My love is my first love

My girlfriend Giandra

I should have asked for Giandra's phone number yesterday so I wouldn't be in a dilemma like today.

Actually, Giandra's number was written in the consumer's book, but I still feel it's rude to directly send a message to Giandra, while he has never given his number.

It's been 3 days I haven't seen Giandra, it's made me like a beard fire. I don't understand what this is called, but it feels very agitated.

Eating also tastes bad, sleep is not good and I so often paced back and forth.

" What else do you think? I noticed the uneasiness "Gina asked because maybe she was uncomfortable seeing me pacing behind her.

" No longer think what kok gin "I immediately sit at my desk. Trying to focus and work on a broken consumer phone.

While working on the phone, I like to hear the voice of Giandra several times. But when I looked up no one.

Finally I decided to go to the contract, maybe I'll meet Giandra there.

" I went to the contract first, Gin someone missed "

" Oh yes "

I turned on the motorbike and headed for my contract. Arriving in front of the contract I looked towards the constant Giandra but did not see him there.

And I decided to go back to the counter, and just wanted to push the Stater Giandra called me

" Mas Galih "Giandra walks from his boarding house to me.

" Want to the counter? I join dong all want to go to campus "Giandra smiled showing off her neat rows of teeth.

" Yes to the counter, let's go together with that "

No. I wasted this opportunity, I immediately asked for his phone number. Giandra gave me his number.

Arriving at the counter I did not stop smiling at myself, until Gina looked astonished to see me who was restless now smiling.

Every day we text each other, ask what we are doing and have eaten is our daily routine.

We also made a few times to go together and now every time I screwed Giandra would hug me.

Today I asked her out. We'll see the movie we've been waiting for.

He wore a long brown shirt and white pants, carried a brown bag and wore brown shoes.

Giandra is always charming, what he wears always looks good.

Arriving at the cinema we enjoy the movie that is being shown while eating popcorn that we have bought.

In the middle of the screening, Giandra said he was cold. I gave her the jacket I was wearing and we held hands.

Giandra's hands are very soft, even his hands can make me like him more.

After watching us eat at the restaurant in the mall. Discussing the film we had just seen, Giandra had a lot of knowledge about the film.

So that our conversation only about the film was endless.

I thought that if we had shared our attention every day, a few dates and held hands meant we were dating and didn't have to shoot anymore, but I was wrong.

On a sunny afternoon, I was waiting in front of Giandra's boarding house, waiting for him to get dressed up because today we wanted to go to the newly opened cafe in the city center.

Giandra came out like never before, his face was not cheerful, in the course of just silence that is usually always chatty.

I thought hard, what mistake I made that he behaved like that to me.

Think as hard as I can not get the answer. Earlier this morning, Giandra was fine, still replying to my message as usual.

But why was he angry with me this afternoon.

Even when ordering food at the cafe-pun he just said whatever. It feels so confused.

" I noticed you from now on silent, why? I was wrong? " I finally dared to ask.

" What's wrong "His reply was indifferent while still not looking at my face.

Until we finally finished eating, his attitude was still cold to me.

" Think of it yourself "I just saw Giandra's face this time. While drinking his vanilla latex, he didn't even see me at the time of the talk.

" If I'm wrong, I'm sorry Gi "

" Do you know what is wrong? " Tanya Giandra cynical

Doubtfully I said "Don't know "Giandra looks more angry than ever.

" Don't know what's wrong with apologizing, I found out first what's wrong with apologizing "Giandra still didn't see my face.

Perhaps out of all the questions that others have ever asked me, this is a question that I cannot answer. No matter how hard I think about it, I don't know the answer.

I started to remember yesterday we did everything, and yesterday we were just as active as ever.

The morning I invited him to go to campus, our chat was just plain chatter not ads heavy chatter.

We communicate normally and I deliver back to the boarding house. There was no chatter that caused debate, and when I drove back to the boarding house he went inside with a normal face.

Giandra was still looking at me sharply, without speaking he was like waiting for my answer.

" i've tried to remember, but I'm sorry I didn't find the answer "

" Yes because mas gaensi "Even though Giandra's intonation is not high when saying that, but the sentence is so piercing.

" Tell you tell me what's wrong, so I can introspect myself, if you get angry like this our communication is not Gi's way "

Giandra was silent for a long time "I am ready? " She finally spoke.

" Who am I? " Manyaku wonder.

" After all, just a simple question "

" Yes my boyfriend "Doubtful that I answered, because we never really talked about this.

" Friend? Did you ever shoot me? " Giandra looks angry.

" Shoot it, huh? I think our closeness all this time is because we're dating "

" That's the mind. Any girl who wants to be like that "

" Yes, how do you want it? " i'm still confused by this conversation.

" Yes you thought to yourself "He turned his eyes away, like he was lazy to look at me.

Apparently even though my academic grades are good, knowing what women want is really hard.

From our chat earlier there were some things that made me confused to step.

I don't know if Giandra was angry about not wanting to be my girlfriend or because he wanted me to shoot or he just considered me a friend all along.

Unconsciously as long as I think I sighed a lot and that made Giandra even more angry.

" Don't think it's too heavy, you don't know what I want "This time the tone is higher than before.

" I should shoot you? " My words doubt.

" Yes according to how? " The tone of speech is starting to decline.

There I realized why he was acting this way, Giandra wanted to clarify our relationship. If we're dating then he wants me to shoot him.

I smiled and tried to look at him "Gi" He didn't turn his head

I called again "Giandra "This time she turned her head.

" Yuk's girlfriend "I looked at her matan and the look on her face began to weaken and she cried.

" You said that it was so hard for you, I waited a long time "

" I'm sorry, baby, "and finally today's drama is over.

Giandra is back as carefree as ever, we enjoy live music by holding hands like two human beings who are kasmaran.