Loving Yourself

From Heart to Heart

Ha Jae and his three children are busy preparing for their camping needs. After they finished with dinner and time to rest. Ha Jae got into the big tent belonging to his 3 children.

Ha Jae stood silently looking at his 3 children. Haneul, Nami and Yuri, could only be stunned looking at Ha Jae in bewilderment. Ha Jae threw a thin smile before he closed the tent tightly. Ha Jae turned around and looked back at his 3 children. Things get more tense when Haneul backwards gather with his two friends with a soul full of fear. Haneul said something that made Nami and Yuri's thin smile disappear.

"Sorry," Haneul backtracked from Ha Jae's presence.

Ha Jae looked towards Nami and Yuri. "I brought you here because there's something I want to say" Ha Jae said, making the atmosphere even more tense. "You've been in my life. So you should know, you mean Haneul."

Haneul only bowed down by occasionally stealing a glance at Ha Jae's face. Nami and Yuri looked at each other. They look very confused. Except for Haneul, who looks really scared.

Ha Jae took off one by one his clothes. He only left his minimal underwear in deep black. Nami and Yuri were shocked by what she saw in front of her. But Haneul, as if not surprised by it.

"Mama," Nami closed her mouth and turned her head towards Yuri. As for Haneul, just bowed down.

Ha Jae looked at Nami with a faint smile, before he sat cross-legged in front of the three of them.

"You in my life are like these wounds that have been scratched in my body. Deep and imprinted," Ha Jae looked at Haneul blankly. "I used to be an innocent and weak girl like you guys," Ha Jae threw a smile with such a deep gaze.

Ha Jae told all his travels to the three of them. There was nothing that Ha Jae covered up, even he also told me where he got the scars on his body.

"I'm just a soul dropping by in your life. The word 'Mama' is just a figure of speech. You still have your own life. You must live your own life. That's what I want." Ha Jae looked at Haneul, Nami and Yuri gently. "Don't just because you have me, then you don't need anything else. You guys need that. Because I don't live forever in your life, not even in this world."

"Mama," Haneul seems to forbid Ha Jae from saying that.

"I am a soul who wants to live. It was not easy to have a foreign child for me. I didn't take that time. I asked God, I was angry at God, "Why should I?!" But I tried to open my heart and my mind, I looked further into my soul." Ha Jae grabbed Haneul's chin. "He is also a soul who wants to live. Same as me. And I have to make it live. Because he deserved it," Ha Jar smiled faintly at Haneul. "After I received it. It turns out that she's an amazing life" Ha Jae looked at Haneul full of praise. "I found a life I never felt. This is amazing. I have you, who no one else has. I'm sure it is. Then why are you scared?!" Ha Jae glanced at Haneul.

"I don't want to lose you" Haneul bowed. "I want just you My Mama,"

"And Keu will be sad to lose your Mama again?!" Ha Jae looked at Haneul deeply.

Haneul shook his head. "Not that! That will never happen." exclaimed Haneul. "Why isn't Mama Appa married?! Why are you crazy?!" Haneul.

"Huh?! Haneul?!" chirps Nami. "What do you mean?!"

"No. Cuman ...," Haneul did not continue.

"You believe me?!" ask Ha Jae.

Haneul, Nami and Yuri stared at each other. "Why not," Yuri said with Confidence. "You're good to us. Even if you're a slave, a murderer, a mustard, I don't care. Like the head of the parlor told us. As long as he does good to us, we deserve to do good to him. Even if it's a cruel criminal. Because that's a man, he has a good soul and also has a bad soul. And you give us good, ", Yuri explained.

"Me too, sure." - Nami.

"sorry. You're right, I used to hate and reject you. Now you're sharing the angels in my life" Haneul said. "Can I ask you something?" Haneul looked at Ha Jae expectantly.

"What?!" Ha Jae returned Haneul's loving gaze.

"Don't leave me. You have to stay alive for me." said Haneul.

Ha Jae looked at Haneul. She shed tears unconsciously. "I can't promise you sweetness" Ha Jae stroked Haneul's face gently. "Ha Jae almost died because of his own stupidity" Ha Jae explained.

"Why?!" ask Haneul disappointed. "You're alive now."

"I. Not Ha Jae" Ha Jae said.

Haneul lowered his head in silence. "Listen to me. You guys are friends already. You're sodara. Whatever happens, live happily, together." Ha Jae clasped the hands of the three of them simultaneously. "Don't tomorrow. In just this second, I could die. Ha Jae could die at any time." Ha Jae rubbed Yuri's head. "Look and listen to me," Ha Jae straightened up his seat. He closed his eyes and opened them. "If I have no love, I have no fear. I have no good that I do. That means Ha Jae is dead. He's not around anymore." Ha Jae looked at Haneul with tears drenching his cheeks. "And you must kill this weak body." Ha Jae looked at his three children with a blank look. "I don't want this body to get further and lose control, to hurt the people I love later." Ha Jae pointed towards his right chest. "You see this, right here. Right over here. You can only kill him here. Other than here, this body would still be alive. Because of this body, it's not just mine." said Ha Jae softly.

Haneul gulped his saliva before bowing softly. Nami and Yuri stared at each other because they were still confused by what Ha Jae meant.

"Haneul's. You want to release the pain in my soul?!" ha Jae asked expectantly.

Haneul just fell silent. He nodded his head to answer. "Emm," he murmured doubtfully.

"I love you. I'm sorry," Ha Jae's cry broke out. "I love kalain. Thank you for keeping me alive. Thank you," Ha Jae hugged his three daughters tightly.

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