My love is my first love

Lose common sense

Without realizing it, my phone rang.

I was busy playing doctor with giandra.

The afternoon game was so smoldering, we did it round.

Tried some new styles so I was pretty busy and didn't realize my phone was ringing.

I didn't even realize it was late afternoon.

After having sex a few times, it made us limp and I fell asleep.

I woke up at four o'clock in the afternoon, Giandra was no longer next to me may have returned to his office.

I took my phone and there were forty-two misscalls from my wife.

There were some messages my wife sent. First tell Gantari the heat, the next message tells if Gantari had a seizure, the next message asks me where, and the last message tells him that Gantari has been in the hospital delivered by my sister.

Reading all the messages from my wife messed up my mind.

All the way I thought about my daughter Gantari's condition.

I was afraid something would happen to him. I blame myself for not being with him.

Fooling myself for preferring to meet Gantari instead of being with my son.

Arriving at Gantari's nursery, there was already my wife and sister with her angry face.

I hugged my sleeping son.

" What did the doctor say, baby? "

" So the heat was up to forty Mas, the same doctor was given a heat-lowering drug through **** and installed infusion. While the heat has gone down but still must be treated because the heat is still up and down "

I kissed my daughter, holding back my tears and holding back my tears for blaming myself.

" What do you want to eat? Let me go to the cafeteria to get some food "

" Don't let Mba buy, you're just here with your Mas. I'll buy you a meal first, Mas "

And Galuhpun came out of Gantari's treatment room to the cafeteria.

" How's Koh Ahong getting sexier? " My sister insinuated me. He knows very well that I am not with Koh Ahong.

I didn't answer the question.

" Now you'd prefer that woman over your own son "

" I don't want to talk about that. You can't talk about this later! " Even though my brother's words are true, I don't want my son and my wife to hear them.

" If you don't change also don't mistake me if I'll tell Mom and Dad. If you're still playing crazy too I'll say directly to Mba Galuh "

I looked straight into my sister's eyes. Have a right what he did to me.

A child who knows nothing about marriage.

" why? Can't believe I could do that? I'm not gonna hesitate to admit it, Mas. I've learned Mas but Mas ga Dengerin. If it continues so I will ask for help with Mother and Father who already know marriage "

I can't reply to all the words that came out from my sister.

Not long after that my wife came with some food.

" Below there is only bread and snacks are all gone. What's up, brother? "

" Yes, what's Ma'am "

My wife gave bread to me and my sister.

After eating the bread my sister left us, he said he had a duty.

There were three of us in the hospital room with only one person.

My wife doesn't scold me for not being in contact. He didn't even ask me anything.

It seems that without my presence there, Gantari will still be treated well.

Seeing that sight makes me sad. Since when my wife and son have no need of my presence.

In the past, if a child was sick, I always took care of him. I don't budge if my son is sick.

Because if my kids and wife are sick I'm over thinking, I'm afraid they're doing it.

But what I did today, I had the heart to leave Gantari who was sick for fun.

As long as I keep Gantari I turn off my phone and focus only on Gantari.

" Dear you go home let Gantari me take care, pity also fear Ghina want milk "I told my wife who I had seen exhausted.

" You but there's no show where are you? If you can wait for Gantari twenty-four hours with him I just calm down to go home "

" I promise I'll take care of it baby, let you pull a cab online yeah so you can go home "

" I pesen myself aja mas, later until the house I ready your equipment during here and sent with ojek ya mas "

Not long after, my wife left me with my son Gantari.

Looking at her limp little face made my heart ache. Where I've been, I'm afraid something's happened to her.

At night the doctor visited Gantari's room, saying her condition had stabilized.

But I was asked to take care of him and be with him always.

Gantari still craves appetite. I feed the hospital but he's not tasteful.

I asked him what he wanted to eat, but he did not answer.

Although only eat a few bribes at least there is food that comes in.

Towards the night when Gantari was asleep, I turned on my phone.

There were some incoming messages from my wife, my sister and Giandra.

" What is Gantari's condition? Still hot isn't it? Want to eat ga mas? " That message is from my wife.

I reply if the heat has gone down but I do not want to eat.

" Inget said my word yes mas, it is not a bluff but it is true I will do if Mas ga changed " This message is from my sister who is still angry with me who is considered to be not concerned with my family and prefers Giandra and Gaffi.

Last message from Giandra. First ask how our game was, is it satisfying for me.

The second message asked me where and why there was no news.

The next message contained the same thing, which asked me where because there was no news.

Mumet my head. I don't know what I should do.

I love my family so much, I'm not leaving them no matter what.

But I also can't let go of Giandra and my son Gaffi.

With Giandra I feel like I'm going back to my youth full of excitement.

Back to our bad days when we were dating.

The sensation of infidelity that I can't feel except with Giandra, it was like it made me addicted.

No matter how I stay away from Giandra, I'll definitely go back to him.

But I also don't want my parents and my wife to know about Giandra.

I finally decided to send Giandra a message.

I said my son was sick, your sister knew about our relationship and I said I couldn't get in touch with him anymore.

I'll only meet him if it's only about Gaffi.