My Happiness is Not With My First Love

stupid stupid self

I didn't realize I was taking him back

one Sunday we were dating but now he was indifferent, rarely told me, when Sunday night came we met and he took me to a luxurious house and it belonged to his friend,but his friend took his leave with his pcr and let us in his house.

the words that came out of her lips were not what I expected,

Surya"are I still in your heart?"

I just kept quiet, and I kissed my neck and said"I want you tonight, I miss your scent so much, your embrace, and your beautiful voice" surprised and tears dripped I refused him with all my might and I tried to get up, he just said I shouldn't pretend to be a saint because I didn't deserve to be so innocent,,,,, that,,,,my heart was crying and trying to say"Is this your real attitude?where's Surya protecting me?Surya calms me down, you easily say the word"that, don't you realize why I'm like this because of who? have I ever been in your heart?is that as bad as you look at me?"trus' tears welled up and he just kept silent not a word, he approached and said"I used to be different from others but after you worked in a cafe and then surrounded by men are you still the Karin I know?"I didn't think she'd think I was that kind of woman, I pushed her around and said"however I was still me, I never expected my loved ones to say such hurtful words,enough of what you say and enough of what I never want to hear your name, I hope you get a reply to what you did to me, he laughs and says"hhaaa hhaaaa you don't want to see me?has he?someday you'll be begging me to marry you because no man wants to marry a woman who's worth nothing anymore, "my heart screams and thinks I'm sorry to love her"until I die I won't find you to embarrass myself, I don't need the mercy of the people I hate, even if no one accepts me I'll never go back to someone like you!!!!!"he fell silent and I left and asked my friend Devi to come get you,,

septia called"what was yesterday"was Surya meeting kka?"I said"What's his business with me?"he answered Surya's fight at his father's, and went home drunk while calling Kka Karin's name"

Karin"sorry Septi kka GK want some more business with your family, how else hear that name, please don't bother me anymore, and his problem with that father GK has something to do with me!"sandri in the room I often spent with Surya made my heart even more broken...........

time passed I had to change men just for revenge, I never cared about their feelings.One day I happened to be dating a friend of Surya

he has a pretty big workshop, I go there a lot, and Surya comes around surprised to see me laughing happily with his friend.