Lust Satisfiers

Episode 2

Sometimes I ignore problems at home and hang out with Friends. I get along like a teenager in general.

But I've never told My Family life the same as anyone but Auntie.

When I graduated, my friends and I had a farewell like every other schoolboy. My close friend Cloy and I decided to go to one of the public universities not far from my house and it was one of my favorite universities. I wanted to try the track of achievement for medical school even though Mama and Papa said to enter private only when I told you at the time.

Every day I've only been home since the breakup from school was over. I'm lazy to go out unless there's a need. I sometimes help - help Auntie at home and one day arrives - suddenly I was thinking of going into Mama's room with Papa even though I usually like it there.

I'm thinking there must be something in there to see why they're always at odds.

I went in and slowly opened every drawer and closet there. But I didn't find anything.

I stood staring at the wedding photo of Mama with Papa who emanated a happy smile from both of them. And the picture of the three of us that adorned the walls of that room.

My chest felt so claustrophobic looking at it and imagining what was happening every day. The word makian and the name of the animal has become commonplace between Papa and Mama.

" This is the example that parents should show their children ???? Or Was there a problem when I was present between Papa and Mama ???? " my murmur groaned withholding tears.

Until one day Papa came home late because of a meeting at the office, I heard the door knock in front of their room. Papa knocked on the door of the room but Mama never opened it to make Papa emotional and shouted "Anji** .... Open the door, " cried Papa while kicking the door very hard.

I'm used to hearing that but still I'm scared and cover my body with a blanket.

" bsbbruuuaaakkk ... " Papa broke down the door of his room until his ankle opened and was broken.

" You deaf !!!! " petus Papa.

" Shut up !!!! if you don't like it don't sleep here. Lots of bacots !!!! mama replied in a loud voice as well.

Mouthfighting occurred in the room and there were sounds of mockery and insults.

I was getting scared and it was as if my mind was distressed to see and hear that.

" Houses are usually called People - People are not just a building to be occupied. In fact, many of them interpret the house as something that can create comfort, warmth, and happiness in the heart. "

^^^ But for me at the moment it's not like that. I felt the pain and sadness that was in it. There is no happiness that I find in that house.^^^

Sometimes I always think about going out and going. I can make decisions in my life. But on the other hand, I don't want to leave the house and don't want to add to Mama's burden on Papa.

I want to know why and what caused their attitude change. Did Mama or Papa cause something fatal mistake that could not be forgiven each other so that their attitude became like this as if no one cared.

One night Mama didn't come home and I also saw Papa from above walking around drunk. Papa comes home from work probably drinking with his office friends or it could be Papa himself who drinks.

" Ma ... why haven't you come home yet ??? " tanyaku.

" Oh ... GPP Ma's.... Mama who's Ma there ??? I was a little sad for the answer.

" Himself, Son. Mama wants to be alone first. Mama wants to nenangin herself first, tomorrow wekeend. You if you want to go out Gpp Nak. Go out or walk, watch it. "the answer is relaxed.

" Okay Ma .. Yes Mama rested, yes."

" Yes, Nak. love you ."." said Mama who always said that every time she ended the conversation.

I let out a sigh when I heard Mama say that she forgot to tell me. What does it mean to forget that ?????

I went down and asked Papa to go up and into his room.

" Liver, Pa" I said, holding her hand.

" Thankyou Darling ... " Papa smiles to see me.

I almost show my tears seeing the smile on Papa's face while looking at me. Instantly I want to ask "What happened ???? What's up ??? " but my mouth feels hard to say.

I drove Papa straight to his room and he went straight to sleep.

With a little run, I went out and ran to my room. There I cried non-stop.

I don't know what to say. The tightness in my chest the more it hurts to see my family that has no harmony at all.

That night I really couldn't sleep. My mind was empty and just sat on my bed with a blank look.

I wonder what ways can calm my mind. I don't know why smoking came to my mind.

I immediately took HP and ordered 1 pack of cigarettes from the online shop.

Without thinking, I immediately smoked in my own room with thoughts and feelings of sadness.

It is true, it turns out smoking can relieve My feelings even if it is only a little.

From then on, I became a Smoker even if only occasionally. I told you it was the same Auntie not the same Papa and Mama.

First Aunt strictly forbid, but finally she just ordered not to be too much and often smoked. Aunty probably knew and understood my feelings because she herself always heard them at home.

Sometimes I also order alcohol to meet me at night. Because Mama and Papa lately often drunk - drunk. Then I should try it too. I'm tired of being nice and just a spectator among them.

Even I've had one daily in the room just drinking and smoking. But I don't care about Mama Papa. They are engrossed in their own world, So I too must be.