Loving Yourself

The Stare So Close

The time is 09:21.PM. We decided to go home to each of us.

"Hani, you will come home with Man" I told Hani.

"Huh? Wh why?? I can go home by myself," Hani refused to look at me.

"It's an order!!" I replied with a serious look at Hani. "And you've helped me, so I need to make sure you're safe until your destination."

"Aren't I?!" jennie's sidelines came up to me from behind.

"You're the same boy" my god was upset.

On a whim I pat Jennie's bangs up to fight.

"Yeah" Jennie shouted.

He retreated to tidy up his bangs.

We started to separate one by one. We go home to each other's homes. Before we parted, we did not forget to gather to say goodbye.

"Daaa be careful on the road," I said waving to Jennie and Kyun.

"Dadaaaaaa you too!!" sergeant Jennie returned my hand.

"Coco! be careful!" kyun waved both of his hands.

"Yooo!!" I answered raising my hand. "Sir Shin hasn't come home yet?"

I looked towards Shin who was standing behind me.

"What about you?" shin Ji Joon looked at me.

"Mmm, I have a short business to do," I said approaching Shin.

"Let me take you. It's not good for women to come home alone at night" she said.

"I'm fine, I can go home by myself" I replied trying to decline his offer.

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Finally, I came home to Shin Ji Joon, after he persuaded me in Yokada's name.

Damnit. I was angry in my heart.

I paused my intention to go to the Sauna that Lee Tae showed me this afternoon. On the way my brain is still disturbed by all those vague feelings of mine.

Damn, why is this the person I like. Why not the other. There are many handsome oppas of him. I murmured in my heart.

I occasionally glanced at Shin Ji Joon who was busy driving the car next to me.

Me, what do I have to be worthy of you? I murmured in my heart.

"Huh?! Why?" chirping Shin looked towards me.

I gasped and stared at Shin Ji Joon. I was shocked to hear Shin's question.

Geez! I said what the hell?! I murmured in my heart.

"Emm, earlier, why? You said you wanted to go somewhere first?? Let me take you with me." explained Shin Ji Joon occasionally looking at me.

"Ohh!! That's. Anu. Eeee, tomorrow, yes tomorrow." I replied. "I thought what'an."

"What?! What is 'What'an'?" shin Ji Joon asked to look at me curiously.

"Eee. It's nothing" I replied trying to blink. "You been dating Julia for a long time?"

I didn't realize I was asking the right thing I didn't ask Shin.

"Eee anu, I mean .. "I don't go on with what I want to say. "Ee is not. Sorry,"

Iiss, stupid stupid fool, why the hell. I murmured in my heart.

I bowed in shame, occasionally scratching my forehead with my fingers while closing my eyes. I really wanted to ask a lot about Julia.

I also want to ask you about Shin's Instagram account name. But I think I'm too presumptuous if I ask him all that.

"Me and Julia are just friends. His father and my father were business partners since we were kids. No more," Shin explained to me.

Sometimes he smiles at me.

I don't know what else to say. I was right to feel awkward and embarrassed. I could ask Shin something like that.

On the way I tried to stay quiet. I leaned my back trying to be as comfortable as possible. I wish I could fall asleep on this trip, so that I wouldn't feel awkward and embarrassed about Shin. But why, I can't sleep. Julia, Yura, Shin, they're really messing with my mind. About an hour and a half drive, we finally reached my house.

"Anu, Sir Shin would like to stop by for a moment? Senpai must have been waiting inside," I said, inviting Shin to stop by the house.

"No, I just go home" she replied, looking at me with a smile.

Looking at her smile and her beautiful eyes, I was hypnotized.

"eeee. Okay. Me, anu, eee I go in first," I said.

I opened the car door wrongly. I rushed out of the car unconsciously seatbelt I had not yet released. I was also slammed backwards by the seatbelt that had not been released.

"Anu, her Seatbelt," Shin tried to grab my slammed shoulder.

"Ooo!" seruku jerked back.

"Let me help you escape" said Shin.

Shin brought his body closer to me to help remove my seatbelt. Our faces are very close. I was glued to see it, my chest was beating so fast.

Oh jesus.

Maybe if Shin realized it. He could hear my irregular heartbeat.

Klekk (open Seatbelt sound).

Our eyes were looking very close. His thin smile drifted away from before my face. We're really very close.

"Already, please. Careful," said Shin smilingly looking at me.

"Oo, anu, yes, yell, thank you," I replied in a hurry to get out of the car. "Ouch!"

My left leg stumbled because I took a wrong step.

"Sorry, thanks. Be careful on the road" I said, bowing my regards.

I rushed up the stairs. I was stunned when I realized the car door had not closed.

"Oh," I patted my forehead.

I turned around and saw Shin who was having trouble closing the car door.

"Ahh sorry sir, I forgot to close it," I said hurriedly grabbed the car door and closed it.

"It's okay, thank you," he said with a stifled smile.

"Sorry," I exclaimed.

I know he laughed at my stupid behavior. It's just that he's not good. I tried to retreat to keep my distance from Shin's car. He just ran his car away from me.

I turned around and went up into the house. Just a few steps I walked, I turned my head towards Shin. The car is invisible from my sight.

"Huffa"

I let out my breath and took it out. I'll be right inside the house.

"Assalamu'alaikum," my greeting went into the house.

"Hey!" the scream of someone surprised me.

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...THE BONUS!!...

Long before going to the park. Jennie and Kyun are surveying the Jungang market. It looks so cool and enjoys the atmosphere that afternoon.

..."Hey singles! Don't be jealous, yeah,"...

...(write Kyun on his social media page)...

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