MY LECTURER DUREN (COLD WIDOWER )
Chapters 10
🍀 Although I lost my faith, let love lead me to you...
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Along the way Mr. Nathan uring - uring. He cursed and honked to whoever was in front of him, until - until scolded by some other rider.
"Sir.. patience okay? Take a deep breath - deep....." I try to calm down.
But he glared at me, making my voice growl.
I sat back down, with a manyun face. I'd rather just shut up, than get sprayed again.
"You did it there. He said it hurt but he played. Not even going to college anymore."
Mr. Nathan started nagging.
His omelette was really like my mama, bring along - bring lectures and course grades.
"I don't play there sir. That's why why first. I was going to ask you about my father." I replied with a little annoyance.
Mr. Nathan was silent. His eyebrows are linked. He asked again in a sharp tone.
"About what?"
" It's about Mr. Nathan's disease. You want to be healed... But to heal, you first have to change. Try to accept help and help from others. And I'm willing to help you for that." I explained slowly. Fear of being angry or offended.
Mr. Nathan already has no one but Arsy, plus his closed personality. That's the factor that makes it difficult to recover, because he does not socialize. That's the explanation of Faiz's brother that I caught earlier.
His work as a lecturer was also on the advice of Kak Faiz, meaning that Mr. Nathan interacted more with others.
I thought he'd be angry again. But he remained silent, not answering.
Then suddenly he stopped his car on the side of the road, and turned to look at me.
I held my breath from being nervous at such a stare by her.
"Are you serious about what you just said?" Ask. Still not taking his eyes off me.
"That's if you let." Reply steady.
He looked straight ahead. His eyes were like thinking of something. After a long silence, Nathan finally spoke again.
" I don't want to be healed or not want to open myself, but every time I try, my little heart is always in revolt. Negative thoughts always arise. But Arsy is getting bigger now. So how should I go? What can you help..?" His complaint.
He looks frustrated. Even though his face looks more fresh than yesterday. There were no more dark circles under his eyes. Signs Mr. Nathan can sleep well for a few days.
I understand his feelings.It's not easy for him to trust others. All I can do now is help her, and convince her that not all women are the same.
Doesn't love need a struggle...?
I've actually thought of a way too. But not sure he would agree.
All I know from Brother Faiz and Bi Munah, Mr. Nathan has never been close to any woman, after Jihan was not around.
Mr. Faiz said, Mr. Nathan always avoids and he is always afraid to try to be in a relationship with other women.
" 3 months. Give me 3 months to be near you. During those 3 months, I will accompany the father of therapy, and try to help eliminate the trauma of the father. Especially trauma to women. As for Arsy, he'd want to have a whole family. How's it?"
Mr. Nathan looked surprised to hear my words. He smiled cynically.
" You sure..? Even after 3 months, I still can't be with you?"
Nyutt's. There is pain in this heart hearing it. It was like being rejected before trying. But I'm trying to shake it now.
"Quiet down. I'll give up and get away from you." I said, answering the question earlier.
"Why? Father scared..? What if after 3 months you love me?" I added, deliberately challenged him by looking into Mr. Nathan's eyes directly.
Because people say those eyes can't lie.
I thought Mr. Nathan would respond with a whimper, or would nag with his ears reddened with shame as usual if I started teasing him.. But now he looked back at me and said..
"Dad? What if for 3 months even you are more in love with me?"
Mr. Nathan even teased me back, showing off his sweet smile, not the cynical or mocking smile he used to show.
Geez, this is really not good for health.
He's too late handsome, making me want to hug. Uh..
Don't think perverted Nindi..! Unauthorized.
It was like there were fireworks in my head. I immediately turned my eyes . This master's dinner weapon is his name.
Intentions want to work him, even I'm the baper himself.
Why is Mr Nathan so flirtatious?
Learn where to try!
Can be diabetic if every day I am in suguhin rich scenery gini.
He's back talking. But this time his tone was not as gentle as before.
I can see hearing it. Stare at him amazed.
Just incredible!.
Mr. Nathan is back in ferocious mode.
The change of his heart was quick. He was good, kept being flirtatious, and now he's back again.
If I didn't know he had ptsd, I might have assumed he had a double personality.
" He's my father's psychiatrist. I can't ask the." I wonder.
"Listen ya.. Why is Faizal still alone until now? He's a playboy. Her boyfriend is everywhere."
" What is my relationship with me? Oh. don't - don't be jealous...."
I squinted my eyes at him.
Mr. Nathan laughed out loud. It's crisp.
Maksa kayak laughs that.
" I just don't want you to be in the same rage with Faizal's girls. I will also be troubled."
Huh huh?
What kind of reason is that. I just kept quiet and didn't say. To maintain calm and tranquility. Lazy noisier again.
It is still the teacher who is always right.
Mr. Nathan started running his car again.
He still keeps blabbering about Faiz's sister like this, which is how it is.
Whatever. Ora urus!
I took my phone and earphones from my bag.
Then set up MP3. Rossa's clear voice was heard, chanting a song called certainty..
Doubtless
Saved confidence
Sincerity of my love
I want certainty
It really is me
For yourself love
Why don't you understand
Smooth feeling
You're scratching doubt
But I love you
Even though my belief is gone
Let love lead me
For yours..
Ah. very fitting this song. I have an idea.
I take the right earphone, then I slip it directly in Mr. Nathan's ear.
He who daritadi babbled instantly fell silent.
Confused towards me.
" Dengerin. Nice song. Let me be sensitive."
I said, while grinning.
Mr. Nathan's face looks stiff. His ears are back.
Hidhi. Maybe he's too hot to hear the lyrics.
Feeling sindir yes sir.ups.
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