My Happiness is Not With My First Love
honesty is sick
we went home and Surya slept well
in the morning I thought to myself, my mind slalu to Indra's question last night, tears came out little by little, Surya"you cried?wh why?did anyone hurt you?I fell silent and said "may I ask you something?"sure."answered Surya."why are you drunk?you know I hate drunk people, why do you tell Indra that we've had a despicable relationship?wh why?am I the same woman in your eyes as I was in your life?"
he was surprised and said"maybe I unconsciously said that, I'm sorry but I'll straighten it out and talk to him, just calm down and cry"he calmed me in his arms I cried and fell asleep,when I went to see his mother who was sick at home, his father did not think I existed, confused and anxious, his father went away for a very long time, at first I felt there might be some business, but his sister sent me a message
"can we talk alone?"I just followed him into the room and asked him what was this.ouh yes his sister named Septia, he said"Has Surya really come to you?yes, I said", then why are you asking me like that?is it wrong that he came to see his girlfriend?"he took a breath and said"You know why you've been gone so long?"not saying"he continued saying" It's Surya's fault, he came home late at night drunk, so I was right"unbelieving, he said"Surya was against my father a long time ago,but this time I'm right" angry at him, are you Dad mad at you too, why?"because when asked from wherever you are, he always said from your house."like the lightning in the hole my heart slashed, I answered"he often comes, but he never comes home late, but he never comes home,where did he go after he met me?"
we were silent and I was allowed to go home
when Sunday night came he called me and said "sorry I didn't come, I'm not feeling well, I'm angry" I was silent in the park that we used to meet until Indra came with her lover and said"hey where's Surya,ko GK Dateng?" I said"he's sick again"The Indra line points at me, when Sri goes Indra comes up to me and says"I know where she is, want me to drop off, on one condition to involve me in it."astonished but curious to know where Surya went.
at that time I went with Indra to a place like a cafe and Indra told me to go and make a plan.so many women were smoking, drinking and there were some men too
time had passed, I wanted to get out of the cafe and my heart said maybe I was exaggerating, Surya must be home.
how surprised I was to see Surya looking so handsome and wearing the shirt I bought for him to wear for the other women here, I can't control myself and come over"wow sick yeah, I can't,can you come here?"any business?"all was silent and there was a woman embracing Surya and saying"who is she?pretty but why does she know you?"
