My love is my first love

Giandra's Threat

I haven't been to Giandra's house this week.

Don't ask what kind of reaction Giandra is, he embroidered me with dozens of messages and miss calls.

I remained firm in my stance not to meet him.

Because I must have my faith rocked back. The following week there were no messages or calls from Giandra.

I spent time with my wife and my two daughters.

We walked to the mall, so I often invite my family to eat outside the house.

I started working as usual and went home early.

My wife was surprised because my attitude changed to be so sweet "You don't ask for a third child anymore, right? " The candle was one night when I was massaging her body.

" Dear, I just feel lucky to have a wife like you and a child as healthy and amazing as Gantari and Ghina "

" God my husband is very sweet. Is Koh Ahong's partnership finished? "

Hearing Koh Ahong's name reminds me of Giandra.

Because Koh Ahong I always make excuses when I'm playing crazy with Giandra.

" Yes, it's done "

" Alhamdulillah if that, you become ga nginep nginep again. I'm sorry you're so under-rested "

Even at the time of cheating my wife worried about my health.

But all that quiet time was gone when my sister sent me a picture of me naked in Giandra's room asleep.

Yes without clothes!

" What would happen if this woman sent a photo like this to Mba Galuh Mas? I've warned you she's not a good woman either "

Like lightning in a hole. It's definitely my picture even though I don't know when Giandra took that photo.

Why did He do that, why send my naked photo to my sister.

As hard as I thought I still didn't know what to do.

My wife seemed to know if I was thinking, she had asked me several times why.

I just said it's okay, and I know my wife can sense that I'm lying.

Because I can't tell the truth with my wife.

My brain seemed to break, in the end I met Giandra at his house.

There was Gaffi there too and had not slept so I could not possibly get angry in front of Gaffi.

Giandra seems to know what I want to talk about.

It was clear on his face that he felt victorious in my presence.

After Gaffi went to sleep, I asked him why he did it.

He said it was because I couldn't be contacted and it was like taking responsibility.

I explained to him that I didn't want to have any more contact with him because I realized what we've been doing all this time was a mistake.

But I will still be responsible for Gaffi because he is my son.

But Giandra felt I was playing him.

He felt I was just using him. I apologized to Giandra and asked him to stop terrorizing me and my brother.

" It's so good to be alive, Mas, what did you think of me yesterday when you came in contact with me? I'm not the night woman that Mas would use when Mas needs "

Giandra began to raise the intonation of his voice, I panicked for fear that Gaffi would wake up.

I don't want Gaffi to know what's going on.

" Turn down your voice Gi "

I know this doesn't feel fair to Giandra. I was a jerk for cheating on my wife.

I randomized my hair because it didn't get the middle of our problem.

" I never thought you were Gi trash, you know that. I appreciate you so much. I obey what you ask what you want "

" It's not just the material that Gaffi and I need Mas " said Giandra no less fierce.

" How do you want it? What do I do to make you calm down and not think rich? " Tanyaku.

" I want you to marry me, I'm willing to be your second wife "

Surprised I heard the words coming out of Giandra's lips with complete confidence.

" Crazy, you know I've got Gi's wife, but maybe I'll marry you "

" Why is it not possible? Then what do you mean by fucking me all this time? "

I can't answer GIandra's questions. I don't even know what I really feel for Giandra.

I'll make sure it's not love. Because my love belongs entirely to my wife.

But from the beginning that pity grew until I finally wanted to protect Giandra.

But it's stupid of me to take this relationship too far and be intimate.

" What in your eyes is I that low? I love you with all my feelings. Even when you ask for contact I serve you. Then what are you doing now? Want to just walk away as if finished by throwing me out "

All the words of Giandra seemed to pierce my heart, there was nothing wrong with them.

It was me who started to get in touch, he just followed what I wanted.

" I have to do with Gi, my head is like it's going to break "I hit my head because it feels like it's going to break.

Trying to talk to Giandra didn't work.

" Well, try to tell your wife about us "

" He would have been devastated "I've imagined how devastated and disappointed my wife would be if she knew I was having an affair with Giandra.

In his eyes I was still a good husband and a responsible father.

" Yes Mas just choose what kind of rich road, which for sure I do not want you to throw me rich gini "

I looked into Giandra's eyes filled with anger.

All the thoughts come into my mind. If I didn't feel sorry for her, if I hadn't brought her in, if I could have kept myself loyal to my wife.

But all this has happened, I can only run and take responsibility for what I do.

I came home weak. There is no desire to do anything.

Before I left, Giandra stressed to me not to run away from responsibility.

My wife comes up to me "Would you eat a mas? "

I forgot that I haven't eaten "Don't baby "

He took me a plate, poured rice and warmed the side dish and served me a plate of food and warm tea.

" God eat first, the problem in thought tomorrow again yes "

She accompanied me to a meal and looked at me lovingly.

As much as I could, I held back from crying.

I regret what I did to my wife.

After eating he washed the dishes and told me to take a bath.

Arriving at the room he had prepared clothes for me to wear to sleep.

When my wife was asleep I cried in silence, hugging my wife tightly whispering "I'm sorry my wife "