MY LECTURER DUREN (COLD WIDOWER )

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Tonight, we gathered to watch TV together in the living room. Nathan and Arsy were joking. Occasional throw pillows occur between them.

"Mama.. I have a guess." cried Arsy. He ran and sat on my lap.

"Hemm what is it?"

"Take a guess..What fruit is rich?"

I'm trying to rack my brain, to find answers. But it is indeed the basis of this brain limit, so I can only give up on the guesses of this little girl.

Nathan just a little smile saw me confused.

"Tell me, mama, give it up!" ledek Mas Nathan, who I immediately rewarded with a pillow throw.

"Hide. Arsy tell me yes... The answer is Sri Kaya!"

Huh huh? Sri Rich?

Ah right too, why didn't my brain get there.

Nathan laughed out loud at my expression.

Laugh there as you please, Mom!

"Mama also had a guess. What animal loves cleanliness?"

Nathan and Arsy looked at each other. I hope they give up at the same time.

"I know." said Mas Nathan.

"What?"

Mas Nathan showed the screen of his phone while grinning wide, "Nih. Elephants are clean."

After that they laughed at the same time. Huaa was so embarrassed, caught cheating at Gaggle.

"Ah, I want to sleep."

"Well look at Arsy, mama's lashing." Nathan grabbed my shoulder.

Arsy giggled amusedly at our behavior. It turns out that happiness is this simple. Gathering with our loved ones is already the greatest happiness for me.

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While deep asleep, I felt a rough movement beside me, which forced these eyes open.

It turns out that the movement came from Mas Nathan. His eyes were still closed, but his body was sweating and his mouth continued to rumble indistinctly.

"Mas, what's wrong with you?" I touched his body, trying to wake up Mas Nathan.

Looks like he's having a nightmare. So many times Nathan said things I didn't understand.

"Don't..."

"Mas Nathan!"

Finally those eyes opened, after I shook her body a little harder.

Mas Nathan's breathing panted like he ran a marathon, and his body shook.

"Are you okay, Mom?"

"Hug me, Nin."

"Without needing you to ask, I will definitely hug you. It calm?"

Nathan was silent, he hugged me tightly, until his breathing was in order.

"So you're still that dream?"

"Sometimes only."

I cupped my hands in his face, staring straight at the owner of the eyes that always made me fall in love.

"Why? is there something you think?"

Instead of answering, he kissed my neck, and left a small bite there.

"Nothing. The day after the anniversary of my parents' death, maybe that's why."

"Is that?"

"Yes." One kiss landed on my lips.

"Then, are we going on a pilgrimage?"

This time Mas Nathan looked at me, there was a visible wound in the look in his eyes. I know it's hard for him, but the wound has to be fought...

"Should it?"

"Yes should dong, Mas. They are your parents. When was the last time you were there?"

"Hemm, probably after Jihan died. I've never been there. It's too heavy for me to take it."

I brought her face closer, and touched both of her cheeks.

"Mas Nathan now has me. The day after we go there, I also have to look at your parents, Mas. I'd like to tell them that his great son is now happy with his beautiful wife."

"OKAY. The day after we go there. Bring me Arsy, you."

A wide smile was engraved on his handsome face. The fine hairs around Mas Nathan's face began to be seen, a sign that he did not shave for a few days.

Ah stupidly I, not realizing this. I thought only of myself, not knowing that my husband was suffering again with his pain. I forgot, if the psychic disease Mas Nathan can relapse at any time if his mood is bad.

In addition to his busy activities lately, it must make his body tired.

Tonight I decided to share it. For all the burden of Mas Nathan these few days to come off.

A little aggressively, I began to kiss her face and unbutton some of the pajamas she was wearing.

Nathan smiled, he flipped my body until I was under his support now.

"What a bitch is my wife."

I couldn't answer, because he had locked my lips in a deep moment. His hands went guerrilla fast to open his pajamas, and get them out of my body, then throw them away.

What happens next?

Only me and Nathan know.

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The planned day arrives. Mas Nathan took us to Bandung for a pilgrimage to the graves of his parents. Mila also came along, to help me look after Arsy.

After I finished praying, I asked Mila to take Arsy first to the car. Because it looks like Mas Nathan still wants to linger there.

I approached Mas Nathan, and rubbed his back which seemed to tremble withstanding the cries.

"It's okay, I'm here."

Mas Nathan's tears finally broke, the second time I saw Mas Nathan crying. The first time I saw him go berserk was his illness.

"Sorry Dad... Ma'am. Excuse me... Sorry."

Just an apology coming out of Nathan's mouth. His sadness rubbed off on me. I don't feel these tears flowing.

Once it calmed down, Mas Nathan grabbed my hand. A smile of relief was engraved on his face.

"Let's go. Arsy must have been waiting for us."

I nodded my head, according to Mas Nathan. We walked hand in hand towards the car, occasionally he turned to me, smiling widely while peeping my still faithful hand in his hand.

Mas Nathan opened the car door for me, bending over, not caring about Arsy and Mila in the middle seat.

I laughed a little in response. Then my gaze was fixed on the phone that I intentionally stayed on top of the dashboard.

A few times the phone vibrated. I grabbed it, there were some incoming messages from unknown numbers.

After I opened it, the contents of the message shocked me greatly.

Whatisthis?

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