MY LECTURER DUREN (COLD WIDOWER )

Chapter 16's

🍀If your tears are still dripping after remembering them, then he is still everything to you.

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After yesterday's incident, Mas Nathan seemed to keep his distance back from me. Even for TA guidance only he ordered that it be tipped to Bi Munah, the next day I just take it back.

She also hired a new nurse to pick Arsy up, as if she didn't need me anymore.

I let out a breath. It's tired of it.

"Sir Nindi.mau go straight home again ya..." Arsy is sulking at me now.

I was at Mas Nathan's current house, to take back the introduction to the final work assignment he had corrected yesterday.

"Yeah baby. Sorry yeah. Brother is busy. Lots of college work." I'm lirih.

Besides being busy, I don't want to be here long either.

Every time I saw him, Nathan just passed by like I wasn't there. Just like when I had just arrived, he who was about to descend from his room immediately turned around as soon as he saw my arrival.

Even on campus he did not want to see me while giving material, as if he did not think I was in a crowd of students there. Even with other students he could talk and laugh. He always avoids my desk in class.

It feels really tight.

If I could choose, he'd rather just grumble like he used to than he'd shut me up like this.

"Sir Nindi is fighting with me? Miss said in TK Arsy, if the fight can not be more than three days you know."

Arsy's words just made me smile.

"Nobody fighting. Anyway, later when the job is done, we walk again."

Arsy's face immediately heard it. "Yes, brother..."

He even hugged me right away. I myself doubt if we can go back to what we were before.

I kissed her hair gently. Looking at her beautiful clear eyes. Anyone can love this little girl.

I saw Mas Nathan's room upstairs sealed.

What is my fault, mas?

Why are you avoiding me like this...

I can always accept and forgive you, why do you easily change your attitude towards me, which I do not know where my fault lies.

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After returning from Mas Nathan's house, I returned home. But because at home there was only me alone, I finally decided to walk for a while.

My steps stopped at the minimarket located not far from my home.

I bought a canned soda and some chocolate as well as a snack there.

After that, I sat in a chair that was provided in the minimarket for buyers who want to eat or just sit and chat.

I put my groceries on the table. Open a soda can and drink it.

Looks refreshing.

But why are these eyes watering... I lift my eyes up, so I can hold back my tears that are no longer contained. Just look. soda now tastes bitter to me.

"What a bad taste of sodas.until your facial expression is like that."

Someone suddenly rebuked me. He just sat in the empty chair in front of me.

I smiled a little smile at him. I forgot, I shouldn't have chosen this place. Because this minimarket is indeed near Kak Faiz's practice.

He smiled broadly as I looked at him, but only for a moment, as if he had just realized that he had misinterpreted my expression earlier.

"You crying?" He said slowly.

One by one my tears fell. Faiz looked panicked. Moreover, some people realized something was wrong, and started to notice us while whispering.

"Hey Nindi. Come with me." He pulled my hand to leave.

Feeling bad for her so I followed her, because now she's the center of attention. Others think he hurt me right now until I cry.

Brother Faiz took me into his car. There I started crying again. He just shut up, then handed me a box of tissue.

"What's my fault, brother, why is he so cold right now. Every time I chat let alone in reply read it not. He seemed to think I didn't exist. Guidance was not willing to meet, had to be through a courier or third person. That's right!."

I grumbled and evaporated my emotions that had been held back. Brother Faiz is still listening. As if intentionally letting me spill it all.

Well thankfully.

Because right now I just need to be heard. Wanting to convey my own feelings without having to hold back again.

After a little calm he gave me a bottle of mineral water for me, which I drank in one gulp.

"I understand him, sis, he is because his emotions are unstable. But until when? It seems like I'm the only one fighting on my own. The proof he could easily cuekin I like gini. He gave me hope. But she easily changed her attitude as if we were nobody."

Srootts. I wiped the liquid coming out of my nose with a tissue. Brother Faiz leaned over his head on the steering wheel of the car, then turned his head tilted towards me. He even laughed amusedly.

I looked at him cynically. "Funny look at people's grief. Just found out that psychiatrist."

"Son.not Nin. I'm funny to see your expression. Cute."

His words just made me freeze. Brother Faiz also seemed to realize that. Instantly the atmosphere became awkward.

"Sori.I mean you're like a kid when you cry like this." Said Brother Faiz while rubbing his nape.

"Hem." I just answered briefly.

"Ah yes. I have a movie voucher. You know the zombie movie that's on that train. And I have the ticket."

Faiz showed off the two tickets he took out of his shirt pocket.

I looked at him half in disbelief.

"really? It was hard to get those movie tickets. I'm not going to go on."

Yes, I bought online a few times but still not in part, and yesterday when with Sarah at the mall, we actually planned to watch the film. But again - again running out of tickets.

Brother Faiz smiled bragging about himself.

"Yeah dong. I have a special channel. How's it? Wanna come? I think you need some entertainment right now."

"Just..two?" I asked with doubt.

"Yes, I was going out with a friend, but he said there was a show. But if you don't want to, don't."

How can I. do I come along. But I'm scared. What if Nathan finds out later. When he saw me consulting with Faiz alone he was angry - angry.

But... Thinking of Mas Nathan's late-last attitude, it seemed like he no longer cared about me.

True said Brother Faiz, right now I need entertainment to momentarily forget about my problems. The tasks that accumulate, the TA deadline that is getting closer, coupled with the affairs of Mas Nathan. Honestly, I'm tired.

I wish it was Mas Nathan who would take me to watch this moment.

But it is impossible, for the roads alone should I take the initiative to invite him first.

"OKo brother. I'm coming with."

I finally agreed to Brother Faiz's invitation. He smiled widely, revealing his neat rows of teeth. If Mas Nathan is a handsome guy who is macho, well Faiz Kak is a metrosexual type of guy. He cares a lot about his appearance.

Her clothes were always neat, and her face was clean with no fine hair or sideburns decorating her. If Mas Nathan was sitting next to Faiz, I think all the women who saw him would scream hysterically like seeing a character in a comic.

"Awhile, Nin. I'll take the phone first."

His phone above the dashboard seemed to be vibrating. He grabbed.

My eyes accidentally caught the name that appeared on her phone screen. Cindy.

Afterwards Faiz got out of the car, and was busy talking to his caller outside.

I looked the other way. Don't want to be seen interfering with his affairs.

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Brother Faiz walked carrying two large-size popcorn buckets and two cola drinks.

"Here I help" I said to go to him and immediately I took one buck of popcorn that was in his hands.

I looked back at the food on the display. Look nachos with a sprinkling of appetizing cheese sauce.

"You want that?" Ask Brother Faiz. It turned out that he realized I was looking towards the food.

I just grinned wide.

He ordered the food to the guarding cinema. When I finished buying it, Faiz and I walked into the studio.

We sat on the middle bench and the very end. Studio lights start to go out, cinema screens show ads first.

I began to eat the food that was in the message, my mouth did not stop chewing because my stomach had not been filled today.

The movie started, I went back to watching it seriously.

For a moment I forgot all the problems and burdens of thought I felt.

Scene after scene I watched without blinking, even though it was scary.

"Aren't you afraid?" Brother Faiz whispered to me.

It was a shock that I turned to him. Our views meet. Somehow I saw Brother Faiz's gaze this time more creepy than the movie I'm watching right now.

I immediately turned my face, looked back at the screen in front, but my mind became chaotic no longer focused on watching like before.

There is a strange feeling I feel now.

Nathan, I think about it.

I feel guilty about what I'm doing now.

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