Loving Yourself

The Lost Hope

"Who is that guy?!" ask Man.

"Who? You mean Shin Ji Joon?!" answer Hani.

"They are compatible. You agree they're together?" ask Hani.

"So right." murmured Man. "Cih." he muttered back.

"Why? What was? You don't like it?!!" ask Hani curious.

"Pertele-tele." cried Man.

"That you! That's romantic tauk. Ehh you don't bother ya. If my members I will make calculations with you." threatened Hani.

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They just stand outside the building. They do not think that things become like this.

Hani still occasionally wiped her tears. Not long after coming the new Yokada came along with Min Ho and Min Sae.

"Hi, you guys are here. Why not come in?" yokada Saya.

"Yes, we're going in, too." Jennie said.

"Hey why are you crying huh?" yokada asked Lee Hani.

"Anu, that. Hani can't find her boyfriend. It's too crowded inside." Jennie said.

"Ah yes right." - timpal Kyun.

"You're this. Why not phone? Young people today. Come on in." tell Yokada to walk into the building.

"Yes, fine." Jennie said.

"Hey, we better get in" Jennie said.

"really. Come on." exclaimed Kyun.

They entered the building together. Man was also seen following his friends. Get inside the building. It looks so luxurious and magnificent that party. Really a very festive party.

Hani, Jennie, Kyun, and Man could only sit quietly at the guest table. They seemed to be choking to enjoy the dishes in front of them. There was sadness on their faces.

Hani still occasionally wiped her tears. He could not see the happy looking Shin Ji Joon on stage with another woman beside him. It should be Choi Ha Jae who feels next to Shin Ji Joon.

Lee Hani's cry broke as Shin wore a ring to Julia's ring finger. And vice versa.

"Hag hagg, why?! Aa a hu hu." exclaimed Lee Hani.

"Eh this you. It's not good to see people. A lot of people see it" Jennie said, trying to help wipe away Hani's tears.

"Hey already has. Look at your eyeliner all wear off." sideline Kyun gave me a tissue.

"You are loyal, no. Poor tauk Coco. Wuaha ha." exclaimed Hani crying more and more.

The man who saw it got up from his seat. He took off the suit he was wearing and gave it to Hani. Man forces Hani, persuading her to come out with him. Kyun and Jennie ask Man to help calm Hani down outside the building.

There was happiness on Julia's face. Shin Ji Joon, who was so handsome in his black suit, also looked so happy by greeting all the guests who were present that night.

On the other side. Far away there. Choi Ha Jae feels uneasy in him.

"Jaea. Turu's hedge?!" (Jaea. Not sleeping?!) ask Mr. Den.

"Pak Den's. Don't know why. My chest feels tight. Something is missing. But I don't know why." said Ha Jae. "I feel like there's something. But what is it. My chest's tight. I'm not calm."

"Wes ta lah. Wes Prayer?!" (Udah. Praying yet?!) ask Mr. Den.

"Emm." Ha Jae replied.

"Lho di takok'i am a em ae. Wes gek dhang jepuk Wudhu. Melu njai ambi I wae neng Masjid." (Lho inquired am em a. Get some spit there, get some Wudhu. Come with me at the mosque.) said Mr. Den.

Ha Jae also obeyed Mr. Den's orders. They teach together in the mosque. But for what reason, Ha Jae Tetiba's tears were pouring out.

Ha Jae was surprised by what happened to him. Her chest is getting tighter. I want him to cry hard.

Just be right. Ha Jae's cry also broke into. Mr. Den and some of the students who saw it. Confused and panicked.

"Pak Den's. The trance of Mr. Den." exclaimed a Santri in panic.

"Horo Nang, iki kesurup ora Nang?" ask Mr. Den with one of his students.

"Boten Pak Den's. Saestu Boten." (Not Mr Den. Really no.) she answered watching Ha Jae.

"Lha jur ngopow ghor in delok. Jipuk to ngombe kono." (Lha trus why just look. Get me a drink there.) said Mr. Den.

"Sir, Istighfar Nduk" said Mr. Den holding Ha Jae's head down.

Den sir he's trying to calm Ha Jae down. He looks confused. There are a lot of cases of abuse that he has handled. But this time, it looks very different and strange. Mr. Den was confused by what happened to Ha Jae, who was crying out.

About half an hour passed. Ha Jae seems to have calmed down. With a hiccup, Ha Jae tried asking Mr. Den.

