My love is my first love

Two lives

This morning I woke up to hear Gantari crying.

Never have I heard Gantari cry that loud.

I got out of bed and I saw Gantari crying on the floor and my wife was scolding her.

This is a scene I have never seen in our marriage.

" Why, baby? " I hugged Gantari and asked my wife.

" I've already said, the floor runs out on the mop do not walk first but from earlier instead pass continuously. Later when it fell" This time I also heard my wife scolding Gantari with such a high tone.

I immediately carried Gantari and I took her out of the house.

I took her to a mini market near home and I bought her favorite ice cream.

" Don't be sad anymore, son "

" Yes Papa, since there is a sister, Mama doesn't love me anymore "

" Can't say that, Mama love very much the same Dance "

" But Mama was angry and kept Pa the same as me. Usually I'm loved now don't love anymore "

Hearing my son talk like that makes me sad.

Indeed since the Baby Blues I also feel my wife is getting harder with Gantari.

I thought Gantari wouldn't realize that, but it turned out that she was already big and could already feel that.

When I got home, my wife was in my room. I bathed Gantari and played with her in her room.

I just remembered not bringing my phone, for fear that someone called from a counter employee I picked it up in the room.

Just opened the door my wife immediately said "I don't want you to say the problem "

Surprised I heard it, because I went into the room just to pick up a cell phone not to scold my wife.

But hearing him speak like that in a sniffy tone provoked my emotions.

" You've gone too far Luh. Our son is still a child, what pantes mamu angry yell rich earlier "

My wife who was playing mobile phones looked at me in anger.

" You're too powerful, Mas, if you keep him going he'll keep noticing "My wife until she throws her phone against the wall.

I was surprised to see him react that way. For a moment I thought, our condition being equally angry would be unhealthy if we continued this debate.

I grabbed my phone and came out of the room.

Gantari suda was in front of her room and looked at our room with her tears in her eyes.

" Mommy's mad about Dance, huh Pa? "

" Neither mama's not feeling well, not angry with her. Don't be sad "

I embrace the small body of the Dance that has been covered in tears.

I feel like my patience is over with my wife's condition.

As a husband, I always try to understand whatever condition my wife is feeling.

During the baby blues, if he gets angry at me or cries without cause I just shut up and try to calm him down.

But if until He does that to our son who has nothing wrong with him, I cannot tolerate it.

But of course I won't talk to him when angry. I'll wait until it's calmed down.

Today is the day of Giandra's move to my city.

He got the official house not far from my current residence.

He asked me to help him and I met Gaffi, but I refused because my wife's condition was still unstable.

This Monday I will meet Gaffi.

I finally decided to go to Giandra's official house.

I brought a pizza that Giandra said was Gaffi's favorite meal and brought some legos.

When Giandra opened the door, he immediately called Gaffi and introduced me as Om.

Gaffi is like a male version of Giandra. Everything is just her hair curly like me.

He was pleased with my arrival who brought some toys.

Gaffi immediately opened the lego star wars I gave.

We assembled it together, Giandra cooked pasta and spaghetti for both of us.

If anyone else sees maybe we look like a family with one son.

We spent the day with a lot of laughter. I love being with Gaffi.

Having a son is one of my dreams.

I dreamed of playing a boy's game with my son. And today is granted.

What I was wondering was whether my life would change or my happiness would be ruined by the presence of Gaffi.

But now with Gaffi in my life is like completing my happiness as a father of three children.

Without feeling the day is late, I say goodbye to Giandra and Gaffi.

Gaffi asked me to stay and of course it was not possible.

On the way I smiled a lot of smiles myself.

Seeing Gaffi's funny behavior, maybe because it was quite large he did not ask for much like that.

" This is a very good boy mas, never bother or ask macem macem. Very rich you "

I don't know if it's an affair, but I just want to meet Gaffi not to meet Giandra let alone re-establish a relationship.

I got home angry at my wife. He asked me why I was home so late. He was angry to the point of crying even though I explained and apologized.

Even when our second child was a month old, my wife's baby blues hadn't gone away.

Before going to bed I thought about how to balance giving love between my family and Gaffi.

Because it's impossible for me to come home late like this every day.

While I was looking for a housekeeper to ease my wife's burden.

I asked my wife not to cook and clean the house and just focus on our son.

With the hope that the baby blues can disappear slowly.

My wife agreed with the advice I gave her. I asked my parents to find a housekeeper from my village.

And three days later came Mba Gemi, a woman in her forties who would help with homework.

Mba Gemi looks good and well mannered. But most importantly my wife and my son Gantari love Mba Gemi.

So I can calmly leave them both if I'm at work.

In a week, I spent three days meeting Gaffi. Although it could not be long, from noon to maghrib I spent time with Gaffi.

Every time I come Gaffi always welcomes me, as if he had been waiting for me for a long time.

And since Mba Gemi, my wife has never been angry with me or with our son Gantari.

My life went according to my wishes and there was no more commotion between me and my wife.

I can also take the time to accompany Gaffi to play or do PR.

It's like having two lives that I keep fair. The life as the husband of my wife is fierce, the father of my two daughters and the Father of my son Gaffi.