
Aurel crumpled the blanket that covered part of her body with both hands. He hesitated to ask, but he also wanted to know the truth. Because this made him think too hard until the pain relapsed and went to the hospital.
"Is it true that Doctor Gerry said that morning that Mas Bian was drunk and sleeping with a woman?" By holding back her tears and the pain in her heart, Aurel finally asked what had been the cause of her mind was chaotic to cause her stomach acid relapse.
"So it's all true?" Aurel asked again as he saw Fabian's shocked expression. Steady, that was what Aurel felt at this moment even though Fabian had yet to tell the truth. "Mas Bian that night was drunk and ti,-"
"Yes." Yeah." Fabian replied without thinking about Aurel's feelings. He did not even wait for Aurel to finish his words and immediately confirmed that he was drunk and also slept with a woman who was not his own wife.
Without waiting for the command, the tears that Aurel had been unable to fall finally just fell. She did not expect her husband would answer yes without making small talk first. Even the answer from Fabian was impressed not thinking about his feelings at all. So all this time he was considered to be the same Fabian. A wife or just someone else. Although he actually knew all along Fabian never loved him. But there was not the slightest liking from Fabian for him.
"So this is the cause of your pain relapse?" Guess Fabian. "All right then. I'll be honest with you." Fabian again put down the empty bottle he was holding earlier and stood up from his seat.
"That night I was drunk and had a one night stand with a girl who was both drunk" Fabian said without looking at Aurel.
"Did you think you were doing that to me that night, Mas?" Aurel cut Fabian's words.
"No." Answer Fabian honestly. That night he did not think of Aurel at all.
Crying, of course Aurel cried hearing the honest answer from her own husband.
"The girl is now pregnant with my child. My flesh blood." Aurel's chest grew increasingly claustrophobic at Fabian's confession.
"And I'm your wife who until now you haven't touched a finger." Fabian looked at Aurel. What Aurel said is true. Aurel is his wife and until this moment he has not touched a single thing. Just sleep them in separate rooms from the beginning of marriage until this moment.
"Because I've never loved you. We got married because we had to. We got married because I promised Brother Febry to take care of you and Love."
Aurel cupped his face with both palms. Febry, she remembered her ex-husband who was none other than her brother Fabian who had died three years ago. At that time before the death to pick up Febry, Febry asked Fabian to take care of himself and Kasih who was then two months old. Not only keeping, Febry also wanted Fabian to marry himself at that time. And the marriage took place before Febry's eyes just before his death.
"I'm sorry, Aurel. I tried so hard to open my heart to you, but I couldn't. I am not a typical person who likes and snatches lovers or wives of his own brothers and friends and other people. Every time I try to open my heart to you, the shadow of Brother Febry always appears. I know how dear and loving Brother Febry is to you until he is willing to leave and marry his own wife to his own sister." Fabian remembers how much Febry used to love Aurel. Her brother often spoils Aurel and even makes Aurel as the queen in his heart.
"Why don't you just divorce me? Why are you doing all this?" Aurel as unwilling as he pleased, he did not even want to look at Fabian anymore as he spoke.
"Because I'm waiting for you to divorce me."