MY LECTURER DUREN (COLD WIDOWER )

Chapter 15's

🍀It's not that you're beautiful then I love you, but because I love you you always look beautiful to me.

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A month has passed..

"So now you call him mas dong to Mr Nathan?" Sarah looked at me in disbelief.

Sarah and I were in a shopping mall in the middle of town.

Sarah wanted to find materials for TA, and she asked me to accompany her.

We had not walked together for a long time because we were busy with the final task.

After successfully finding what was needed, we unwinded in a cafe. And he took my promise to tell me about Mr. Nathan. Because we don't have time for casual chatting on campus.

"Yes, that's also off campus. He gets angry when I call him in front of people. This is because - because I think I'm the one who's pumping."

Sarah laughed and heard it.

"Haha. Mr. Nathan being bucin is the same. Gilaaaa..after the waiting of 7 full moons."

"Yee lebay." I grumbled to him.

"The immortal singles have been separated from me."

"Yes yes. Congratulations to Nindi. I'm happy to hear it." Said Sarah. He smiled sincerely. I returned his smile.

My mind is now looking far away, when I first saw Mr. Nathan. How silly of me who always followed him on campus, even without shame teased him. I often fantasize that he will be my husband later, in fact now the dream is one step closer.

"Where is your plan?" Sarah asked me to break my daydream.

"Gue wants TA guidance with Mr. Nathan."

"Eciyee. TA guidance what guidance love.."

"Booh Sar, boro - boro deh. In one week, I can relax on Saturday just like Sunday. Monday to Friday should be tutored. To pick up Arsy I'm banned now. He said he should focus on TA first."

Sarah laughed with satisfaction at my words.

"Haha you know what Mr. Nathan is like. To other students aja killer when it comes to the subject matter he. So it's natural that he's also firm on you."

"Yes, too... That's why I have to hold on. Let's graduate too."

While chatting, the phone in my bag shook. Showing a picture of Mr. Nathan that I photographed silent - silent on the beach.

"Yes, I'm in the mall with Sarah."

Hearing the word 'gold' I said earlier. Sarah's expression changed. It seems he realized who called me at this moment. He brought his ears closer, wanting to eavesdrop on my conversation.

Seeing that, I immediately pushed his head away.

"Yeah.yeah I'm coming there now.".

I put my index finger over my lips, to keep Sarah quiet.

After the conversation was over, Sarah immediately charged me with various questions.

"Why Nin? What did he say? Where are you told?"

"Repo." Answer's short.

Hearing my reply Sarah immediately turned her lips. Piqued.

I grabbed the little glass from my bag. Then justify the lipstick that was straw because of eating earlier.

Seeing me like that makes Sarah grimace amused.

"Ngex. When do you wear lipstick. Usually have a little lip."

I'm just glancing lazily. Here's how having a single friend survives.

"The name of the person is in love... The unusual can become ordinary.

The ordinary can be unusual.

Don't understand... That's why I fell in love!."

Sarah just gawked at the philosophy I had just forged. Maybe he wondered why his best friend was so smart to say - the word now. Yes obviously dong.kan girlfriend lecturer. Must be smart and smart.

After I finished eating, I called the waittress, then paid for my order and Sarah. Because I intend to buy him a meal today.

"Sar I'm first... Mr. Nathan is waiting for me in the park. I want to see my TA results. Bye baby's.."

"Yes. heart - heart. Don't forget the story later."

"Okay sipoo." I blinked one eye. Then leave him there.

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The City Park

I walked over to Mr. Nathan sitting there alone.

Before I had been here, the difference was that there was Arsy too, if now I was only alone with Mr. Nathan. Uh. Nathan I mean. So from now on I have to call him Mas Nathan...

"Bag.." I greeted him. He turned his head and shifted his body to the side, so that I could sit next to him.

My heart is beating at the moment. Like running a marathon around town.

"Yes..." Call me again in a spoiled tone.

He looked at me weird. I just held both of my cheeks while smiling shyly.

"You're drunk, yeah..."

I quickly shook my head, "No. Try to smell no alcohol."

He glared in shock as I brought my body closer.

"Eits. Stop. Later we even thought perverted here. Where's your TA, he said it's up to chapter three."

His words just now, successfully made me pursed my lips. Look. His attitude is still as stiff as a dry canoebo!

I submit an introduction to the TA work that I have prepared. Large writings of capital printed on the initial page, the,

PROMOTION DESIGN AND SHORT FILM MAKING

"HEAL ME"

He read it seriously. His forehead began to wrinkle, and I saw him scratching with a pen in some parts.