"Why ..ku Den?? Ad.. ..pa with my ak-me?" ask Ha Jae.

"Lha what I am. Lha kowe we seng hoversak to be confused." (Lha what I am. It is you who feel confused.) said Mr. Den sitting next to Ha Jae who is still hiccuping. "What's wrong? Wh why? What problem? Which one in rasain what? Wes is. Rampung no seng mu mangis. Yung is your tuber kui. Ngasi mleeberrr, hiii jhijhik akuh." (Udah is it. Finish your crying first. Hii your snot. Until luberrr, hiii disgust me.)

Ha Jae also laughed while occasionally wiping his tears and snot. About an hour passed Ha Jae came back from the ablution. He looks so calm. He drank the water given by Mr. Den. Mr. Den asked Ha Jae again.

"Pie how you feel?" ask Mr. Den.

"Emm."

Ha Jae just fell silent. Like something he was feeling. He also held his chest. Trying to take a deep breath and bring it out.

"In my chest it feels hollow. Something is missing. But I don't know what it is. I feel like crying. I feel like I've lost something precious." said Ha Jae.

"You're talking about sharks." (You're in deep.) whispered Mr. Den in front of Ha Jae's ears.

Ha Jae heard that too. Glanced sharply at Mr. Den. Mr. Den also threw a jaily smile so that Ha Jae did not feel offended.

"Wes ngene's. Awak'e dewe ki ghor. I yo ora ngerti opow seng to lakonni sak iki. The possession of yo ora, neng kok ujuk-ujuk nanges koyo wong rusupan. Do not forget that ki iseh is safe. Neng kok nganu." (Udah gini. We are only human. I also know what you are going through right now. Possession is also not, but kok suddenly cry rich people possessed. Not looking around is safe, either. But it is strange.) said Mr. Den. "Yo ball-balio I ki ghor menungso. Kanggo kowe, Sholate seng rajen, naji seng often, dikir continue in eleng, ojo ngasi pedot though ghor in baten." (Yes, I am only human. For you, the prayer is diligent, frequent salary, remembrance continues to be remembered, do not break even just in the mind.)

Mr. Den looked at the silent Ha Jae seriously. He was confused by what this girl before him was experiencing. To Mr. Den, Ha Jae is a special girl.

"Wes gek break kono. Sak hurunge bali nyang. Melu I'm a sikek. No sightseeing in Banyuwangi City. Have you ever been to Banyuwangi City?" (Snake rest there. Tomorrow before returning to Korea. Come with me first. I took a walk to Banyuwangi City. Never been to Banyuwangi City?) added Mr. Den.

"Jeh, suwun." (Yes, Thank you) said Ha Jae.

Ha Jae went to the cottage where he was staying. Before he entered the cabin made of bamboo. He looked deep into the sky covered by the clouds that night.

"Why did. I feel like my heart is empty. There is no place and purpose for me to go. Even to Korea, there is no reason anymore. Why do I feel this." Ha Jae muttered in his daydream.

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That night, the show went well. Shin Ji Joon is sitting on his bed. He kept twirling the ring that was coiling on his ring finger. Not what he thinks. Tetiba Shin cried into.

He threw a clock and a glass at the small table next to his bed. Shin shouted hysterically in his room. Not long after, Yang's sekertatis came to see Shin's state.

"HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!"

"Master! Sir, what's wrong, sir?! Can I help you?!" said Secretary Yang looking at Shin who was already sitting on the floor of his room.

"Go from my room. I'm my own masu." said Shin.

"But Sir," said Secretary Yang.

"GO!!!" hardik Shin's.

Secretary Yang is forced to leave Shin Ji Joon who looks depressed in his room. He was so very worried about what was going on with his Young Master.

Secretary Yang intends to meet Yokada. He thought, only Yokada can help him. Because all this time, only Yokada was the closest to Shin Ji Joon.

That very night, Secretary Yang went to Yokada's house. He won't, delaying too long. To make the situation of the Young Master worse.

"Excuse Me, Sir. There are guests who want to meet with the Master." said Yu Hee.

"Hisses. Who is?! Can't you see I'm dizzy, huh?!" yokada Sahut.

"I'm Yoshida." Sidelines Secretary Yang into Yokada's room.

"You?!" yokada.

"You get out of here." Yokada told Yu Hee.

Even Yang's secretary was without orders to sit in front of Yokada casually. They look at each other. Not a word they said for a while.

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