My love is my first love

Wedding try

Seeing my son born healthy, safe and perfect makes me and my wife cry.

I adhan in the ears of my daughter with great newness and gratitude.

My baby was taken to the nursery and my wife was taken to the nursery.

I helped him change his clothes and I bribed him afterwards because he hadn't eaten all day.

Not long after the nurse brought our baby to breastfeed.

We both agreed to name our little daughter Gantari Putri Permadi. Which means the daughter of a shining princess.

Later we hope Gantari becomes a child who always shines with a lot of kindness.

I contacted both of our parents to inform them that my wife had given birth.

Both of our parents arrived two hours later.

They took turns holding Gantari. I am so grateful that Gantari is surrounded by people who love her so much.

According to the nurse if this afternoon after Gantari observation there is no problem, then it is allowed to go home.

My mother and father-in-law will temporarily stay for a week to help my wife take care of Gantari.

My wife looks so happy. I think the moment of giving birth reminds us of mom.

We know how her struggle gave birth to us. Even I apologized to Mother Father if I ever troubled her.

Even the gloomy moment yesterday with the suicide attempt I did was recalled.

I deeply regret the stupidity I did before.

During my mother-in-law's stay at home, every afternoon I take my wife around the complex.

If a neighbor plants a plant for medicine, the mother tells him his name and efficacy.

I know there is a leaf called saga leaf that serves to relieve coughing.

Leaves of chamfer flowers to clean the eyes, onion if the child has a fever and other spices.

But of course all the traditional plants can be consumed if our children are one year old.

There's Mom in our house so I'm more relaxed and can eat well every day.

Why does the old man's cooking taste so good. Any food tastes so good.

Just three days Mom's home I've gained five kilos.

After a week in our house, my mother and father-in-law said goodbye to go back to the mountain of kidul.

I wanted to take him but he refused, he said, I was told to take care of my wife and children.

After Mom and Dad came home I learned to take full care of my son.

Carry him if he cries, change his diapers, and give him midnight milk so my wife can rest.

My son grew up to be a smart, healthy boy.

Every day there was something new that he showed me.

Like when he could lay on his own stomach, I immediately hysterically saw him.

Even though it is natural that four-month-old babies can already be prone. But still it's amazing for me.

My wife plans to give us two years of exclusive breast milk so our daughter has enough antibodies.

Having children makes me miss working.

I often go back and forth to my house or video call with my son. My wife laughed when she saw my behavior.

I did not expect to love my son so much, as if I would be willing to give anything for my son.

And since I have children, I've been in love with my wife. I'm getting lucky to have such an amazing wife and to be such a wonderful mother to our son.

Gantari is now two years and eight months old.

My wife was quite overwhelmed in cleaning the house, because Gantari began to ask for a lot of toys and every toy used was always a mess.

And for three days, my wife was sick. At first we thought it was a cold.

I have scraped and bought reject wind still not healed.

When we went to the doctor, my wife was four months pregnant.

We were shocked and did not expect this pregnancy, because my wife had put a spiral as her KB tool.

But even so we remain happy with the news of my wife's pregnancy.

Gantari also like tau will have a sister because it becomes more sticky with his mother and more fussy or crybaby.

I'm in charge of paying full attention to Gantari.

Because like my wife's previous pregnancy she had morning sickness, and this one was really bad.

I had to take him to the hospital because he really did not enter any food or drink.

He must be hospitalized for three days to be assisted with infusion.

My wife didn't not try to eat, but just ate one mouthful she had already vomited.

His body until very thin, his daily life just sitting curled up on the mattress.

Not to mention Gantari who wants to continue with his mother, it makes my wife more powerless so fainted and I rushed to the hospital.

My mother-in-law who heard the news decided to accompany my wife until her morning sickness went away.

Every morning I make us breakfast but my wife still can't get in the food.

And a week after he was discharged from the hospital he had to be re-treated because his condition dropped.

I'm so scared what's going to happen to my wife.

I pray every day that God will give you strength to endure this pregnancy.

I accompanied her in the hospital while Gantari was with my mother-in-law at home.

My wife's condition is still weak, her voice almost inaudible.

Every time he fell asleep I would check if he was still breathing, because the situation was very concerning.

The third day the condition is getting the same. He still looks weak and I haven't been able to talk to him for long.

I asked him to hold on and not give up on this.

Fortunately, our baby had no problems, even though his mother was suffering from not being able to eat.

A week in the hospital his condition improved. I could get him to talk, food and drink little by little could get into his body.

Hopefully his condition will improve and he can enter food again.

At night, while I was sleeping my wife woke me up.

He said he couldn't sleep anymore and just wanted to talk.

What surprised me was the question.

My wife asked me, is she going to be okay? I replied of course he would

it's fine.

Maybe because during pregnancy his condition like this continues to be over thinking.

He even said "Mah if later at the time of delivery the doctor asked if he wanted to save the child or mother, who would I choose? "

I was angry to hear my wife's words.

While wiping his tears he said "When that happens please choose our child who saved ya mas "

I fell silent and tried to understand my wife's feelings. Maybe this is a trial in my marriage and we need to be more patient in dealing with this ordeal.