Alamac. Revision again.

"In chapter three, about the concept of design and story line there is still something that needs to be improved."

He said while handing me my TA report back.

"Don't manyun, if not revised now will also be rejected by the examiner." Added again.

"Yes sir.."

He glanced at me. Oops.

"Yes, um..." I repeat it again. I just forgot again.

"Wanna eat?" Ask again

I'm shaking. "It was the same with Sarah."

"Oh. Wanna walk?"

"Go home, yeah, I'm cape." Reply slowly. Then I pinched my neck that felt sore.

Yes, I am tired. I walked with Sarah all day. Nathan just nodded then got up from his seat, took me away.

We're heading for the car. The place for car parking is quite far from the park, located on the edge of a large highway.

When I got to the car, my steps stopped. I was curious to see some people crowding across the street, not far from Mas Nathan's car.

It looks like there was an accident, because there was an ambulance there too, the ambulance officers carried the victim on a stretcher. I squinted my eyes trying to see clearly what was going on there.

There was a car that shattered the front, with a motorbike lying down.

"The gas ahead was an accident. Looks like a car and motorcycle collision.." I muttered softly.

There was no reply from Mas Nathan, I thought he had gotten into his car. But after I turned my head, Mas Nathan was still beside me.

He looked with a pale face. The scar of fear in Mas Nathan's eyes looked very clear.

I approached him "Mas..why?"

"Accident!" Nathan gripped my hand. His lips and feet were shaking violently. Why is Nathan like this. What does this have to do with his illness.

"Mas is calm.okay." I tried to calm him down. I groaned in pain as Mas Nathan clutched my hand even stronger.

"Mother.father..." His breath was now breathless.

I get it now. He must have remembered his mother and father's accident. In addition to whether he also has phobias.

"That's not Mas Nathan's parents' car." Sahutku back.

But free. Nathan's gone out of control now. He hit the car glass. Shouting hysterically.

In a panic I remembered who could solve this problem.

With trembling hands I picked up the phone and dialed the person's number.

"Sister Faiz. Please.can go to the City Park now. Nathan is back again. He's lost control."

After the phone call broke, I tried to calm her down. No matter which hand is injured because it is kept in the grip by him.

I glanced at the few people around, who were now staring straight at us, hissing horrifying words from their mouths.

But I don't care. I kept trying to calm Mas Nathan who kept calling his mother and father names.

And lastly he also mentioned the name of Jihan....

There was a sense of pain in this heart of hearing him. But I immediately dismissed that feeling. His health is more important now. I hope Faiz comes quickly.

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I was at Kak Faiz's clinic now, after Kak Faiz found me and Mas Nathan in the park, he immediately gave a sedative to Mas Nathan.

I drank the hot chocolate that Faiz's sister had for me. Nathan was asleep in the break room.

My body is still trembling a little. I'm still in shock about what happened.

"Why Brother Faiz did not tell from the beginning that Mas Nathan also had phobias" I said slowly.

Brother Faiz who sat in front of me sighed. "I don't think your relationship is going this far. But it turns out you called him Mas."

I just smiled stiffly. If the situation was normal, I would laugh.

"Is that dangerous?"

"Ptsd and trauma that cannot be lost. For 8 years he has been my patient.

Nathan said his nightmare disorder has recently been reduced, he does not take anti-depressant drugs anymore. But that situation seemed to remind him back in the past. It's very dangerous.he can lose control as you can see."

"How could it be that bad?" I muttered weakly.

Brother Faiz got up from his seat, walking towards the closet located in the corner of the room.

He brought a box of P3K.

"Your hand is wounded. Here on the medicine first."

I refused it subtly. "Let me be brother."

"I'm a psychiatrist, but I also know how to care for the right wounds."

He still insisted on treating my wounds.

I just shut up. Staring at Brother Faiz who painstakingly cleansed my wound.

"Sir.. has Mas Nathan not been able to forget Jihan yes..?"

Brother Faiz was silent for a while, then resumed his activity earlier. gave red medicine on my wound, then glued the plaster neatly.

"It's over." Said Faiz. He put the drug paraphernalia back in the P3K box.

"Don't think about it anymore." He ruffled my hair, after which it passed away went into the room where Mas Nathan rested.

How could I not think about it, the person I like is sick, traumatized, even he still keeps remembering and mentioning the name of his dead wife.

Nathan didn't keep any of Jihan's photos in his house. But Jihan's name still seemed to be neatly stored in her heart.

Am I wrong now that I feel disappointed...

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