Lust Satisfiers

Episode 27's

Today I really fell asleep after that soak, you know - wake up at night at 7. I was lazing on the bed looking for my HP.

" God .... I overslept. "murmured while opening HP and it turned out that many messages were coming in.

I saw the incoming email and it turned out it was from the Company that Papa was one of its People shareholders.

The email tells that the dividend distribution for shareholders, especially Papa Shares is quite large there.

I immediately replied to the email and immediately opened how many lots were shared. It was incredible that Papa's struggle and hard work during his life. I salute and take pride in all of his achievements.

Until every possession of his is always listed my name. I am fortunate to have such a rich legacy from them.

But I always ask - ask what problems they face so they can fuss at home like in hell.

Aunty used to say They love each other very much. Never a storm, always getting along and harmonious until I was born. And what I remember when I was a kid My parents always loved me with affection.

" Is Mama cheating ??? or Papa ????" that's what I always thought.

Maybe lately I've been happy, thinking to myself but behind it all, so deep down I miss them the most. Don't know why I don't want to cry anymore, more to stare with a blank mind.

But don't know why, Today I really miss Them. I slowly took the photo on my desk. I took it with trembling hands. My eyes are hot and my head is about to break. I stared at the photo with a trembling body without saying anything. I just kept quiet.

Not knowing why since They left, If there is anything to do with Them, My body always trembles and cannot speak when I have much to say.

This mouth as if someone was holding back even wanting to open it just felt difficult.

I walked towards my bed with mixed feelings. All the feelings of sadness, pleasure just gathered in my head and heart.

" So sincere you left this all for me. " I muttered and lay with my eyes closed.

A person who does not have a Brother is very painful. Sharing stories cannot be done. You can only bury and bury yourself in your heart.

There is no heartbreak. Everyone must survive alone.

That night I didn't hold my HP at all. I was just trying to close my eyes, staring at the wall of the room in silence.

Some calls and chats came in, I was silent and didn't accept and reply.

I think about what my life will be like and how I have to face my already very bleak life.

There is nothing I can be proud of in my life even though all my friends say that I live perfectly and have everything. Just sitting quietly at home can also be.

But that's all they know. Not with my Personal who is full of questions. Why???? Why?????

My destiny is like this. I accept it although still sometimes still approached curiosity that. I want to cry and I can't.

I turn off my room lights and hope I can sleep with a good dream tonight.