My love is my first love

Cheated

Because Giandra didn't hear me, I immediately turned my body.

" The funny thing is Gi "I held her face with my hands.

I was expecting Giandra to cry. I hugged him and calmed him down.

" Did I not pull in your eyes? " Giandra is still in tears.

" I just keep you Gi, if you follow lust is easy, fire means I can not keep you right. I'd like to be able to keep you safe until we marry Gi "

" But I'm afraid mas "Giandra is still crying.

" Fear what? " Manyaku wonder.

" Yes, I'm afraid that I'm not really loving the same as me so I don't want to touch me "

" You're funny anyway, taken care of but I even want to be naughty "

" Yes out my friend just to say, don't mas ga don't want to touch me because mas don't like women "

" sthat mean?" Ask wonder.

" Yes don't like women but hmm like men "Answer replied.

" Athaghfirullah, how can you think that, indeed with what I've been doing all this time you don't feel me dear? "

Not out of thought what it feels like to despair people who think like that.**before married is a thing that the ancients did even until now, even in religion was his advice like that.

I can think that something wrong is right and something right is wrong. And with what I've been doing to Giandra all this time, why does she still not believe my feelings.

Giandra did not return my words he chose silence and ended up falling asleep in my arms.

Fortunately, even though we had a disagreement last night, the next morning Giandra was like before.

We do not discuss overnight events at all, such as maintaining each other's mood.

It hasn't been 3 years since Giandra and I dated. As long as our relationship went well and well, only a small difference of opinion that we thankfully can resolve.

But it turns out that my relationship with Giandra only looks good on the outside but not on the inside.

In the afternoon I got a message from an employee at the branch counter who was on holiday, if he saw Giandra watching in the cinema with another man.

At first I still thought it couldn't be Giandra, because he had me drop off this afternoon to go back to his boarding house and today he has no more college schedule.

" I'm sure it was mba Giandra mas, I was going to say hello because I think mba Giandra again with Mas Galih, but not abomination because I was with my mother so could not walk quickly "

Giandra also did not tell if there was a group study schedule today. But my employees are pretty sure that it's Giandra.

I'm still thinking positively again, thinking maybe it was his college friend and he didn't go alone.

But according to my employees, until they entered the cinema they were just two and no other friends added Giandra holding the hand of the man along the way.

Unfortunately my employee did not dare to take a photo so he did not have any evidence.

I tried to send a message to Giandra but tick 1. I tried calling inactive.

The positive thinking eventually changed with suspicion. As long as we know, never. 1 day even Giandra can not be contacted.

Kostan Giandra is a princess-only boarding house, so men are prohibited from entering. And I don't know the phone number of Giandra's roommate

I finally went back to the counter. Looking at the phone screen until 8 pm my message from the afternoon still tick 1 and Giandra still can not be contacted.

And all night there was not a single message from Giandra, even the message I sent was still tick 1.

Tonight my mind is trying to make some possibilities. Maybe if Giandra admitted it was him, then what should I do.

Do I have to break up with Giandra? Or I should give him a chance.

And I started looking for a reason why Giandra cheated on me.

Is it because I'm wrong that he didn't tell me? Or is the man better able to meet all the needs of Giandra? Or is that guy more handsome than me?

All those possibilities are raging inside my head. I've never smoked, that night I tried to smoke for a tired reliever in my head.

That night I only smoked and hoped that Giandra would return my message until finally because I was tired of falling asleep.

The next morning there was an incoming message from Giandra who said he was asleep from yesterday afternoon and his phone died.

I don't just believe in Giandra. For children now who are very close to the use of mobile phones, the reason that Giandra conveyed is impossible.

At the time of meeting I directly asked him about my employees who saw him and other men at the cinema.

He looked shocked and looked at me for a moment, yet he dodged and did not want to confess. The more I pressured Giandra the more angry he got.

We had a big fight back then, I stayed with my opinion and Giandra stayed evasive and asked me for proof.

Our quarrel stopped when I realized that we were as hard as each other's opinions there was no way out.

Finally I left Giandra who still looked annoyed and headed for the counter.

To divert my mind, I immediately worked on the service of consumer mobile phones that have entered.

We did not communicate for a few days, nor did I see Giandra in the campus area or in our rented area.

Days of no news from Giandra made me feel lost. How not, we meet every day.

From being literate to going to sleep we would have sent each other messages and occasionally I would call just to hear his voice.

Does Gilda feel the same way? Does Giandra also feel tormented by this situation as I feel? Will this relationship ever truly end.

Every day I am like a person with no purpose. This was my first heartbreak, and it hurt so much that I couldn't think what to do.

Because I was so tormented by this situation, I finally decided to give in and contact Giandra first.

I met her at her boarding house and apologized for suspecting her and not forgetting to bring her favorite food.

" I don't like you suspect suspicious of that same mas me, same time girlfriend herself don't believe "

Although I still do not believe one hundred percent with Giandra, but this time I chose to give up because I was so tortured and I also did not have evidence that Giandra cheated on me

The next day went as usual, Giandra was never again unable to contact.

And then I forgot about that.