My Happiness is Not With My First Love

funny and holy

Hay all sorry if shared this episode there is writing that may be to an adult person, but it is also my responsibility as a listener and writer here.ok we continued yu......

I just smiled at him who was confused because he was right"the first guy I met.

rarely is a man today as innocent as my husband hhaaaa hhaaaa is indeed very funny but I am increasingly ashamed of my own driku, it should be a man like him can get a woman who is pure not dirty like me.

I approached him and I can't believe I taught him he was sweating and said" I'm embarrassed if anyone saw"

Karin"stupid, I'm married"

when morning came we were getting ready to go to my husband's house and my father-in-law's house.

when I got there my two in-laws wanted to buy us a house, but I refused and my husband agreed what I said.

we opened a small business and lived together only me and my beloved husband.

one month we were enjoying the wedding when I had my birthday and my husband gave me an amazing surprise in my eyes he was my hero, who pulled me out of the mud that just put me in.

when the fasting month came close to the day of Eid al-Fitr I received news that I was pregnant, happy news but also made me sad,one week after the holiday I want to visit papa and give happy news for him but when the journey to my house rang and it was from a big family papa.

first wife"hello Rin mama just wanted to say that papa is no longer with us"

I was silent and crying and tired.

Karin"why lordnnnn!!!!!!why before you brought him I met for the last time I didn't even have time to tell him this news" tears wreathed in my husband's arms.

husband"had already cleared his departure so that he could calm down back to his owner"he calmed me down and trus hugged tightly.

I could not believe what I heard but as soon as my memory came, did I not ask for his life to the divine, could he love my father more than me?I also stopped crying.

Karin"you're right my husband, maybe God is more grateful to him and maybe this is a decision that God loves me, another acquisition the creator gave me special gifts and news that shook my heart.

maybe in the presence of the baby papa calmly left me without having to grieve because I saw his smile that others could not see ........"

2017 I married an empty month and I decided to have a baby.

maybe this is a clue as well as the knowledge of the death of papa.

when I was 4 months old I was helpless, so I went to the hospital because I lacked so much blood,my blood is low to sit even though I can not just lie down.I am very guarding my fetus but indeed the air of my cravings never want to touch rice and water.

what I want is cold water, ice cream and color, it's weird I'm like a dead body that sleeps in a hospital bed.

4 Days I lay down and begged to be discharged, I went home alone without a wheelchair, trying to sit in front of the doctor to look fresh fit.

I know the doctor wasn't stupid but he couldn't do much when I begged him to come home

my husband was so caring, he was so worried about both of us, he worked so hard for my nutrition and our baby.

when I was healthy I also started activities as usual, cooking, washing clothes, dishes, cleaning the house and others when I finished I keep the store and my husband working in a restaurant

even though we have a sandwich shop but the cost for the store we occupy is very expensive and it is less if my husband goes to work at a famous restaurant.

we refused help from our parents because we wanted to go into the house without the intervention of our parents.

it didn't feel like nine months I'd been carrying my baby happily, though,

I just found out how much a mother sacrifices for her child, I'm getting humiliated by disappointing my parents in the past.

while waiting for the store arrived my stomach hurt very very very sick and my other family acted immediately because of worry.

my husband at work asked for permission to go home and take me to the hospital, he was worried

and confusion.

I'm powerless because I'm enduring the pain I feel,

Karin"honey calm down in mom's belly, don't make your dad this worried, relax mom will fight for you"while stroking.

and it's true that the pain was less as if my baby understood what I was saying.

when I arrived at the hospital I was taken to a public room there full of patients I was afraid but beside me was very calm, her husband who proclaimed the Qur'an my heart also calm and comfortable.

my husband was busy looking for help for labor and he came to my side with a tired face and he fell asleep

I don't want to waste my best husband like him, he's my life, my passion to rise up, everything for me.

when opening nine I gave up because my baby didn't come out I thought maybe he didn't want to make things difficult for his father it turned out that he was born with his legs folded, and all the sisters who helped the doctor smiled.

sister"wow funny, look at her legs folded like her mother often draped her legs."

they care about all patients.

I was happy when I saw my baby was born and would accompany the silence of our home I was so happy to never escape my gratitude to the divine who protected us.

my husband smiled very happily, he hugged me and kissed me on the forehead, cheeks, everything.

I feel like a full woman because I have a beautiful daughter who came from heaven through my womb.

give me complete happiness thank you for everything..

as we headed home I could clean the house and my husband did everything, from washing my clothes, my baby and his clothes.

after finishing cleaning the house he immediately rushed off to work and came home at night, a tired face but he was smiling plus he was bothering my little daughter who was asleep.

my husband"tired may it be a blessing for you and for our daughter"he kissed us both affectionately.

even a few weeks I began to take over homework not because I was in total health but I did not want to add burden to my husband,I have a family that I love so much everyone welcomes my son and immediately fights to hold him.

she's our name is Princess Sofya

I'm gonna try to be the mom I can count on, and I'm not gonna worry both families, I'm gonna have to try to convince them I can.

because I want to be right"in a good mother and a mother close to her child.

he was funny, his laughter, his crying, his behavior, made everyone anxious especially me and my husband we love you dear.

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