Lust Satisfiers

Episode 172

" Hi Honey .... I'm sorry, I have to go home without telling you. Sorry if all this time I've been wrong with you. I'm sorry if I was too pushy about how you feel for me. Thank you for all the wonderful things you have given me for my life. I'm always praying that you'll be happy always. Hopefully at another time We can meet with happiness Keep Yourself Good. Healthy healthy yes .... "

I lift my chin. I wish my tears would stop.

" What is this ??? "

My chest feels so bad reading that message. I clasped my hand tightly.

" Pray that you may meet him again. Don't blame yourself too much. Not everything we have wrapped and closed neatly will be beautiful but there will be pebble gravel that inhibits or grows there. Finish all your ego, rise up and live it all with gratitude. Sorry this time Mami was a little upset and angry with you. " said Mami stroked my back.

I feel like he's gone away from me. My back was burly and peaceful when I felt tired of leaning now it had turned around.

My mind rages when He really lost contact with me.

I tried to calm down and stroke my chest. Hope everything's okay.

" I'm sorry Mi" I said looking at Mami sitting next to me.

My mother nodded and stroked my hair. Mami's maturity always made me feel at ease as she gave me advice and advice.

" Are You Okay ??? Let's find another one, OK??!!! " mommy said seduce me and joked for me to smile.

I smiled looking at Mami while standing up and invited Mami to leave.

On my way home from the airport, I just kept quiet and looked out along that road.

I feel so guilty about myself, especially RR. When I was sick, He took care of me. Maybe his job was left just for me.

Now what have I done ?????

There was nothing good I gave Him all this time. Now what am I going to do ???

The tranquility and comfort I had from Him was instantly gone. Am I able to fix it or even find it from a different person ???

I why ???? Why ????

The question kept coming up in my mind. Even though Mami didn't tell me if she'd come here again or not.

Ja. Definitely come. Because the business here is a lot. But will He tell me ????

I'm trying to calm down because I met Him just for last night's love.

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A few weeks have passed and I have never contacted Him. I'm always busy with Boutique and Office work so I never and always try to think about it.

Every time I see Mami, we spend time drinking and hanging out. To make love one night right now hasn't made me want to do it again.

Once, I wanted to take it out with another Boy for thinking too much into making me cry in my solitude.

As usual, Mami also went with Brondongnya. I satisfied my passion with a Fatherland Footballer. I played and in my view it was just RR. I was hysterical at the height of the pleasure.

Every moment of his face, his smile was very clear in my eyes.

I immediately left the Man while He was sleeping and went straight home.

I also told Mami that I went home first that night.

At home, I cried on my bed. I miss Him who makes me feel comfortable and calm.

I ventured to grab my phone next to me and call her number.

I waited for the call to come in and it turned out that the number was off or no longer in use.

From there I wiped my tears and in Me, I implanted that He is not a Good Man.

Don't waste time just crying and remembering.

From there I began to forget and completely forget.

I met some of the Men and became close. But not for a relationship but just friends.

From there, I began to open myself up to be friends with anyone without having to care about his status.

The important thing is not to do things that are not good and do not interfere with my every activity.

" Love can go just to test where your loyalty is and how lost it is. But there are also times when love chooses to let go when all its hopes are lost and in vain. "