My love is my first love

Gestation

Being married to my wife makes me grateful every day.

It is not an exaggeration to call her a dream wife. She always knew how to serve her husband.

Daei from the moment I opened my eyes, she was already in the kitchen preparing breakfast.

All the clothes he has prepared and always choose what clothes I will wear today.

The house is always clean because he likes to do homework, even though he has a job as a novelist.

Our bed life went well too. If I ask to do battle he never refuses.

Whenever it's time he'll want to do it.

Now every day someone asks me what am I doing? What has he eaten yet ? Already praying yet, I feel very noticed and given tremendous affection.

He never asked for anything strange. If I usually hear some of my friends or employees like to buy clothes or makeup, my wife never asks me that.

Even I had to check the shopping basket at the orange store to be quiet I checked out.

Even if we walk to the mall he never asked to buy anything.

if I offered him he would answer "On the canister only money mas I have not wanted to buy clothes "It is always otu answer.

There were only three requests, the first he asked to be allowed for a month twice to go back to the mountain kidul.

Second, if there is me at home, he asks us to pray together.

Third, he asked me to always tell him whatever I was experiencing or feeling. There was never another request from that.

Marrying my wife is like keeping me on track. If there's any wrong way he always reminds me in a good way.

She was ready to get married and ready to be a wife. How lucky I am to have a wife like my wife.

My wife never asked about the past, even though I often asked her past.

And I just found out after marriage that I was his first girlfriend, he had never dated before.

I asked him why, he just answered fearfully.

So much about his past that I asked but never once did he ask about my past.

Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve a near-perfect wife.

At the beginning of the marriage I once told her that I was wayward. He didn't ask me what I was being reckless about, but just said "Don't repeat it again baby "

And I don't talk about anything other than saying that.

After a year of marriage there was nothing different from him, he still served me well and still looked at me lovingly.

Although it has been a year we have not been given a baby, but I have no problem.

During the pillow talk he asked, what if we would not have children?

I replied that I would not leave him, I promised that I would continue with him until death do away with him.

Because I married her not because of her child, but because of her personality that made me fall in love with her.

I'm sad enough that after a relationship he always checks with the testpack and the result is negative I hear him crying in the bathroom.

Out of pity for my wife who was thinking about this problem, I finally invited her to start a pregnancy program and see a specialist.

At first, he did not want to because he was afraid of the results. But once I'm sure, whatever the outcome I will always be by his side he finally wants to do that.

After the consultation we did a health test.

Throughout our consultation with the doctor, Galuh held my hand.

I can feel his worry. Because in the beloved mita country, if the couple has not had children, usually the woman is blamed, but it could be the male party who has problems.

Without him telling me a few times I heard friends always ask me if my wife is pregnant?

Maybe that's what made my wife add to the child's problem.

Although from the family, both his family and my family never asked about pregnancy to us.

Today our health test results came out. We had a scheduled visit at three in the afternoon.

From the moment I woke up, my wife had reminded me that we had a doctor's visit this afternoon.

It seems my wife is scared of the outcome. Several times I saw him daydream when I spoke.

Even though I tried to calm him down, he still couldn't calm down.

Even as we waited in the waiting room, he shook his legs nonstop.

When I reminded him not to be like that, he was no longer shaking his legs but so paced in front of me.

Our name was called by the sister. When entering as usual the doctor asked us after that he read the results of our health tests.

My wife was declared healthy and there were no problems in her womb.

As for me, according to the doctor my sperm count is below average. This makes it difficult to get pregnant.

According to doctors it is caused by stress, lack of rest, unhealthy lifestyle and often staying up late.

In addition to giving me medicine and vitamins, the doctor asked me to start a healthy life. Can not stay up late and can not be stressed.

If it was me who looked tough and my wife who looked weak, now it's the opposite.

I who was relaxed was now a thought.

Although the number is only slightly below average and the doctor said it can be overcome but still does not make my heart calm.

Arriving home was very weak. As soon as I arrived I sat down on the sofa and daydreamed.

My wife who saw it did not speak anything, she seemed to know if being in this condition there were no words that could calm me.

He just said not to think too much later even stress.

From the last doctor's visit, my wife diligently cooked vegetables and meat.

I was asked to come home at five in the afternoon not to come home again, he said to find another employee

Can't smoke, must eat food made by my wife while not snacking.

For a month doing that my wife never again checked pregnancy with a testpack. It's like keeping my feelings.

The doctor also advised us to have husband and wife relations in the fertile period.

All we did until finally in the sixth month my wife did not menstruate and when the testpack results two blue lines.

How happy we were then that we pranced ourselves in the midnight bathroom.

Eventually all our struggles came to fruition. Tomorrow we will visit the gynecologist again to make sure.