MY LECTURER DUREN (COLD WIDOWER )

THE POV 4 NATHAN

In my life just this time there was a woman crying for me other than Mom.

It was Anindira.

The girl he said liked me, that,

Instead of running away from me, it was getting closer.

Today is my schedule for therapy with Faizal. I came to keep my promise.

" Nathan, this symptom of your pain is called Intrusively reexperiencing the traumatic event.

You experience recurring memories and nightmares about the event, which traumatize you. Now try to take a deep breath now, slowly. Keep doing it like that."

I followed his instructions. Take a deep breath, and do mind meditation.

Before long I fell asleep, and the incident flared back up, as if I was watching a movie that I was alone as the role.

Jehan's screams and cries beg to be forgiven.

Also the blood that arrived - suddenly flowed from his hands.

Not Jihan.

I wanted to prevent it but my body couldn't move.

Please, Jihan, don't do that.

I screamed back there.

No!!

And I woke up with a breath. A thread of sweat ran down my face.

Faizal. He smiled and patted me on the shoulder.

" Great Nathan. You can control yourself now. Slow down - just slow down. You can do it."

I closed my eyes and regulated my breathing.

Yes, this is progress. Normally I would lose control, my head would hurt and go berserk if the dream came. But not this time. I'm just a little tired.

"Nathan don't you like to write poetry first? You can write to express your feelings. That's good for healing therapy."

"alright. I'll think about it."

"What if Anindira?? Try to think too. She's a good girl. My advice is you should start opening your heart. Bad memories will be lost if we replace them with happiness. She's a sincere girl. He loves Arsy.

That's the most important thing, right..."

Maybe he's right.

It's time to open my heart a little...

Is Anindira really the right person?

"She's beautiful too. If you don't want me to replace you."

I glared sharply at Faizal.

She laughs. Goody. Laugh that loud over there.

"Haha. Joking bro. This is the recipe. Do not drink every day. Reduce the dosage slowly - land. So that you can get rid of this drug completely. Turn your mind to something positive. Remember Nathan. You deserve to be happy too."

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I haven't seen Anindira in 3 days at college. He also did not come to the house to accompany Arsy.

Where the hell is he??

Did he purposely avoid me?

Ah no. I immediately dismissed my bad thoughts. Must think positively. So Faizal's message.

I grabbed her phone and typed a message for her.

[Why not go to college ]

Not how long he replied. Turns out he has a fever. I let out a sigh of relief. Not because he was sick. But relieved that my bad thoughts did not happen.

I intend to take Arsy to see him later this afternoon. But before that I'd like to stop by Faizal's place to pick up my jacket that I missed yesterday.

Up there, I saw a shocking sight. Anindira and Faizal.

They are busy chatting. Since when did they get that close?

There was a feeling of annoyance and anger seeing them. I rebuked them.

After being satisfied to catch them and insinuate them, I immediately left her dead.

Anindira still ran after me. He looks exhausted. Why should he follow me. Such a thin and thin body could chase after me.

Basic ABG labile !

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