My Future Husband's

Joe Comes in

Arkan hugged Febri who was asleep. Today they spent time for both. Cessa has been entrusted to her Grandma at once so that she can play with Abhimanyu. He just doesn't want his son to feel alone about his sister. So Abhimanyu can be a substitute figure for Alwan for his daughter.

After Febri fell asleep. Arkan got up to finish his job. He has not yet given the final semester value to his students. So he has to input the value tonight. Lately it is difficult to manage the time between work and also keep Febri. He could not leave Febri alone, he would be depressed and cry. Arkan didn't want that to happen.

I honestly say he is not sad. He was devastated and did not feel good about being a father. Which parent will not be hurt to lose two children at the same time. He tried hard and did not cry in front of Febri. If he was sad how he made Febri strong.

Arkan was speechless staring at the laptop screen and the sheet of paper that already contained the value. He was not focused on work. Her tears suddenly fell. He chuckles that he might cry. It must be strong, it cannot cry like this. He's not a weak man. He must be strong for his family. It cannot be sad. But the more trying his tears flowed even his sobs came out. Arkan's breath became congested. He is unable to breathe. He's very sorry. Who wouldn't regret if he could just keep quiet without being able to protect his family. He's just a jerk who can't be held responsible.

"I'm sorry, honey.."

"pardon me..."

"I'm sorry..." Arkan fell from a chair hugging his own body crying in the solitude of the night. Let her cry one last time.

*****

"Papa... Bundaa" Call Cessa waving as her father picks her up for school with her.

Arkan and Febri smiled back at their son. Then he walked over to Cessa. Arkan carried Cessa into his arms.

"Cessa kangen papa.." Cessa wrapped her hands around Arkan's neck.

"Your mother doesn't miss?" febri Goda.

"Kangennn.... Same with Al too..." The atmosphere became silent hearing Cessa's final sentence. She knew Cessa would ask her sister.

"We're taking a walk.." Arkan's free hand stroking Febri's back calmed down.

"Yey..."

Then they get in the car. Febri sits in front of Arkan while Cessa is in the back. Febri was still silent, it was difficult to live as if everything was fine. Though his heart was always crying could not escape from the shadows of the past.

"Papa.. Cessa wants a sister?" cessa suddenly.

The quiet atmosphere suddenly gripped. Febri and Arkan looked at each other. Since that incident they have not thought about the program anymore. There is still trauma inside Febri to conceive. The woman is afraid of losing.

"Let Cessa not be lonely. They have a funny sister. Cessa mau.. Nuns..." Cessa Whines.

Arkan then smiled, he stroked his son's hair slowly. "Cessa's gonna have a sister. Cessa is patient.. Cessa has to be a good boy first. Don't be naughty, don't cry a lot and be spoiled. You see if having a sister means Cessa has to be strong to protect Cessa's sister."

"Just like Kak Al's kayak who protected Cessa pa.."

Febri turned his face to hear the chatter. His tears were flowing unconsciously. He held his so that his son could not be heard. He was tormented by this situation. He doesn't know what to do.

"Yes." Yeah." Arkan clasped Febri's hand. He knew Febri must have been very hurt.

"Cessa's gonna be a good boy."