Loving Yourself
Overlooked
On the bus I headed to SJ Entertainment, Shin Ji Joon's office. I still tried to contact Shin Ji Joon a few times. But still there was no answer by him.
Basic, even though I patiently waited. Really, am I not important? Does he not like me? Hate me? What because of my face? Is he disgusted by me?! I murmured in my heart.
My mind's fucked up. All the prejudices came into my brain. The more I try not to think about it. The more my brain is not replaced with questions that do not make sense.
Yeah, I know. I was hoping for more. I murmured in my heart trying to accept the reality.
I arrived in front of the SJ Entertainment office. I decided to sit down in the office park chair.
I tried to calm my mind which was still full of Shin Ji Joon. After I felt my mind was calm. I immediately walked into that magnificent building, to pass the important file to Shin Ji Joon.
"Excuse me, can I meet Mr Shin Ji Joon?" my greeting to an employee in the reception room.
"Sir Manager is shooting on the 3rd floor. Please wait a moment, I'll tell you." he told me to sit in the waiting room.
"Sorry, is it still a long time??" I asked softly to the receptionist.
"It's probably still about 1 hour'an again Miss. Any messages?" obviously very friendly.
"Emm no. I just want to leave this file for Mr. Shin Ji Joon. Tell me this file from Mr. William Yokada. Significant. So please convey it immediately, yes." I asked the employee.
With a heavy heart, I handed him a thick brown envelope.
"Okay Miss, I'll tell you soon. Any more messages I need?" tanyakanya.
"none. That's it, thank you." I said.
"Thank you again Miss." she replied with a friendly smile.
I rushed out of the building feeling disappointed and relieved. Disappointed that day I could not meet Shin Ji Joon. Relieved because my task from Yokada has been completed.
In fact, I would love to meet. I murmured in my heart.
On my way home. I intend to contact Yokada for dinner together. Maybe my heart can be a little happy.
I'd better meet Senpai. My inner.
I pulled my phone out of my backpack. I tried to contact Yokada, to ask him where he was.
"Mrsne. Neng's at?" (Senpai. Where's?) my many.
"Oo, I neng kantor're Ji Joon. Ono opow??" (Oo, I'm in Ji Joon's office. What's up?) yokada answered on the other end of the phone.
"OOOOOO!!"
Feeling relieved, I raised my face. I was shocked when I saw the expressions of the people sitting on the bus. They looked at me with a strange glare.
"I'm sorry, I have a problem. Excuse me" I said as I got off the bus in shame.
When I got home. I slammed the door of my room firmly and locked it tightly. I went to the bathroom upset.
I put warm water in that pure white bathtub. Without waiting for long, I stripped off all my clothes and went into the bathtub.
Soaking in warm water will help lower stress. I murmured in my heart.
I submerged my body in the warm water I had mixed with the therapeutic soap bauk rose extract.
Hag leganya's. Soaking is the right choice. My heart is calm.
I waited patiently, but why not come?! Until the message I sent wasn't read, was he on purpose? Exorbitant! Paddapalkan .... I murmured in my heart.
I don't feel like I'm getting late in disappointment. I couldn't hold back my tears, which inexplicably flowed like my own desire to wet my cheeks.
Why is my chest this tight? My inner.
I don't feel myself sad that I should cry. But why does my chest feel tight?! My head is so dizzy, my tears can't stop.
I mostly drink coffee. Ow hell! My inner.
I put my body deeper into the water.
After I soak. I wrapped my hair and body with towels and pajamas that were like hugging me with warmth.
Hagg, the leg, I murmured in my heart.
I picked up some clothes in my closet. I danced it over a small bouquet before wearing it.
I rushed out to get some water, because my throat was dry. I gasped as I came out of the bathroom, seeing that Yokada was already lying on my bed while watching a show on the television screen.
"KHYAAA!!" my sergeant throws a towel on my head towards Yokada with great force.
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